Lost (Prod.Yunny Goldz)

lyrics //

me: we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

hurt back then but my hearts still beating
fuck my friends they don’t know that i’m 
leaving soon

piece by piece we can put it back
make you think i do track how i run right back to you
and it’s a heart attack, stabbing my back
but i think i’m numb to you
good times, feel you runnin through my bloodline
pack my bags let em all forget me
i’ll be good mom just keep the memories oh

we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

hurt back then but my hearts still beating
fuck my friends they don’t know that i’m 
leaving soon

fordy:

broke down city
run around town but it’s looking so empty
in a world so tempting
never done wrong till a girl had left me

said sorry, but it’s not enough 
you saw me, just lock me up
or let me bleed, i’m not enough to marry me 

what about the memories? nowadays i can’t even barely sleep nah
and what about the sympathy? wrote down pages on the way i feel now

i’m leaving you’ll see me soon 
still breathing 
the same fumes you hated
the same tunes 
same playlist

and now i know, it’s so clear
iv been drowning way below, and i can’t hear
if they’re coming or they’re leaving out the door

but one thing
don’t expect me to double back loving
don’t you think that we needed more trusting
cut ties cuz all ur assumptions 

me: we fell down when we were kids,
but we just brushed it off
now we’re trying hard to live
and it’s not fun at all

i was hurt back then now my heart still beating
fuck my friends they don’t CARE that i’m leaving soon
i just know that i’ll be with YOU
i just know that i’ll be with YOU

leaving soon w/ brecken

prod. irby x jolst (i added a bitcrusher to one part so prod. me but like not really)

Winter came round one more time 
Outside in my mind but dont leave my house
Take me back to my life in 05
Under trees made of cork always holdin me down
Dont want to cry when I think of the past
I just wanna get my moms Cadillac back 
if we talked just one more Time 
Maybe then ill accept that you’ll never be mine


Never been good at goodbyes 
Mostly cause I obsess over moments in time
She was never good with replies but kept me on my toes 
Cause she had someone else on her mind
I pray to god I never have to go back to that parking lot out in Fullerton 
I will do anything to ensure I never feel the way I felt that day again
How many times have I lost it? 
My yellow umbrellas in somebody else’s apartment 
Wherever they choose to end up seems to be where my heart is 
There was just something to you
I like my French horns in blue
Dc shorty light ice on u 
why you always-


The pain is so real dude you dont understand 
Wish I was stopping the show making bands 
Whippin in barns out on farms 
I wear the fear on my arm as a scar to remind me to never go far
Swervin the hardest in rocket league cars
off of my ass out on pines boulevard 
owe it to mvo, down from the start 
Pringles on deck in the car
ive felt the spark in my eye out on sideview drive way more than a few times 
Bitter thoughts when I think of all the time I spent thinking we’d get the time right 
I cant fall asleep to silence so I guess the tv will act as my nightlight 
yeah i still bump our playlist
when I see your name, fall apart every time

Winter came round one more time 
Outside in my mind but dont leave my house
Take me back to my life in 05
Under trees made of cork always holdin me down
Dont want to cry when I think of the past
I just wanna get my moms Cadillac back 
if we talked just one more Time 
Maybe then ill accept that you’ll never be mine

leave my house (prod. irby x jolst)

Early morning promises never see the light of day 
What was it like when you were half the earth away
And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you 
Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue 

I’m just glad I found some folks that keep me around 
And passing down the torch I wish the flame would just go out 
This ideation holds its grip
I’ve gone too far with it by my side 
This echo goes in my essence  
Don’t abide don’t abide 
It’s just a cheap trick they play to keep you off their mind 
Oh oh 

Early morning promises never see the light of day 
What was it like when you were half the earth away
And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you 
Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue 

Afternoon I find myself starting off the day too late 
Remember who I was when you were half the earth away 
Now I cannot eat I cannot sleep no answer will comply 
And now I’m colder broken shoulder lean on me I’ll bid my time 
Is it way too much to ask 
For something in this life 
To maybe just last 
Long enough for me to even know what the hell to do 
I get far enough 
But all I really needed was you

early morning promises (king theta)

lyrics 


get to the point
or get out my way
im so excited im starting to shake
im way too anxious i picked up the shakes 
but how would u feel when i end up erased
upping my take
im upping the stakes
someone u luv is just someone to blame
i run away
u aint have to say
cuz i see it myself
and i carry the shame

ill do whatever but
what do u want
sit in my room and im starting to rot
im so accustomed to blowing my shots
why r u near me i dont wanna talk

not surprised u cannot handle the shock
not surprised i couldn’t be what u want
im the one u thought wuld help u along
but i got some problems to deal on my own

think im growing up
and it better now
but im going off
and i let u down
think im growing up
im too sheltered now
but im trying way too hard
just to help you out

poems ii

on all plats <3

The words getting harder to come out 
Baby look up the sky is coming down
I know you have no love for me now
I just hope I make you proud 

Black Sky, It is a Dangerous Day 
Flatline, The EKG will say your name
And I'm fine so stop asking if I'm okay 
Because I'll lie just to get you out of the way 

No way 
No way 
You're missing me still?
Ill stay 
Ill stay 
In Serenity Hills 
Saying 
"Ill change"
"Ill change"
You got me fr
But in 
My cage 
My cage 
I got time to kill 

Listen to your lies 
I can only imagine 
How are you religious 
But on tablets of acid 
I can tell by your intentions 
You're just after reactions
In need of intermission 
So i am down for the crashing 

For the crashing 
For the crashing 

Baby could you tell me?
Is there Sunshine on that Mountain?
Tell me that you love me 
But I highly fucking doubt it 
And for You I'm climbing 
Even if it means I'm drowning 
Could blame it on timing 
Lemme know how that is sounding!
What's that Will that's driving 
Is it everything surrounding?
Could you please stop hiding?
I'm Alone, My heart is pounding 

I'm Afraid
Could you tell me everything is okay?
Now what to say?
So I can get my way tonight 


I don't really know If I want it 
I cant lie you make me high 
I can feel it in my stomach 
It'll be this way for life

Baby I can change 
like You need me to
Nothing I can say 
Except my heart beats for you
So what do you say?
Can i be your lover?
Ill gladly accept n make my wish come true

Black Sky (Prod. Hurtclub)

"if i sit down" coming soon

shoutout swizzy

orange autumn blues: the second one (feat. swaine) [prod. stoic]

Lyrics

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers
What's love? I forgot
Numb in every spot, alright I am not, I can't make it stop
Writing the same songs, I need a new pain
Felt this for too long, maybe I can't change
Stuck in the same cage, why can't I escape?
Death's all I got left, life, I need a break
Leave me alone I don't care anymore at all
I fucking suck, I know
Let me go, let me fall

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers

I'm a piece of shit, I know that
Where's my soul? I sold that
Her heart's gone, I broke that
Hands on her neck, I choke that
I'm not an angel, I'm a monster
Head full of trash, I'm a dumpster
Smoke up the pack till my lungs hurt
Typing up tracks till my thumbs hurt
Heart's not beating, I'm dead
Want me to care? I can't
Red flag, you don't notice
Don't be surprised when I unload it

let me go. (2019)

lyrics

 don’t think i can change the way i see the things to be
i just poured me up don julio to go to sleep
every fucking morning, i see some bullshit on my twitter feed
spend the rest of the day trying to find a little bit of peace
yeah, i’m in my bag right now
i’m in my bag right now, i’m getting a bag right now, yeah, yeah
i’m in my bag right now, i’m getting a bag right now
i’m winning this battle right now
i don’t want to lie, i just want to kiss you in the rain
pass this world, forget this pain
remember my name, and keep close what i told you
you stole my heart and left a little hole too
i won’t complain if i lie in your arms
you are my saint
my soul has been tamed
yeah, i’m getting a bag right now, but it’s not the same
if you’re not right next to me, i don’t want to play
i close my eyes for a second
and i’ve seen the future, i’ve seen the future
i know that you love when you’re mentioned
but i can’t compute, yeah, i can’t compute
but it’s dark, uh, blood all on the floor
creatures surrounding my body, yeah, i’ve seen this shit before
it’s craving a scent that i carry at the core
i’m just praying that i taught you the ways, now you cannot ignore
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my heart
hold my
hold my heart
hold my
hold my
hold my

heretic pain

heretic pain (flesh) [bonus tracks from album on spotify]

dead and defeated

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return

dead and defeated

CRYINGAGAIN

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