Name: Left On Read by Cruel Ploy
Duration: 3 min 46 s
Description: The song kicks off with a delicate, mournful guitar loop, almost too pretty for the emotional carnage that’s about to unfold. Then Skyler comes in like someone who’s been practicing this call-out speech in the shower for a week straight: soft, shaky, controlled… until it isn’t.

Interest Waning

i don't speak my feelings much, why not sing my strongest ones?
i also promised myself to release this song and get these feelings out of my system before i turned 19, and this is proof that i didn't fail, even if i did it on the last day before the 14th of February.

lyrics:
Here, I sit,
Why I sit here with this cloud.
I'd never wanna make you cry again,
I don't want to wear this gown ever again.

Here, I lay,
With my body face down.
Confused, with hatred,
I am screaming at that cloud.

Here, and now,
I tried to make me proud.
I slit straight down,
My body's on the ground.

Why, I grasp,
What cannot be found.
Outlines on the ground,
No killer to be found.

All, they found,
Is a knife clenched in my fist.
It, revealed, blood running down my arm.

How could I let this happen?

with blood running down my arm

(TW SUI*IDE & SELF HATRED)
its off time because thats how my life is, please get annoyed at my life.

Lyrics:
He keeps me up by the strings,
Keeps me to himself like his plaything.
He puts me on display for the whole world to see,
The whole hall is just laughing at me.

His friends watch in awe,
As I picked up the saw.
I put it to my artery, and I put it back down,
This still isn't satisfactory.

As I look to my reflection, my laughter turns to a scream,
A scream for help that is only muffled by my palm drenched in tears.
To them, they are just watching me through a screen,
I'm still pulled up by the strings, and I no longer have wings.

I'd fly away from you, myself, and them,
But to them it just confirms their suspicion.
I'd be a coward, and a waste, 
Though to them, it would be a familiar taste.

I'd pick up my bindle,
Run away from this brain.
I'd voyage to the mountains,
For the bears to turn me into a stain.
I'll never handle my own brain.

(Thought 1) I really fucking hate monotony, but that's where I am right now. I wake up, and I put a smile on my face because that's what they want to see. That's what I want to see. Every day I just wanna be fucking happy, but I cant get that when I fake it, can I?
(Thought 2) Look at you. Look at you again. Go to the mirror. Look at me. Go back to the mirror. You want to see it?
(Thought 3) Look at me when I say this. I hate myself today. Today, I just want to fucking die. I want to go to sleep again, and not wake up. I don't wanna be here. I hate this.
(Thought 4) Let me the fuck out.
 
This is all theatre when you see it through their lens,
I'm a broken record, but I'm still hanging by these strings.
This time they put the pins deeper into my skin,
FUCK YOU ALL FOR WATCHING ME, I MISS MY FUCKING WINGS.

They're still watching me as I rise.
As I rise up from this cloud.
All strings attached.
I am still just in their grasp. (x2)

This isn't a suicide note, a plead for help, or me asking for forgiveness,
I need to find a place to put these words because I can not keep it to myself.
A laughter turns to a scream,
As I look into my eyes in my reflection.
I see what they all meant.
I'm a coward, a loser, a fuck up, and a sorry excuse for someone who says they try to help others.
I picked up my saw, as they all watched in awe again.
I PUT IT TO MY NECK CAUSE I WANT TO SEE THE LIGHT AGAIN.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR WATCHING ME, I JUST MISS MY FUCKING WINGS.

When you see the light fade, maybe now you will see.
You were the problem all along.
You caused this to happen, cause you expected too much of me.
I PUT MY SAW TO MY NECK, AND THE LIGHT FADES SLIGHTLY MORE.
MY ARTERIES ARE A DIORAMA OF WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR.
I'M LOOKING FOR MY WINGS, I CAN'T SEE THE LIGHT AGAIN.
ALL I WANTED TO DO, IS JUST BE MYSELF AGAIN.
BUT I SIMPLY CANNOT DO THIS, BECAUSE I WANT A GUN TO MY HEAD.
Fuck.

I wore what I wanted.
I got pushed over and my hip hit the waxed floor.
They laugh in my face, though they never looked me in the eye.
I am scared of my reflection, and all I do now is just cry.

This isn't a suicide note, a plead for help, or me asking for forgiveness.
I keep the thoughts that scare me the most, all for me to see.
A daily routine that will keep me attached to these strings.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR WATCHING ME, I REALLY MISS MY FUCKING WINGS.

I walked into the snow,
and I found my wings tied up.
Just like me on that stage, everyone who is there just laughs as they proceed.
They just walk on by with those grins on their faces.
They wanna be just like me.
I take a knife to the corner of my cheek and I go to my eye on each side.
I put this on for me to look better in the pictures,
While you're looking at me, I want you to take a snap of what I remember.
I'm looking at myself through this reflection, but I cannot see.
I wanna look better,
As I'm tied up to a tree.

nobody deserves me because there isnt anyone who has done a bad enough thing

Something I made a while back while being burnt out, feeling like I ran out of ideas and then this came out lol. Show some love!!

burn out(prod.jewfyX44Ricko)

Made this in like 20 minutes lol, just a little something to keep the plays going

all I know(prod.$lxwOMG)

all plats 11/21 
presave: https://jetcube.vyd.co/AddyJustFine

lyrics: 
don't hold on forever
saw the light drain from your eyes
saw the door close one last time
but i still think, you need time
cause i see that you're acting different
things wont change
and i'm just in the way
trying to help you stop the rain
but these things don't ever change
so can you just look away?

see it call my name
choose my own fate
try to look away

will it be just fine?
if i don't look right
ima do it anyway
ima do it anyway
will it be just fine? (anyway)
if i don't look right (anyway)
will it be just fine? (anyway)

ima do it anyway
will it be just fine?
i don't know (anyway)
stepped away from the light

ima do it anyway
ima do it anyway
(can't change me, do what i want)
can't change me, do what i want
saw the light drain from your eyes (from your eyes)
saw the door close one last time

just fine

XO 4UXX! self leak. enjoy the song, like and follow for more music coming soon xo <3

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