(cray)

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

i try to fix dis shit but i cant even fall asleep
in the corner of my room is where i sit and weep
so many sins ive done so i just pray my soul to keep
they really out to get me demons why they follow me

(ford)

why they following when I don’t got nothin give
life short
Put a slice on my own wrist

trouble some ever since I was a kid
never wanna live all alone like this

always thought I could make better eventually 
only to know that I’m failing the penalty
oh it’s getting so hard
every single night I’m falling apart
and every time you lie I take it too far

i wanna quit it and look at stars
wait til I’m fitted and living on mars
we gon be planets apart

(cray)

its a common occurence when they walk out on me, oh shit
im done with this life, imma light up a spliff,
was bright as a kid i had so much to give
im liking your presence, but i cannt live

and if i drop and fall, baby please just stay back
why u causing all the problems, why u say that
on the drive home im homesick i hate that,
i took a light dose but it feel like i wont wake up 

all this pain up on my body i dont like dis, 
she say its not fair, i got scared, i light this
please just stop here, ive lost you, my highness
the world was so bright, like ur eyes, ur iris (x2)

(ford)

and if I had another night to tell you something that I wanted to
i would honestly just wanna prove
i only ever wanted you

i dont like this w/ brecken [out on spotify now]

prod irby 
@irby314

please dont give up on me i swear i will try my hardest
I understand your worries i get why your cautious
ill hold your baby whilst you rest right beside me
and when i look into your eyes thats when im happy

when did it go wrong?
it seems only yesterday
that we were living our lives with no care in the world
i feel so fucking sick

how did it end up like this?
how did it all fall to bits?
summer gave into autumn
and it blew away my love with my kiss

forests come with mist
i walk through the leaves as they crunch and twist underneath me
my eyes can't resist
the tear falls down on to my cheek as i'm sat under the Oaktree

we use to dance and dance
until we cried laughed
that was our first year anniversary

and now i ponder if
i could take it back
i feel like i've changed
i've got some proof for that
i know we needed to
doesnt mean we wanted to
just guess it's better for
the both of us too move
i hope you think of me
because i think of you

just rest, rest beside me. (irby)

lyrics 

[maesk]
hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is
i get it ur drawn, unrealistic expectations, u have what is ideal and try to replicate it here in this cold world where the dark never disappears, the light we see will all wither till it’s final flair

i know a lot of people not a lot of people know me
i tend to prefer distance when so when it comes to being lonely 
i don’t mind guess i’m too aware, i’m not scared, only that i might never show fear
i’ll just stare at the ground

yeah i’m still human despite what u may think 
just plenty problems nothing like a good drink won’t fix
something to help me look at this place a little more wrong
maybe time to write another sad song


hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is

time to write another sad song
a few will listen but no one else know how long
i been thinking and been feeling all these things 
u say u listen but u don’t know how it’s been. well u might soon

[goneafteraugust]

always had to hang my head by myself
get it together puff out my chest by myself
i know how it feels to be alone
leave a key under the mat in case i ever come home

so we can go lie down
where it’s quiet and the world won’t make a sound
u can listen to my heart beat pound
i’m headed to u babe i need it right now

forgotten key

forgotten key ft goneafteraugust (flesh x 1gokami)

for j<3

it’s been hard for me to be who i am
i got roots as my feet
telling me where to stand 

and part of me wants thinks it’s all just a plan
with the man up above got me in his hands

it’s been hard for me to build myself back up
play the part for me until all the lucks up
you saw the side of me that nobody could and
now ur calling me 
i wish that you wouodnt


now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed
and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard
but baby im losing control
break and i bend
how did it end?
thought we would make it farther
i never sent all of the texts and it only makes it harder
won’t let you see that part of me it’s all in my brain
and it’s been hard for me to feel cuz i just been so deranged
oh oh oh we gotta get better

 you saw the side of me that nobody else did and
now you’re calling me i wish that you wouldn’t
and now i’m on gaurd i feel so departed and i just lost all my soul
just give me your parts, i know it’s hard but baby im losing control

departed

lyrics

its been a long time
been a long time since i thought of myself
i only think of u
im staying safe for u

i need a pouch for my gums
i need a patch for my lungs
i need a clamp for my toungue baby
i need a shield for my bones
when u call on my phone
its either a fight or its love baby

this the type of weather to make u do something youd regret
please dont take my picture cuz i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best u are
i may not be 100 but ive come this far
restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
u got it go ahead take my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i really feel strongly even tho i dont express it

so much for a first verse
i dont save face tryna stay safe save me in the dirt
got ur head down inside the sand only take it out when u lurk
i gotta find a new style nothing works
im drunk can we go home baby
i need to find peace in my self but i cant
i need to find peace in my self but i cant

this the type of weather make u do something youll regret
i cant take my picture
i dont like who i am
im terribly sorry for not treating u like the best that u think u are
amazing how i came this far
im restless
im a dead man walking im defenseless
i think its time that u wrote my heart off of ur checklist
text message
i know i have trouble showing my love
thats why i make these songs for u

deadmanwalking (p. michael harrison)

Thankyou once again to cobalt for the amazing beat <3 
Will maybe have one more song before Xmas if not everyone have a great Christmas and new year we can’t wait for the next love you all AIE🤎
Lyrics:

It’s been along time since I saw you smile in my arms 
Last night was a long ride and you didn’t talk much at all 
And I can see the pain right through your eyes
Baby don’t blame yourself it’ll be alright
Your old boyfriend made you the issue and that’s not right 


I won’t treat you like he did 
I can be just what you want 
We both you’ve been through a lot way too much
And it feels like your world is falling apart
No ones there with open arms 
All the bruises turn to scars
And you feel all the pain in your legs in your arms 
All the pain that excess from your heart
And you don’t recognise who you are 
Falling apart but nobody’s calling at all
But I’m right here right now
I know I don’t give the best advice at the best of times but it’ll be alright
I’m here if you wanna talk at all 
Im here if you want some company 
I’m not asking you to fall in love with me

its okay im sure things will get better (cobalt)

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

Lyrics ⬇️ 

i wont tell em that im right
if i wake up and i want it
ima get it 
waste my time dontchu get it im not fine
i been tryin all my life an everybody switvhin sides
so what i gotta do to tell em i was right

im pickin fights atleast my parents think im nice
think twice
being honest oh my gosh i think im blind

yea tey to play me youll end up payin the price
never thought id say this but i feel alone at night
yea walk thru where they hangin in the back
I won’t pull up witta tool I won’t pull up wit a mac

yea you think you cool ima lay you on ya back
you been actin like a fool lemme show you where its at
if you hate me its okay im movin on
and i hope that if you ever hear this song
talkin bout you and that new man that you want
i hope they lnow that you had did me so damn wrong 

all he ever did was really talk
walk along the lines i felt like i could never solve
all these issues that hes putting in my paws
guess ill have to tell him off and tell her that hes gone

whyd i run away from everything that i want
i promise that i did everything but i took too long
so whyd i write the song to tell you how i feel
when i feel like i could rot

lemme rot away so i dont feel the pain no more
if i pull then you know yhat you mot safe no more
I dont need nobody else to play these chords
you’re acting like ur purpose wasnt there before
watch me do it all again
past tense where we used to be friends 
no more
i jus wanna know where you been 
I been layin down passed put on the floor

yea now hes gone but so am i
you killed a person with ur disguise
who am i to be if i wanted lies in my life i dont want it i just want you alive

rot. (yunnygoldz)

lyrics

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

she asked to lay on my chest
think she trying to map out my heart before she stab it
if u dont want to start a fire dont play with matches
cuz im not gonna be the one to clean up ashes
baby dont look at my back thats right where the gash is
i dont want to wait a week to see u thats too long
i remember hot nights i would dream on the futon
n i remember way before u baby i would do wrong
n now i stay alive to show u n my two friends my new songs
but how am i still alive i dont even got my two cents i screw up
pretty much everything that i see n i touch
i hope that u dont ever realize im not much
but im trying
im trying

woah woah
im getting sick of the silence
catch me lying again n u can feed me to the lions
well how the fuck does it not look like im trying
we created a monster can we kill it with fire
when u call my phone
baby im not at home
but u dont leave a message saying u love me at the tone

its a state of mind
its a state of mine
that i cant seem to break out of
baby if i told u that we'd end up together
but u gotta just trust me
would u take that chance
if im stumbling around im drunk i cant walk
would u still hold my hand
hold my hand cuz im bout to walk through hell again
why u talking
pick myself up
walking now
im walking out
how i feel is something that we dont talk about

kill it with fire (king theta)

produced by @uvshy
thanks cam for pic
<3

i should be honest 
and i can be honest 
ill burn all my bridges 
and fulfil my promises to you

ill bury my sins deep in my garden 
was not my intention to be such a burden 
and i 

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

nothing before this 
it plays and it torments 
quite some time its been dormant
and my efforts exhaustive 

deep in the forest 
my mind such a torment
im unearthing burdens 
and im all alone and im

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

lalala

burden (prod. shy)

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

i’ll freeze my soul
don’t breathe when im walking alone
hear your voice thru the phone
won’t talk back to you if you call

just leave me on the highway
i decide to run away
i know you hope i’ll change my mind and come to you another day
but imma do it my way
don’t come by my place
if i don’t return by saturday

coming down, i feel fine now
i can’t let anybody find out
on the walk back to my house
time moves slower, it’s frightened

bones that snap like a branch
i can’t deal with this anguish
freezing cold, no plans
crawling home, i’m stranded
i cannot give it up
i try to give a fuck
i’m abandoned
don’t tell me what it was
i dealt with my own luck
i can’t stand it

stranded (santana)

it doesn’t look like home anymore  



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