produced by @sxthsns

lyrics:

ok I gave me no challenge
still sippin on chalice
of
extent of my talent
greater than young me imagined

like ooh ooh ooh

raised on madness
"zip it fore we smoke ya pack like its fanny"

ooh ooh

bent warm plastic
bad mold all i ever was god damn it

yeah

the crew of my crude imagination
got me unaware
got me simply scared
of my future and what it brought

on another hand
could say i was content
talking to tinker bell
speaking to peter pan
bout my life lived with fraught

how should a child grow?
guess ill never know
it dont ring no bells
when a nigga tells
me
"you was posed to live it loud"

among the many cells
that made me who i am
had me clutching for a way out
out of this hell

ooh ooh ooh
all the cannonballs
yall cut me off from

ooh ooh ooh
recess sitting still
tears drying out

like ooh ooh
watching from a distance

ooh ooh
i dont want be me no more

how can i be more like you
how can i be more like

i need some closure to my life
i want some lead and some powder
inside cortex thats the motto
all that i got at the moment
amounts and equals to nada
i need a good role model
that i can confide on

oh oh oh
you put me down
im on the ground
you took my crown

goin through withdrawals so i went and queued deposits
of faith towards everyone that wronged me with few options
saw so far ahead of my future aint need new optics
called myself my name yearning for a way to feel sovereign
my essence meant bla bla bla to them so i let it burn
seas of ceasing to exist washed over me i learned
to not give a single shit about nun nun nun nun nun nun
kwanza said it
if kwanza said it then its earned
earned
earned

ooh ooh ooh
all the cannonballs
yall cut me off from

ooh ooh
recess sitting still
tears drying out

like ooh ooh
watching from a distance

ooh ooh
i dont want be me no more

how can i be more like you
how can i be more like

ooh ooh ooh
all the cannonballs
yall cut me off from

ooh ooh
recess sitting still
tears drying out

like ooh ooh
watching from a distance

ooh ooh
i dont want be me no more

how can i be more like you
how can i be more like

inched closer and said something dumb like
"what yall talking bout?"
question fell on deaf ears..
first time that i felt devout
to body art with sharp shears,
pain inscribed below my palms
touch my wrists its braille for:
"a friend is all I ever want"

VERSUS

Spotify

VERSUS prod. sxth sns

i miss venturing

no i did not prod this i just filtered the instrumental

vulture city

additional vocals from @8tsukii and @zzoos
cover photo by @zzoos
============
@mopearound
may god strike me down where i stand
you got a problem nail me right up to the door
& dont look back
(why is she weeping for you, don't look back)

the daughter with clipped wings falls to the floor
now she can't dream of taking off once more
she's not intact
(just don't look back)

@8tsukii
girl you're my weapon, don't step into my corridor
oh please don't ignore
i'm not going back anymore
areż tumer ventamorez
yeah you claim that this is heaven, it's not home
no i wouldn't ever go back there
fuck what happened to last year
tumer comor tolesta
(yea i'm wishing you would understand)
yeah you claim that this is heaven, it's not home 

@zzoos
i let it burn
(i can feel you in my skin)
i can cut ties
but i keep getting worse
i went thru it all
i know the feeling that you learned
it still fucks with me and i still end up hurt
and i know that feeling
(fix me up)
im not your problem anymore
skin to wall, my lungs, they're bleeding
peeling off and falling to the floor

[2/6]

stream

freefall (with 8tsukii & zoos)

everything by me

out 07/26
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/anem0s/blister

lyrics:
the pus and blood is building up
whats stuck between the both of us
and i can't change how you love
ill lance the wound and drain what must
skin to skin
i felt the friction before the pain
tear it off, cut your losses
skin to skin
tarnished by your touch even when im safe
and you can't wash it off
you can't get involved again
again, again
and all thats left of us on my body is scars from your sins
the pus and blood are building up
whats stuck between the both of us
and i can't change how you love
ill lance the wound and drain what must

blister

21.2.24

lyrics:
with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

they're looking for you
but they never took the chance just to see me
so i'll watch you too

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

some have said that i'm picture-esque
but if they saw you
you would take their breath
so how does it feel
knowing i don't have the means to take my steps?

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

i almost told my mother i hate you
but it just seems unfair
cause you don't know me like that
hell, you don't know of me at all

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

they're looking for you
but they never took the chance just to see me
so i'll watch you too

soar

https://ffm.to/windwatcher

cover art by me

with her wings to the sea, she voyages onward
_____________________

touching the ground
you fell pretty hard, didn't you?
fjording the sound
kindle my claws and i'll come with you
brushing the bound
whistled in burlap it's sowing through
and no-one's in rounds
thistled in furrows i'm folding through

windwatcher, harvest the breadth from the rines
windwatcher, carving your stead in some time
windwatcher, caught all the arrows and climbed 
windwatcher, don't harken to them you'll be fine
windwatcher, cherish the callows in twine
windwatcher, spread both your wings and you'll fly

haunches and hallocks
had lost all the follage 
in bolstering burgeons 
had hauled out the hallage
surfeited solace
i'll foster the foundage
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still

touching the ground
you fell pretty hard didn't you
fjording the sound
kindle my claws and i'll come with you
mooring the crown 
when you had harbored no solitude 
in laurels lain down
i'm done trying hard not to look at you
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still 
unroven catching silt
caudal curled up, exalt shouldered will 
i know it all too well
staves aching but you're holding still
unroven catching silt
caudal curled up, exalt shouldered will

windwatcher, harvest the breadth from the rines
windwatcher, carving your stead in some time
windwatcher, caught all the arrows and climbed 
windwatcher, don't harken to them you'll be fine
windwatcher, cherish the callows in twine
windwatcher, spread both your wings and you'll fly

windwatcher

twice

DANCE MOAR!!!!!!!!!!!
- ily

(https://soundcloud.com/2ruu/fccs)

FCCS#truu24

cover and feature from @1dxn we made this shit so fast fr

lyrics!!
me
I think that im way too fucking drunk right now
and I cant focus cuz the musics too loud
and I didn't wanna keep my head down
but Id feel better if ur still around

spilled beer on my shirt now its see through
could say more than one word when I text u
looking through the names on ur phone like its a menu
was I just never enough I don't get u

u don't care about me
never in my life once have u cared ab me
and now im always frowning
I don't think I can remember why I want ur bounty

always the nice guy
u hate me, don't ask why
do u remember the last five
cuz I do now I cant try oh!

@1dxn
said "at the party, im too wasted"
and youre expecting me to save you now?
out my mind, your body's faceless
you'd look better when youre in a crowd

because its harder to see
id rather take these pills than see youre messaging me
id rather take myself than see your face on my screen
if that doesnt say something, dont say something to me, no-ho

me
I think that im way too fucking drunk right now
and I cant focus cuz the musics too loud
and I didn't wanna keep my head down
but Id feel better if ur still around

spilled beer on my shirt now its see through
could say more than one word when I text u
looking through the names on ur phone like its a menu
was I just never enough I don't get u

@1dxn
oh-oh
bet you wish i was the nice guy
got your feelings washing up like a riptide
miss that feeling, was it love, was it a blindside
was i the right guy? was it the right time?

but now youre wishing you could take me back
but its far too late for that
bottoms up, now im in my bag
this is nothing like you wanted right?

said "at the party, im too wasted"
and youre expecting me to save you now?
out my mind, your body's faceless
you'd look better when youre in a crowd

because its harder to see
id rather take these pills than see youre messaging me
id rather take myself than see your face on my screen
if that doesnt say something, dont say something to me, no-ho

me
(I hate ur guts)
(don't need ur luvv)

care about me!! + dan

streaming: https://ffm.to/iceinmybody

insta: instagram.com/stpcol

ice In My Body

damn, it's been a while since i logged on here, sorry about that.

found this one digging through his old hard drive, there's a bunch of songs i want to upload from there at some point. Never even knew he made this until recently though, makes me wonder how much other music of his remained unfinished or lost.

anyway, from the lyrics i can kind of piece together the circumstances being written about here, but i think it would be better kept a personal matter. I will say that it's something me and him both had to deal with, and it was probably significantly harder on him. That kid went through an amount of hardship that would break most people.

come to think of it 2011 was just a bad year in general for us. Mom was really struggling to make ends meet, dad's health was getting worse, and we'd basically been forced to sell the couple acres that our grandpa gave us in his will. Good news though was our older sister had moved back from out of state, so she was supporting us in any way she could.

Zion had also lost a close friend that year unfortunately. Everyone had said it was a vehicle accident, but i learned later he'd been fucking around with inhalants, and that was that. Can't even imagine how hard it must've been on his parents. Sadder part is it wasn't even that uncommon, around that area at least. Even the most unassuming blue collar neighborhoods can be hiding really deplorable shit. I do hope that wherever Zion is now though, he has better friends. Because he deserved them.

i saw a seraph on the street today. he was laughing and crying, cause nobody knew his name

i saw the devil on the promenade. bundled in flagstone, writing checks that I can’t pay

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

carriage, brim your bones

i saw my father on the news today. he was tracing his prayer beads, as the red and blue took him away

bevel the whipsaw for the cavalcade. I’m eating your bullets, with a spoon made out of clay

and I am a lamb wrapped up in thermogen. shear off all the stope you take

keep her there, failing throne

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

i know you're starting to get scared of me
the more i try, the worse it gets
and i can't stand the way they stare at me
but i'll try to live with my regrets

twice

crossoak