deep end

dead

hide under the covers

[made for the Niztopia song wars 3/9 :>]

prod.me

can you smoke the pain away? 
please tell me
can you tell that im insane?
please tell me
if you never shoot then you always lose
(think quick tell me sum that i cant do)
if you never shoot then you always lose
please, tell me something that i cant do

cant do
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant you?
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant do
give me something that i cant do
cand do, cant you?

SAY IT REAL LOUD
say it real loud
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud 
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud

(i) step outside the (box)
thats the way i move
i know it aint perfect
but its more than you
if you never shoot
then you always lose
give me something that i cant do
(cant do)
cant you turn the sound off?
you dont fucking own that
YOU SHOULD GET YOUR OWN SWAG
i can feel the doubt from the next room
SO IF YOU FIND SOMETHING THAT I CANT DO

SAY IT REAL LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

say-it

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing

Track 3 - "Learning to Love Myself"
aka; A moment of reflection, let it be my last

Produced by Serena Liars
Vocals by JAYOVSN
Started March 23rd, 2025 - Finished April 2nd, 2025
140bpm Fmaj

Lyrics:

Crystal markings on my chest
Hold my hands as I repent
Lift my arms while I grow again
When I die, please let me rest

Ooh, but I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-

are x10000000000000000000

Hard to let go
Looking at the x's, o's,
No longer at home

Thinking 'bout past mistakes and
I wonder the most
If all of the wrongs been lingered

Feeling the pain in my sides
I guess this is my part of my life
Looking at the skies above
Now I'm just wondering why? (Ooh, but I don't wanna)

Go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-

(Ooh, but I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-)

also listen to bevels song that dropped today 
https://soundcloud.com/b3v3l/youll-see-exactly-what-i-mean/s-fQ2zbLri6XI?si=f57ba0252d7a481ea569802c4989b841&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Learning to Love Myself (with JAYOVSN)

Written by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Produced by @hiisero, @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mixed by @ryanleahan & @trustt
Mastered by @trustt

#2014Back

We made this in less than a day. (26/4)

[Intro: Ryan Leahan]
So won’t you go 
Go hang out with your friends
They’ll put the seeds in your hands
You found a reason to end you life, well
They found a spot to begin 
Well don’t you know 
Don’t you know in the end 
Were just the tracks that we spin 
So turn it up till the speakers blow
then I 
I wanna play it again 

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Verse 1: Trustt]
"Just wait for a week
Just stay for a month"
But I feel so wrong
But I feel so dumb
Just go out
Oh god, why'd it get so hard now?
I feel so dumb

Tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep
So tell me everything
Just tell me where to stay
I can't even eat now
I can't even sleep


[Verse 2: Sero]
You find yourself, uh, 
looking for doors 
but they lead to the same damn place

You find yourself lying,
trying to keep trying
with a noose in your hands

You repent, you repent, you repent
while you wish to be someone else
You say "mother, I'm sorry"
I desire for one day to be the one

[Pre-chorus: Ryan Leahan]
She's the girl divine 
Your always on my mine
Your the girl divine
She's always on my mind

[Drop: Ryan Leahan]
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again
We’ll 4 ever love, we’ll 4 ever love again

[Outro: Trustt]
just hold on, cuz waiting forever
hurts more than missing you
and white grass, painted all over
our spring is meant for two
wait up, you're fading too fast
my eyes can't catch your moves
and white tracks, painted and older
this seat, i left for you

girldivine (with Ryan Leahan & trustt)

all i can give is a smile :)
vocal help from @outfed - dota
shoutout @sounddesignday always <33
cover: @zzoos youre the best

initiate it

june bug, prod @qlein, circa 02-05-25

its like a crush
but i don't wanna talk about it :(
one shot
and we took it but you left me burning
im lost
just take a hint or hold me closer
its gone
but ill never let you just forget it

crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
but i dont wanna talk about it 
crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
but i dont wanna talk about it

--- 

crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
oo-oo-ooh
crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
but i dont wanna talk about it【三回】

---


crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
oo-oo-ooh
crush
oo-ooh its like a crush
but i dont wanna talk about it 【三回】

june bug {qlein}

prod me and https://soundcloud.com/danaelco

three days from saturday
this is more than i can manage
i got blood inside my bandage
from all the times i tried so hard
bitch oh my god
i crashed my car
woke up so early to hit a rock
i did the right or so i thought
i thought i had this i did not
i’m so sorry that i disappointed you
i don’t mean to be a bother
know things hurt but i hurt too
and there’s no room for my shit
don’t care about that you care about this
and when i talk you want me to quit
say jack about smoke till i breathe in
i don't want to restart 
go somewhere else 
why they always gotta give me hell
i haven't even smoked in a month 
and now i gotta deal with this shit
how i'm supposed to deal with this shit
how i'm supposed to deal with your shit 
how i'm supposed to get the bands quick
girly suck it up like nesquik

breathe in

i thought i heard your voice again
i turned around, where are you at now?
the same illusion once again

but you were gone before i even spoke
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

i can’t hold on, you slip away
leave me stuck, i’m still stuck in yesterday

stuck in...Yesterday_3

17
three dimensional 2025
1/3 of: @van_point

dead

cus3d

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