oh btw gumis hairstyle is called 'tomboyish sidetails'

Again? ARMED AND DANGEROUS!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!!!AGAIN!!!!

i think i have bpd. i have most of the symproms. im already diagnosed autistic, and bpd and autism symptoms do overlap. but not enough for me to nit wonder. i was born with autism, all autistic people were. but it was whwn i was bullied, abandoned, @bused, etc when i started having symptoms like s3lf h@rm, su1cide thiyhts, attempts, and ideation, fear of abandonment, relationship issues (ive become a complete doormat because im scared of being abandoned by the people i love. also, one second ill be like "my friends an amazing person" and ill either remember something in the past or they do something that hurt me and ill be like "they deserve to rot in hell i hope they die" and yeah

And I should have never let myself get attached!! (relatable)

EVERY INCH OF ME IS CHARRED, GOD WHAT HAPPENED TO MY HEART? IM ABOUT TO FALL APART, AGAIN, AGAIN!

and it's like everyday is a fight for my life

really long vocaloid playlist

I posted this since the full song came out today in YT because the full song’s not in SoundCloud yet so this is up in the meantime. Ghost, please message me if you want this taken down ASAP. Thank You!

https://youtu.be/EKOSQGKn5Cw

Solaria / Aura by GHOST

マーシャル・マキシマイザー(ガイド無しカラオケ)[原曲歌手:柊マグネタイト]

マーシャル・マキシマイザー -5Key(原曲歌手:柊マグネタイト)

Better Off Worse - CircusP

Pathological Facade - GHOST

Only here because other people were reuploading it. Please stream on other services if you can, Soundcloud doesn't pay its artists unless they pay a $100 fee, which is way more than I'll ever make from this song lol

YT- https://youtu.be/oKyqHbk_WlU
Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/track/1msD6DT04B7lwD5F1qCSlL?si=11beb6fc6a8240c0
Apple Music- https://music.apple.com/us/album/self-proclaimed-angel/1701078343?i=1701078502

Self Proclaimed Angel ft. Tsurumaki Maki

"i don't wanna let you down"

youtube mv - https://youtu.be/Yg6g3agPj8Y

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music / illust / mv - friendxp  
vocal - sheena

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instrumental / midi / lyrics - https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1d-V7zDQiUcbIlweUSpywtOG57Ck9lMU9?usp=drive_link
streaming - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/friendxp/how-2-pleaser
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/album/how-2-pleaser
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

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it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

it’s a crisis in itself
the symptoms paralleled in every infidel
i know it well
you always sell what’s not to tell
and simply, a stagnant “truth” luring us into “sin”
as soon as we begin
i know better than that
back-to-back, there’ll be no slack

i’ll never be ready
cannot keep my breathing steady
as i one step, two-step, closer to you
can’t follow through, i already knew
solitary basis
crude migration through these phases
cycle on and on
while struggling to play along

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a burden i cannot rid

a masquerade of willful ignorance
performed until the closing act is done

i don’t wanna let you down
i don’t wanna ever let you down
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

“let me waste my life atoning for somebody else’s burdens”
who should be responsible for traumas left inaudible?

now, we’ve both withdrawn
dawdled on when mending bonds
and now, they’re nearly gone
every single fleeting glance
i can spy the eyes of latent plights
hunting through night

of course, the status is enforced
may i premorse what bloomed straight from the source?

denouncing that “other side”
turn it to me and i’ll look alive
“would you look at that round of sinners?”
smiling, idling as no beginner
it’s better not showed nor telled
“it’s like they wanna go straight unto hell”
for this sentence that swallows all lifelines
i’d like a bit of time

i’ll never be ready
cannot keep my breathing steady
as i one step, two-step, closer to you
can’t follow through, i already knew
solitary basis
crude migration through these phases
cycle on and on
while struggling to play along

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a burden i cannot yet rid

in the end, it’s the same
is there gain without pain?
“it’s coming around to get you cause ain’t it true?”

as i’m bombarded by complexity
the world remains a mystery
there’s no room for ambiguity
“allah, the scenes i see are - ”
shrouded by ubiquity
parading false identities
and twisting tongues oh so breathlessly
“allah, the scenes i see are gone”

allah, the scenes i see are wrong…

it’s like…
i don’t wanna let you down
dancing ‘round alluded common ground
better off without a single clue about it
falsifying our renown
prying eyes beholden to impound
every dream i see’s a life that i cannot lead

a masquerade of willful ignorance
performed until the closing act is done

i don’t wanna let you down
i don’t wanna ever let you down
such a simple sound
such a simple sound surrounds

now, and till i’m gone
allah all along had me wrong

HOW 2 PLEASER - friendxp feat. sheena

I'm posting this here for reasons where Youtube is not accessible but Soundcloud is.

LYRICS:

THE CLOCK STOPPED TICKING 
FOREVER AGO

HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN UP?
IDK :-(

I CAN'T GET A GRIP,
BUT I CAN'T LET GO

THERE WASN'T ANYTHING
TO HOLD ON TO, THO


WHY CAN'T I SEE
WHY CAN'T I SEE
???
ALL THE COLORS
THAT YOU SEE??

PLEASE
CAN I BE
PLEASE
CAN I BE

COLORFUL AND...

free?

WHAT THE HELL'S GOING ON?!
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME PLEASE--

WHY I'M
SWITCHING 
FASTER
THAN THE 
CHANNELS
ON
TV

I'M black
THEN I'M white
NO!!!
SOMETHING ISN'T RIGHT!!
MY ENEMY'S INVISIBLE,
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT

THE TREMBLING FEAR
IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE
WHEN I'M UP AGAINST
THE ECHO IN THE MIRROR

i'm gonna burn my house down
into an ugly black
i'm gonna run away now
and never look back
(x382490382 times)

and never look back
and never look back
and never look back

Chorus:
WHAT THE HELL'S GOING ON?!
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME PLEASE--

WHY I'M
SWITCHING 
FASTER
THAN THE 
CHANNELS
ON
TV
I'M black
THEN I'M white
NO!!!
SOMETHING ISN'T RIGHT!!
MY ENEMY'S INVISIBLE,
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT 
(x2)

THE TREMBLING FEAR
IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE
WHEN I'M UPAGAINST
THE ECHO IN THE MIRROR
(x2)

Crusher-P - ECHO

Link to the official cover of this instrumental by Ryuugen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MA4ksspFlzk

Please enjoy my take on Phony by Tsumiki! Feel free to use this instrumental for your covers. You can download it here!

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Ghostie phony art: https://x.com/bucocopie

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YouTube Video: https://youtu.be/KpiCoIOrHCA

Tempo: 170BPM
Genre: UK Hardcore

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ツミキ / NOMELON NOLEMON - フォニイ / phony (TMG Instrumental Remix)

I’ve been walking through the noise,
Looking for your silent voice.
Every beat, a memory,
Fading like a melody.

Echoes of Love

Secrets Of Wysteria Oliver

Song/Art: Crusher-P
VSQx: Fruutella
Mixing: Living Tombstone

LYRICS:
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VERSE 1
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I haven't been myself lately,
I don't blame you for not wanting to stay.
Saying things that I don't mean,
Not meaning what I say.

When it's good, it's so good,
When it's bad, it's SO BAD.
Even when I knew what I had 

What am I supposed to say,
when I end up driving everyone away?
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CHORUS:
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Cause, I am on fire,
A crying, burning liar,
Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself,
And I'm the one with the lighter

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached,
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again

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VERSE 2
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What's done is done,
And nothing's gonna change.
I should be moving on,
But I still feel the same.

And it's like every day is a fight for my life
to get some self control,
And when you've forgotten who I am, 
it just feels, it just feels....
I'm nobody at all.

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BRIDGE 
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I found myself 
hitting the ground,
I didn't breathe 
in case I'd drown

I should have known 
When to let go
and when to see
who I was being

Again, again, again

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CHORUS:
---------------------------------------------------
I am on fire,
A crying, burning liar,
Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself,
And I'm the one with the lighter

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get...

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached,
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again

And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached

whoa---/

Again, again

Crusher-P Ft. Gumi English - Again

I'm back with a new song! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNIypYrVlkA&feature=youtu.be

MONSTER ft. GUMI English (VOCALOID Original)

【VOCALOID Original】 - Again【Gumi English】

Role-Playing Game／SoraMafuUraSaka

Early in the morning, before the sun could rise,
Keeping to myself almost felt like a disguise,
I couldn't be the one to tell you what was off that day,
Opening my mouth is The Most Dangerous Game

Once upon a time, I never knew fear like this,
I can't remember how it happened, or why it did,
Developing an obsession to open closed doors,
Gave me a compulsive need to find out even more,

And off we go to play telephone, 
Sharing what we know
But how long can we keep playing
Until the game
Undermines the status quo

It's all 
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
I have a feeling I'm not alone (Not Alone)
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Don't believe anything you see, or hear
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
I can't be the only one who knows (The only...)
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!


If we could go back, back then
When it was easier
They say ignorance is bliss

Why did I pick up the phone?
When it was easier
I should've stayed oblivious 


Falling down the rabbit hole and running out of time,
Hoping noone notices my thoughts are out of line,
I know they know we know that something isn't right,
After this my life eclipsed: fear day and night,

A call to action, call for passion, 
call for something more, for war
"If you're not with us, you're against us"
But I don't like the odds, the score 
Call me complicit, Give me a minute,
Let me decide, it's my own life,
I'm not about to pretend 
these people are close to being my friends


Can I do it? (I can run)
I could do it (I could run)
Should I do it? (I should run)
I should do it (I should run)

And so I ran,
As fast as I could,
Through the ocean of trees,
Through the sting of the breeze,

And so I ran,
I ran for my life,
And I ran for a dream,
For whatever that means,


Every thought is sabotage,
What a fool I am 
To keep playing and playing
Game after game, 
No-! Losing game after losing game


It's all
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!


It's all 
Propaganda! Prop-Propaganda!
I have a feeling I'm not alone (Not Alone)
It's Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Don't believe anything you see, or hear it's
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
I can't be the only one who knows
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!

Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!
Propaganda! Prop-propaganda!

Propaganda! (ft. Hatsune Miku)

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