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“To be, or not to be: that is the question: 
Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer 
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, 
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, 
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep; 
No more; and, by a sleep to say we end 
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks 
That flesh is heir to, ’tis a consummation 
Devoutly to be wish’d. To die, to sleep; 
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there’s the rub.” - William Shakespeare 

I’ve experienced the spectrum of suicide and suicide thoughts in my life. Through my self, through fellow Marines and through family. In a time of desperation, me and my cousin choose to express our feelings about the topic of suicide; and inward to outward expression on what we felt.
Suicide challenges beliefs we have grown up with. Importantly the belief that Suicide is a sin and if committed you’d be throwing your soul into eternal damnation. But God is all-loving, all merciful and filled with grace; why would he punish us for feeling so low we might off ourselves? And if he doesn’t, and he is all forgiving of our sins because his one and only son died on the cross and shed his blood(forgiving us of our sins); wouldn’t we be saved if we ended our life? If that’s the case why not OD today? We would wake up in peace, or never wake at all. Still a peace far better then the peace we could ever achieve in this world. 

This song just poses the question and helps remind me of my feelings and beliefs at a time when I was so far into the abyss I couldn’t see a way out.

If your thinking about self harm in any way call 9-8-8, or you may give me a message on SoundCloud and we can talk about things. I’d like to listen.

Song was produced, mixed and mastered, as well as chorus written and preformed by Billy Redd The Kidd. The first and second verse was written and preformed by Warlord Daddy.

LYRICS:

“Yknow I just wanted that comfort so bad, it was rough.” (Mac Miller)

CHORUS (Billy Redd The Kidd)
Pull my lid back thinking bout the Snap-back,
Thinking bout putting my brains on Snapchat,
Should I write a note?
Or should I comatose?
Should I clear some space and put up the rope?
Should I press the barrel to my mothafuckin nose?
Who will wrap for me?
My funerals got hoes, put inbetween my teeth pull the trigger close,
All you heard was the, all you heard was the, blow.

VERSE 1 (Warlord Daddy)
I said what’s up buttercup blow my face to smithereens,
A blood bender vengeance and rage, you gon run and scream,
Waiting for my birthday so I can peel my cap,
Hitting up his line but God don’t hit me back,
Asking for forgiveness, his people won’t do that,
You can rape, murder, steal and he’ll still give you daps,
Once the self loathing hits you get stabbed in the back,
Blow your brains out n get left with the rats,
I wanna meet my god but he won’t give me that,
If I expedite my journey he’s gonna send me back,
Lock me up in purgatory send me to hell,
I just need to find me a safe place to dwell,
Aching for a heaven, walk around in a shell,
Gaze into the darkness dive in that well,
When the abyss reaches out we’ll let that ship sail,

“I didn’t wake up very happy.” (Mac Miller)

VERSE 2 (Warlord Daddy)
Yeah, when it comes to death, we don’t know a thing,
The pope says something and we live by that dream,
It’s a pardonable sin, man can’t you see?
You could OD today and be living with some queens,
Fishing in a pond, gold swan, and your team,
God loves everybody not just the Gs,
He has a massive plan and he knew all these things will come into fruition, so just let it be,
The real question is baby, who you gon believe?
When the reaper comes knocking and you know it’s time to leave,
Grab his bony hands and go with ease,
He’ll take you to a place where you can finally be,
Free amongst all the birds and bees,
Gentle winds caressing the trees,
Big bootied angels fly around the scene
Platinum bongs and careless dreams
When it’s my time, man, let me be
Man, let me be
Just let me be
Let me be

Pardon ft. Warlord Daddy

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Mixed and mastered by: Yani Mora (@yxnstaa)

Recorded at: Labworx Studios (@labworx_)

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