Name: Jan 17 (Excuses) by Thrxttle in Sad vibes
Duration: 3 min 17 s
Description: Today, I realized I've been letting myself down.

Sad vibes

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

i’m looking for a reason to say good night
communication hasn’t happened for a long time
countless times i replay when you said goodbye
moment that it happened burned into my eyes and mind
i’m fine
i’ll say i’ll try
if you look into my eyes you know i’m lying
you’re the one that really knows the reasons i cry
you’re the one that had to see it with your own eyes
i swear this life is a joke
fill up my time with my music and hope
that it will work out it’s the only way i cope
in the journey of life it’s the one and only road for me
i don’t know what you done to me
every time i think about you i can’t fucking breathe
then my thoughts are overtaken by my ocd
and i rot away my mental as i fall asleep

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
x4

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
losing track of time
my eyes are on fire
i been up all night
you are on my mind
x2

i’m restless and reckless
a mess 
why is death in life always endless
always in the midst my emotions are deafened
i dissociate until i’m lacking all my essence
if i leave again then i won’t come back
i feel like i’m under attack
where the sun don’t reach
and my eyes don’t see
and my lungs don’t breathe but you won’t understand
there’s a face underneath each mask that i see
i can be what i need in my dreams
i don’t sleep
i just worry 
never eat
but the beast won’t rest til it’s free
and then feast on my heart til doesn’t have a beat
i swear
it's a sad sad world that we inhabit
keeping goodbyes so dramatic
stay away from people it’s a habit
isolate myself go live on another planet

sweet dreams, my little insomniac ft. ivri (prod. capsctrl)

the tallest man on earth - honey won't you let me in (guardin cover)

bite down on my neck

written by Lxst Boy
written by tsukiloofi
produced by 4lexf
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
mixed by tsukiloofi

LYRICS
sorry we ended the way that we did
still writing songs cuz i still feel like shit
type you a message but i'll never send
cuz you hate me so i wrote this instead
talk about me, wont you tell it to my face tho
your friends hit me up almost like everyday, so
tell me whats wrong, how fast do the days go
broke your heart and you left me in the dirt, so

what, stuck in the mud
saw your story girl you aint no fun
stuck in this room writing this song
stare at the ceiling, this feeling wrong, ayy
yeah, im feelin sad again
tell them you hate me and tell them im bad at this
i wanna fall off a building and crash in it
you wanna die make it look like an accident
yeah, we're screwed up, that shit wont change
sit writing songs at my desk every day
chill at my place, love is a race
find the words, but dont know what to say, yeah
know that im talking, im talking to enemies
i wanna know that you'll never aboandon me
too late, i remember the things that you said to me
please dont bury me cuz i'll never rest in peace

loofi:
Sorry we started the way that we did 
I know that I changed, but I still feel like shit 
And I know I don't talk but I'm still just a kid 
Living inside a nightmare a bottomless pit

Sorry we grew up, in a world of monstrosity, wished that I grew up so maybe you’d talk to me Living so happily, lies to my family, nobody understood shit, no one talked to me 

I wish that I knew you before, I wish that I stood on your porch, to knock on your door, and ask if your home, cause I brought you some smores, together at night while we lay on the floor i wish that little crush, was a little bit longer, I wish my little head was a little bit stronger, so maybe we’d be friends and I’d last a bit longer
Its stuck and its embedded, it's a million ponders 

huh, fuck, 
Maybe I just need to give you a hug 
I'm sure I need help, but maybe i'm wrong 
All of the help that I need’s in this blunt 


All of these problems, they still in my head, i try to solve em, but find that I can't 
I'll prolly be dead soon, you know in advance, i'll get out my bed soon stop writing this bit 
Just know that my head hurts from all of this stress, I love her, I love her but I'm still a mess, I'm still the kid that the voices would mess with. Can't build the courage to send you a message 
I didn't wanna hurt you, but I guess that I did it, It's way past our curfew but we ain't done living 
My life aint the same, it's not what I envisioned. I hope that you know I'm done hurting your feelings

to the girl whose heart i broke remix (feat. Lxst Boy) (feat. Mishaal) [4lexf]

You Could Stay w/ guardin (prod. Irby)

Today, I realized I've been letting myself down.

Jan 17 (Excuses)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
--------
you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

written by Lxst Boy
produced by spencer hunt
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
(Verse)
take me back to the old days
don't get no wiser in my old age
fall down then melt like a snowflake
I'm never fine but that's ok
yeah lay me down when I'm at peace
I cant sleep, you haunt my dreams
I'm not that fun whenever I drink
but it helps write songs so I can sing
like what, taking it back
all of the lies, I'm taking them back
what was the price of hating me back?
the look in your eyes says you don't mean that
like how did you leave like that?
taking my heart making it relapse
yell at me but I'm not your dad
so I don't really care if you hate these tracks
you never cared to listen

(Break)

(Refrain)
take my soul, I
don't care baby
break my bones, I'm
never resting
x6

i stopped caring a really, really long time ago (spencer hunt)

Go Now (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Mist3r]

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

not official, just a remix, i really loved this song that rxse made and 
i really wanted to make som to it

official song https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow/two-way-street

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Sorrow - two way street (prod. underwood)

@sorrow x @no.cape x @juli x @thebootlegboy - deeper than before

Verse 1
Does heaven have wifi
I'm trying to call
Wanna come see you
But gates are 2 tall
Your hug was a drug
Now I know the withdraw
These pictures don't help
They’re just eating me raw
Are you an angel? 
Do you have cable? 
I wanna connect 
But I guess you’re not able
I wish you were
But the illness was fatal
A hole in my heart
Now it look like a bagel
I graduated but you didn’t see
And I’ll never know
It’s not a mystery 
I’m imaginating all our history
And hoping you will know all
That you meant to me, yeah
I miss your faces
I miss days when 
We would hang out 
But death had to take it
My heart has been aching
I see it all breaking
I hope you’ll come back
But I know you won't make it

Verse 2
This is hard for me
Honestly 
Got a missing part
Where my heart should be
I didn’t love you enough 
cuz I was too young
I didn’t take in all the art to see, yeah
Tell me now
What do you do?
Are you in heaven?
Is everything new?
I’m reading my Bible
And learning the truth
Hoping that I can come 
Be with you too 
Do you pray for me?
can you stay with me?
Are they games up there?
Will play with me? 
Maybe I wont ever 
Get to see you again
But if we’re friends
Will you wait for me? 
Do you talk to the angels at all?
Does God have a phone?
Does He ever call? 
I hear Him sometimes
A voice through my wall
Please know that I love you
And don’t ever fall

listen on spotify!

can't wait ft. powfu (prod. movye)

rest easy king.

austin was one of the best friends i've ever had. he had such a bright future in music and i'm extremely happy that we got this song done before he passed. love you bro.

@rxseboy x @ozee - somewhere else (prod. lxve)

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Jan 17 (Excuses)

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