sorry for not uploading </3

i dont see
how i was the fastest seed in the race
cuz now im so slow
and i cant outrun the pain

and all those fucking years
of being told that i was gifted
they've made me so indifferent
to any task that comes near

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a dick

all my bad qualities
anxieties, insecurities
culiminate into a really shitty tasting soup

and all those fucking years
that i wasted online
of all the possible universes
i know im living in the worst timeline

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a piece of shit


im living in the worst timeline

The Worst Timeline

its kinda fucking messed up
that im forced
into getting a job
and then to work

for the rest of my life
and then i retire
when ive already been used up

i dont want to fucking work
i just want to stay in my own bedroom

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

i really dont want to
stay in school
cuz i cant concentrate on who 
is even teaching the bullshit they're feeding me
to make me a tool

and i'd rather not be a robot
typing stuff onto a little box
coz thats exactly what i already am
and im fucking dumb to make that my career plan

i dont want to fucking work
but i want some fucking cash in my hand

i really need some pay
but i dont wanna slave
away until im dead
just for a minimum wage
and i dont wanna learn
to become another
cog which just slowly turns

WORKSHY

im freaking out
coz i got a lotta shit to think about
and i dont know which of it that i should count
coz theres so much
my body hurts and my brain is fucked 

im out
out of reasons to care
my mind is everywhere
ive got 20 missed assignments
i havent made a new song in like 5 months

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

im out
im out of luck
cuz my brain is full of stuff
stuff which never gets done
cuz i find it fucking dumb
im up til 6 am
staring at my phone, im alone again
ive got no friends, ive got no future
so i spend all day on the computer

i really need
need some peace
need release
i really need
need a hug, need a kiss
need someone to fucking suck my dick

BRAINSOUP!

negative xp cover


working on a new album btw :) so stay tuned .......

battle city

still workin on the album

i was feeling so tired
slept through the entire
party, i'm partly awake and asleep
still tasting the vomit
i felt so fucking nauseous
passed out in the toilet
just for a couple seconds

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

the door's cracked open 
feel the draft coming in
the wind blows me away
into some place i've never been
but i think it's gonna shut
as im sat here remembering
my hands under the kitchen sink
i feel the blood spilling in

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

culling myself into somebody now
and the face on the back 
of my head's turning round
these days are just fading away
and i want them to stay right here

i want them to stay

Kitchen

out for blood (heart attack man cover)

VERSE 1
wanna get a get away from here
wanna do a do a runner
i dont wanna be fucking near
this goddamn bummer

of a life, of a life
need a car to fucking drive
away from this place
that i really do not like

face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels


VERSE 2
wanna run a run away from here
need to find a find a new life
everything i want is all so clear
but is too far from my

grasp, my grasp
need to drive really fast
away from this place
leave it all in the past

face the pain, fading away x3

i hate the way that it feels

i said face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels

bummer life

feeling so damn cool
but i wish i was cooler
get off this damn computer
do cool ass tricks on scooters

or skate around the street
or surf the waves till my feet
are hurting, or smoke weed

this life i lead
serves not the need
for something more
oooo

i want to be
a better me
i need more

feeling like i should
improve my whole livelihood
buy cool new shit to show off
some cool ass clothes to put on

or find some new music
that i can use to clue in
to all of my cool friends
that i'm cool and amusing

this life i lead
serves not the need
for something more
oooo

i want to be
a better me
i need more

this life

so cool

i wanna... end the stupidity on christmas

if you told me that i would be
alone again on christmas eve
i'd probably say "well that's okay"
cuz every year's the fucking same

what the hell did i do last winter?
it's always the same ass tradition

have you seen how my ribs show?
my diet's been a shitshow
and my family's on my ass
but i'll give them all a pass
cuz they're right, i know


what the hell did i do last winter?
it's always the same ass tradition
(too much drink to just stop and think)
"what the hell did i do last winter?"
(i avoid cause there's just no point)
it's always the same ass tradition

Not A Christmas Song

search
for something to make you whole
but nothing ever will
jump deeper into the hole
find your will

killing me slowly
its taking my body
and slowly but softly
you hug me and watch me
go limp

i'm so sorry
for being nobody to you
if there's god, he must
hate me, i know that its true

a year's gone by, and i'm still the same
my eyes burn red, the light eats away

find
the moment which feels right
make sure you hold on tight
jump deeper into a hole
you cant climb

open
your eyes and ignore the light
radiating in
a body submerged in water
can you swim?

killing me slowly
its taking my body
and slowly but softly
you hug me and watch me
go limp

i'm so sorry
for being nobody to you
if there's god, he must
hate me, i know that its true

don't wanna break the mold
the story's getting old

The Mold

blossom endrot this year

filling up the spaces
with empty words
it's a selfless being
with no self worth

making something different
makes it all the same
abstracted greatly
but clear as day

i want to cry

its a constant struggle
being anything
you can barely handle
just existing

its a feeling that i
have always known
its the pain that doesn't subside
from flesh nor bone

i want to cry

dont speak
unless you're spoken to
dont breath
because it could hurt you

i know my fate
i just dont know when ill do it
everything's great
when the gardens are blooming

WannaCry

this is my first ever song plz dont laugh
--
i dont know why you
decide the truth
is wrong and lying's cool
you're fuckin borderline
you're a fucking fool

i know, i know why you
like, like to prove
that you're so fucking cool
you were never really liked
when you were at school

i know, and i knew
this life, and you
and what we hoped to do
was only part of our young minds
and it was doomed

from the start

borderline

im a fucking joke
im lonely, sinking
i just dont know it
and when i close my eyes
i only dream of dying

i just wanna put myself to sleep
i just wanna put myself to sleep
sick of staring at these fucking screens 
i just wanna fucking scream

im a fucking joke
im just slowly sinking
and i cant float, it's
closing my throat up
i dream to die
yet im too scared, im terrified

i just wanna put myself to sleep
i just wanna put myself to sleep
sick of staring at these fucking screens 
i just wanna scream
i just wanna scream
i just wanna scream
i just wanna die

but i know (i know)
it'll come eventually

Put Myself To Sleep

A Punk Song [NEGATIVE XP COVER]

VERSE 1
im trapped, im doomed
wasting in my room
it's who i am
barely a man
my voice, my soul
all ever so sore
my "friends", so-called
left me so cold

CHORUS
so cold
why should i fall
at the hands of what i know
and what i dont

VERSE 2
im doomed, im trapped
the empathy i lack
my heart, my hope
all of which are broke
the most of my
pain of which i try
to force away
was caused by me in the first place

CHORUS
so cold
why should i fall
at the hands of what i know
and what i dont
so cold

A Picture Of A Girl Slitting Her Wrists Hidden In A Kids Toy

what the hell is that supposed to mean anyway?

listen to the coke child here: soundcloud.com/cokeisdead

peachy 2 (sodaboy64 cover)

don't talk to me
if you've got nothing to say
don't talk to me
i can't see your face

robots walking
next to me
faces talking
not saying anything

you're not real
i only know that i'm able to feel
so how do i know that you're even here
i only know that i'm alive
don't know about my peers 

robots walking
next to me
faces talking
not saying anything

does she know
im all alone
standing here
does she know

does she know
im all alone
standing here
in front of her

does she know
my face
through this wall
she placed
in front me

does she know
who i am
what i've learned
and what i can
do for her

transapparent

lil throwaway song


https://soundcloud.com/oxwillow/bianca-devins

Bianca Devins (xo_willow cover)

https://soundcloud.com/oxwillow/computer-shy-pitched-down-demo

compooter shy  ((((xo_willow cover (((nxp cover ((fedze cover (♰ded♰ cover))))

i wake up still unemployed and
make myself a cup of soylent
logon to my favourite website
and scroll through till the end of daylight

you say that i'm
simply wasting my life
oh, all my days are gone
wasted on reddit.com

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

my cat is so obese
post him on reddit so that he
can be laughed at by online people
dont sit here and try to tell me that i'm evil

i'm wholesome 100
you're probably a normie
who doesn't like big chungus
and browses ifunny
i saw a kid who liked fortnite
so i bullied him to suicide

kind stranger
thank you for the gold
kind stranger
am i the asshole?
kind stranger
why are my girlfriend's boyfriends all
ignoring me

Kind Stranger

sinking into my bed
thoughts of a frontal lobe laced with lead
it's felt like hell
and honestly i've haven't been the same since 2012

help me tell myself that im the same
or maybe say that im better off changed
but i feel like im living in a game
forced to play the same way every day

and whenever i look back and try to remember
it all comes down to the year the world was supposed to end, yeah
cause honestly i haven't been the same since that year
i dont even know if this is real and i fear

that we're already dead

feasting on purgatorial breakfast
they all break fast
doomed to an eternal prison
in the form of breathing and living

help me tell myself that im the same
or maybe say that im better off changed
but i feel like im living in chains
a matrix where i lay in dismay 

and whenever i look back and try to remember
it all comes down to the year the world was supposed to end, yeah
and honestly i haven't been the same since that year
i dont even know if this is real and i fear myself

the world ended in 2012

i was raised by a place
ive been on since i was eight
or maybe 9, the internet,
sat online, on the world wide web

everything i've ever seen
ever learnt, its from a screen
and who i am today
was influenced by the way
i was raised on the World Wide Web
raised by the Internet

raised by the World Wide Web
don't have any real life friends
mind melted by the internet
World Wide Web

i was raised online
i was raised online
maybe that is why
i came out behind
all the other kids
all cause i had unrestricted
access to the internet

knowledge at my fingertips
and everything that any kid
really shouldn't be seeing when
he's browsing at the age of ten
terrorist beheadings
and anything with death in it
propaganda, fucking goatse
i came out so fucking lonely

raised by the World Wide Web
im anxious with every breath
cause i was raised by the world wide web
World Wide Web

Raised By The World Wide Web

fuck you

song by https://soundcloud.com/user-649996543

dalepilled //////// cover

VERSE 1
i dont try, i dont cry
spend my days locked inside
waste away as time flies by
i wait the day when i will die

i hate my life but i say im fine
but im nothing new im just like
these other dudes living in strife
im nothing new, same old design

BRIDGE
put my fist through the wall
im nothing new, nothing at all
i never write i never call
im nothing new, nothing at all
i cant talk to girls, i get ignored
i'm nothing new, nothing at all

CHORUS
i'm nothing at all

VERSE 2
i make songs, shitty songs
shitty guitar with fake drums
shitty bass (played with a pick)
shitty lyrics made by scum

im not one to interact
cuz i cant talk i just panic attack
and i thought that i was complex
but im just like everyone else

BRIDGE
put my fist through the wall
im nothing new, nothing at all
i never write i never call
im nothing new, nothing at all
i cant talk to girls, i get ignored
i'm nothing new, nothing at all

CHORUS
i'm nothing at all

Femur Breaker

sitting here
in my room
i dont know
what to do

im fucking through
with all of you
im sitting here
in my room

IN MY ROOM x8

stick my face
in the mud
while you all
hoard the love

sitting here
on the floor
with my brains
on the wall

in my room

IN MY ROOM

you're a guy
there's girl that you like
but instead of making any sort of pass at her
you decide to wallow in songs and cry

swallow your pride
if you have any at all
no, im not gonna try and pander to you all, cuz 

i think you're fucking stupid
so do your favourite bands
you listen to their music
like lyrics are commandments

"this girl, she's very pretty
oh no, she doesn't like me!
who could've saw this coming?
let's write a song about it

its our full discography
but you will all still buy it
yeah, you will all still buy it"

so, kindly
check this love letter from me
this love letter from me

every night
when you're hurt, when it's like
everything around you's coming down and
you surmise that you're gonna die 

you decide
tonight's the perfect time
to put on melancholic songs
and lie in bed till dawn

and here i am
a hypocrite i stand
cuz after all, im singing songs
and chanting, asking, scrawling on the walls

my ideologies
contritely judging all of these
same things which i have done

so, kindly
check this love letter from me
this love letter from me

LOVE-LETTER-FOR-YOU

VERSE 1
i believe
in the monsters which lay beneath
my bed, i cradle sheets
all the time

i believe
reptiles run society
i make money from fallen teeth
all the time

and i believe
the moon is made of cheese
that i'm a celebrity
in due time

but i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention

CHORUS
please shut your mouth
you've never said a word
that someone's really heard

yeah, shut your mouth
everyone around
just wants you to pipe down

VERSE 2
you think that it's all okay
to say the things that are on your brain
well i think not

i dont care about your day
yet every day you need to explain
how it was

and i believe
the moon is made of cheese
that i'm a celebrity
in due time

but i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention
so shut your mouth

BRIDGE
i know it must seem
like im being really mean
but trust me when i say
i'm doing this for you

so that maybe
one day we'll finally 
agree on what you say
i'm doing this for you

cuz i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention

CHORUS
please shut your mouth
you've never said a word
that someone's really heard

yeah, shut your mouth
everyone around
just wants you to pipe down

so shut your mouth

crustsox

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