Again? ARMED AND DANGEROUS!!! AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!!!AGAIN!!!!

i think i have bpd. i have most of the symproms. im already diagnosed autistic, and bpd and autism symptoms do overlap. but not enough for me to nit wonder. i was born with autism, all autistic people were. but it was whwn i was bullied, abandoned, @bused, etc when i started having symptoms like s3lf h@rm, su1cide thiyhts, attempts, and ideation, fear of abandonment, relationship issues (ive become a complete doormat because im scared of being abandoned by the people i love. also, one second ill be like "my friends an amazing person" and ill either remember something in the past or they do something that hurt me and ill be like "they deserve to rot in hell i hope they die" and yeah

And I should have never let myself get attached!! (relatable)

EVERY INCH OF ME IS CHARRED, GOD WHAT HAPPENED TO MY HEART? IM ABOUT TO FALL APART, AGAIN, AGAIN!

vocaloid + covers

yt mirror: https://youtu.be/ttrb6MuXkok
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3goDvagzaPkq5Jnmd7GUqH?si=uKNT1IyNSd6Pwep13dpuSg
apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/it-shouldve-been-me/1605434465?i=1605434616 
lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1fKlGyOVD2gAPmYzoqIZe9pFEIYswMlV06ZFtUoEkhK4/edit?usp=sharing
instrumental/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1jQmqMR6eaItiMxYG2Mw7iTrZ05IHm80r?usp=sharing

https://riproducer.carrd.co/
https://ko-fi.com/riproducer
https://twitter.com/le_RIP_
https://www.deviantart.com/t-h-e-r-i-p

DAYCORE/NIGHTCORE PROHIBITED

It Should’ve Been Me ft. SOLARIA (SynthV Original Song)

Only here because other people were reuploading it. Please stream on other services if you can, Soundcloud doesn't pay its artists unless they pay a $100 fee, which is way more than I'll ever make from this song lol

YT- https://youtu.be/oKyqHbk_WlU
Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/track/1msD6DT04B7lwD5F1qCSlL?si=11beb6fc6a8240c0
Apple Music- https://music.apple.com/us/album/self-proclaimed-angel/1701078343?i=1701078502

Self Proclaimed Angel ft. Tsurumaki Maki

STREAM HERE

I'm posting this here for reasons where Youtube is not accessible but Soundcloud is.

LYRICS:

THE CLOCK STOPPED TICKING 
FOREVER AGO

HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN UP?
IDK :-(

I CAN'T GET A GRIP,
BUT I CAN'T LET GO

THERE WASN'T ANYTHING
TO HOLD ON TO, THO


WHY CAN'T I SEE
WHY CAN'T I SEE
???
ALL THE COLORS
THAT YOU SEE??

PLEASE
CAN I BE
PLEASE
CAN I BE

COLORFUL AND...

free?

WHAT THE HELL'S GOING ON?!
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME PLEASE--

WHY I'M
SWITCHING 
FASTER
THAN THE 
CHANNELS
ON
TV

I'M black
THEN I'M white
NO!!!
SOMETHING ISN'T RIGHT!!
MY ENEMY'S INVISIBLE,
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT

THE TREMBLING FEAR
IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE
WHEN I'M UP AGAINST
THE ECHO IN THE MIRROR

i'm gonna burn my house down
into an ugly black
i'm gonna run away now
and never look back
(x382490382 times)

and never look back
and never look back
and never look back

Chorus:
WHAT THE HELL'S GOING ON?!
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME PLEASE--

WHY I'M
SWITCHING 
FASTER
THAN THE 
CHANNELS
ON
TV
I'M black
THEN I'M white
NO!!!
SOMETHING ISN'T RIGHT!!
MY ENEMY'S INVISIBLE,
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIGHT 
(x2)

THE TREMBLING FEAR
IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE
WHEN I'M UPAGAINST
THE ECHO IN THE MIRROR
(x2)

Crusher-P - ECHO

Lamentations (Feat. Carbon Monoxide)

Collared

Breaking Out

Song/Art: Crusher-P
VSQx: Fruutella
Mixing: Living Tombstone

LYRICS:
---------------------------------------------------
VERSE 1
---------------------------------------------------
I haven't been myself lately,
I don't blame you for not wanting to stay.
Saying things that I don't mean,
Not meaning what I say.

When it's good, it's so good,
When it's bad, it's SO BAD.
Even when I knew what I had 

What am I supposed to say,
when I end up driving everyone away?
---------------------------------------------------
CHORUS:
---------------------------------------------------
Cause, I am on fire,
A crying, burning liar,
Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself,
And I'm the one with the lighter

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached,
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again

---------------------------------------------------
VERSE 2
---------------------------------------------------

What's done is done,
And nothing's gonna change.
I should be moving on,
But I still feel the same.

And it's like every day is a fight for my life
to get some self control,
And when you've forgotten who I am, 
it just feels, it just feels....
I'm nobody at all.

---------------------------------------------------
BRIDGE 
---------------------------------------------------
I found myself 
hitting the ground,
I didn't breathe 
in case I'd drown

I should have known 
When to let go
and when to see
who I was being

Again, again, again

---------------------------------------------------
CHORUS:
---------------------------------------------------
I am on fire,
A crying, burning liar,
Seeing nothing, nothing, but myself,
And I'm the one with the lighter

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get...

Every inch of me is charred,
God, what happened to my heart?
I'm about to fall apart,
again, again
And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached,
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again
again, again

And you're never coming back,
And I'm not okay with that,
and I should've never let myself get attached

whoa---/

Again, again

Crusher-P Ft. Gumi English - Again

I'm back with a new song! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNIypYrVlkA&feature=youtu.be

MONSTER ft. GUMI English (VOCALOID Original)

full title: Thanks to You Song That I Don't Understand How People Like It I'm Forced to Listen to This S​*​*​t Everyday Cause My F​*​*​*​ing Sister Plays This Every Time Without Getting Bored of Listening to It Thanks Ghost for This Piece of S​*​*​t You Introduced Into My Life

this is just a compilation of most of the songs i've made during 2016-2017

if you wanna help support me you can purchase all these songs, along with the instrumentals here:

Bandcamp: https://ghostandpals.bandcamp.com/album/thanks-to-you-song-that-i-dont-understand-how-people-like-it-im-forced-to-listen-to-this-s-t-everyday-cause-my-f-ing-sister-plays-this-every-time-without-getting-bored-of-listening-to-it-thanks-g

iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/thanks-to-you-song/1369713499

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7jR9LLmvyGevD3hgWa8geY

Google Play: https://play.google.com/store/music/album/Ghost_and_Pals_Thanks_to_You_Song?id=Bvwi5ipzeapibsli5adpaehg6vy

also available on other stores under the title "thanks to you song" so, if the store you use isn't listed here, you can search it to see if it's available there!

The Distortionist / Yohioloid Original Song

................................... weren't expecting this one? yea me neither

so, this old song i made in early january of 2014 became a huge inside-joke in my friend group. and i thought to myself, oh wouldn't it be hilarious if i made a whole remake of that song with a pv and everything, in a satirical sorta way y'know? 

well that, like, happened, and the line between irony and seriousness on this one ended up being sooooooo thin. SO THIN. i'm definitely very aware that this isn't my best work, but blame 16 y/o me for that because this song in particular was so incredibly difficult to salvage hahaha

if you wanna know what i'm talking about, check out the original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zyign...

also fun fact but the characters from this song are these ocs i made when i was 16 named arc (guy with bandages) and say (longer-haired one). they had such a poorly thought-out story and it was so bad and this song didn't even fit them as characters. they deserved better

also also you know how youtubers will give their subscribers a group name? i premiered this on a livestream and the people in the chat have officially decided my subs are named the bug squad

--

bandcamp: https://ghostandpals.bandcamp.com/alb...

pre-save on spotify: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/gho...

itunes/google play/etc stores coming soon! links will be posted here, in my community tab, and on twitter as they become available

--

ghostandpals.com

https://twitter.com/GHOST_AND_PALS

https://www.patreon.com/ghostandpals

Bandcamp

Gumi Eng. & Yohioloid / The Chattering Lack of Common Sense [Original Song]

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