This is my latest original called Messing with My Head. It's not completed yet but wanted to give a sneak peak of it! :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Messing With My Head (Original Song)

Gaslight

Communicate is about the struggles of those who struggle with autism and communicating how they feel. Csillo Alexandra expresses her own personal struggles within this song being on the spectrum herself. She wanted those who struggle like her to know they are not alone.

I reach to speak but words betray me,
A struggle for someone who feels so alone,
Caught in a silence, I yearn to connect,
Fighting the shadows that cloud my intent.

I've given my all, tried to break through,
but you always say you know how I feel,
I don't want to hide; I want to be free,
To ask how you are, to share what I need.

What I crave, what I seek
Is someone who listens, who doesn't critique
What I need, What I long for
Is honesty, not an open door.

What do I say? Where do I turn?
Is there a guide, for the lessons I yearn?

I've given my all, tried to break through
but you always say you know how I feel
I don't want to hide; I want to be free
To ask how you are, to share what I need

But what I seek, What I desire
Is someone who's real, who won't play with fire
What I need, What I crave
Is someone to trust A heart so brave.

Communicate

I  Hate You, Don't Leave Me is an original composition about Borderline Personality Disorder and the thoughts that go through their mind. It's an interesting song, as Csillo Alexandra wanted to illustrate the struggle while having some faith in it. She decided to take inspiration from Demi Lovato's song as she explores this as well.
lyrics
I feel like I'm falling through space,
No one to catch me, I'm losing my place,
One minute I love you, the next it's a fight,
I can't control it, can't make it right.

Pushing you close, then pushing away,
I need you to stay, can't make you stay,
A heart that's broke, still beating fast,
Caught in a moment, that I know won't last.

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

I see you walking, I'm pulling you near,
Then in a heartbeat, I'm drowning in fear.
My heads a hurricane, spinning around,
One day I'm floating, the next I'm going down.

Loving you's like, chasing a ghost
I'm afraid of the things, that I want the most
I push to protect, what I don't want to lose
Caught in the battle, I never got to choose

I hate you. don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, but you're all I've got.
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm lost in this fight.

I'm lost in this fight.

Can't trust my own mind, it's a prison, a lie,
I need you to love me, just don't ask me why,
I'm fire and rain, I'm love and I'm pain,
I swear I'll get better, just don't walk away.

I hate you, don't leave me, it's tearing me apart,
I'm breaking, I'm bleeding, you're all I've got,
I scream and I cry, I need you by my side,
I hate you, don't leave me.

I hate you don't leave me, I'm scared to be free,
I love you; I need you, I don't want to leave,
I hate you, don't leave me, I'm afraid to be me,
I love you; I need you, please don't leave me.

Please don't leave me.

I Hate You Don't Leave Me

Left in the Dark is a very dark song about orphanage systems. It's about being abandoned at birth and not knowing what to do from a young age. It's an uplifting song towards the end as the discover it's up to them to bring themselves up. It's a very powerful original.
lyrics
I was born into the night, no arms to hold me tight,
Left to face the shadows all alone,
Eyes wide open to a world, that never called me home,
A silent cry, a heart made out of stone.

Left in the dark, no guiding light,
An empty cradle, no lullaby tonight,
The world turned away, left me cold and scared,
In a world full of faces, nobody cared.

I search the skies, for a reason, for a sign,
Why was I cast away, left behind?
A tiny heartbeat, lost in the great divide
Wishing on a star that's nowhere to find.

Left in the dark, no guiding light,
An empty cradle, no lullaby tonight,
The world turned away, left me cold and scared,
In a world full of faces, nobody cared.

Will I ever know the love that I was denied?
Or will I wonder lost, forever asking why?
The echoes of my cry, will they ever fade away?
Or will I carry this silence to my grave?

Will I ever know the love that I was denied?
Or will I wonder lost, forever asking why?
The echoes of my cry, will they ever fade away?
Or will I carry this silence to my grave?

Left in the dark, no guiding light,
An empty cradle, no lullaby tonight,
The world turned away, left me cold and scared,
In a world full of faces, nobody cared.

but I'll find my way, through this endless night,
I'll be my own star; I'll find my own light,
For the one they abandoned, will rise from the pain,
And the tears that they left, will fall like rain.

but I'll find my way, through this endless night,
I'll be my own star; I'll find my own light,
For the one they abandoned, will rise from the pain,
And the tears that they left, will fall like rain.
credits

Left In The Dark

Gaslight is an emotional rollercoaster of someone who is being gaslighted and finding inner strength to get out of it.
lyrics
Walking through a maze of doubt
Shadows whisper all around
Every truth I knew, it's fading out,
Your words, they twist and confound.

You paint the sky a different hue,
Make me question what is true,
I'm losing sight of who I am,
In the mirrors of your sham.

Spinning in your web of lies,
Falling through a dark disguise,
You're rewriting my memories,
Making me the enemy.

But I'm breaking free from your spell
No more living in this hell,
I see the light, beyond your veil,
I won't be prisoner, I will prevail.

You say I'm crazy I'm paranoid,
You fill the silence with your noise,
But every time I try to speak,
you push me down; you make me weak.

You twist the truth until it breaks,
Make me doubt the steps I take,
But in the cracks, I see the light,
I'm reclaiming all my fight.

Spinning in your web of lies,
Falling through a dark disguise,
You're rewriting my memories,
Making me the enemy.

But I'm breaking free from your spell
No more living in this hell,
I see the light, beyond your veil,
I won't be prisoner, I will prevail.

Your words, they used to haunt my mind,
But now, I'm leaving them behind,
I'm stronger now, I've found my voice,
In this battle, I've made my choice.

Your words, they used to haunt my mind,
But now, I'm leaving them behind,
I'm stronger now, I've found my voice,
In this battle, I've made my choice.

No more spinning in your lies,
I see through your dark disguise,
You won't rewrite my history,
I'm the author of my destiny.

I've broken free from your spell,
I've risen from your twisted hell,
I see the light, I've found my way,
And I'm standing tall today.

rom Shadows to Sunlight is a powerful original about always looking for the brightness in the darkest of times. It is a song inspired by Linkin Park, which is Csillo Alexandra's favorite band.
lyrics
In a place where the nights are cold,
Silent cries in the dark unfold,
Brick walls whisper stories old,
Of dreams that flicker, young and bold.

Eyes that search for a guiding light,
In a world where the days blend into night,
We danced in the echoes of hope so slight,
With hearts that yearned for the endless flight.

A new day dawns with a gentle hand,
From distant lands to a promise land,
With hearts so full, yet understanding grand,
We build our dreams on this shifting sand.

In the warmth of love, we find our way.
In the echo of laughter, we learn to sway,
Each step forward, the past starts to fray,
We embrace the dawn of a new day.

From shadows to sunlight, we rise, and we fight,
With every step, we claim our right,
Through the storms and the pain, we'll chase the light,
From shadows to sunlight, we find our might

We find our might

From Shadows to Sunlight
From Shadows to Sunlight

From Shadows To Sunlight

End Game is a reimagined original that I wrote years ago. I wanted to rewrite it and explore a different approach and illustrate a game of cards in how life was dealt between two people.
lyrics
When it was me and you,
You left me feeling blue,
Your bets turned so cruel,
I knew what I had to do.

I had to cut the ties
Even though you already knew,
You weren't playing true,
Didn't see my point of view.

I didn't want to clash,
But you dealt that blow,
Now we're both all in,
Feeling the overflow.

I know I made a choice,
But I had to raise my voice,
You left me with no choice,
Just echoes and noise.

This is the End Game.

When the chips are down,
You said I was the one,
But now I'm feeling stunned,
And you're the one who's run.

When you dealt those cards
Didn't think of my heart,
I was left falling apart,

This is the hand you dealt,
Now it's time reveal,
What you really feel,
When I say I'm done

I know it stings a ton,
But when I say I'm done,
I need you to understand,
This is the End Game

This is the End Game.

End Game

Communicate is AD9Keys Original Album! Hope you guys enjoy it!

Eclipsed is my original composition written for an independent film based off of Enders Game. Sadly, the film did not take off but the music I got to keep! :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Eclipsed (The Cinematic Version)

Western is an original movie soundtrack that I wrote for an independent film. The music was used for the trailer. It is in the style of a spaghetti western. Very fun project!

Western (The Cinematic Version)

Tidal Wave is the first song I ever fully produced on a MacBook air from 2014. I wanted to write a song that sounded like Florence and Machine's Queen of Peace, so this is what I came up with :) Hope you guys enjoy it!

Tidal Wave (The Soundtrack Version)

This is one of my originals inspired by a friend of mine. His music is very jazz and blue's style with a hint of techno. I decided to give it my best and do my own. :)

Exploration (The instrumental Version)

End Game (The Original Version) is my first go at a cinematic lyrical conversation. The lyrics were a little bit rough but overall, it was a great project and a lot of fun to work on. 

End Game (The Original Version)

What To Do is an original song I wrote when going through a difficult time trying to figure out what I could do to change myself in order to be seen by someone. Little did I know it would come from within and being myself. 

Freaking do
All I want is to impress you
I have jumped out of my way
Hoping you will let me stay

Tell me what to freaking say
I don't want to run away
All of the pressures you lay
Are too much for me to stay

Fear of losing you
I don't want to feel this blue
I want to feel like we are glue
I want to remain true

Fear of giving in
Letting the emotions in
I know that I can glow
Right through the window

Fear of losing me
Who I am meant to be
I don't know what to see
Can you tell me please

That I'm the only one
That you've been looking up to
That I'm the only one
That you want to do

Fear of being mean
I just want to be seen
I want to be heard
I don't want to be ignored

I want to be the best
I want to pass the test
I have gone without rest
Just trying to be the best

Fear of being to real
That you won't want to deal
That I'll be the 3rd wheel
It's how I really feel

Acting like I have time
Everything on the line
Juist to be by your side
I don't want to have to hide

Tell me what to freaking do
All I want is to impress you
I have jumped out of my way
Hoping you will let me stay

Tell me what to freaking say
I don't want to run away
All of the pressures you lay
Are too much for me to stay

What To Do (The Original Version)

Sacrifice is a mistake original. I didn't know when recording the audio (first time recording a real piano) the reverb was turned all the way up. It created this affect to it and I think it came out really cool!

Sacrifice (The Piano Version)

A Mask on the Outside is a track about autism and having to mask.

A Mask on the Outside

control

I Mask on the Outside is an #autismawareness and #mentalhealth song about masking in order to cope.

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Control (The Mastered Version)

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Dedicated to my grandmother who passed away a year ago.

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