@lllovbug @jenryh
we used to talk for hours now we don't anymore
yeah was it me or u? i don't know that for sure
i think that u n me could've been something more
n i don't wanna think so i pour up a 4

these pills don't keep me happy
they just keep me numb
i tried my best for u
ik that i wasn't enough

wanna stop breathing don't wanna feel shit
ur voice is in my head don't wanna hear it
on the floor kneeling i think i need some healing
n i cant even fkin tell u how i'm feeling

my worlds in shambles some shit that i cant handle
you'll call me from time to time but i wont answer
a disaster a beautiful disaster
i tried to run from my demons but they're faster

don't wanna stay now
ill blow my brains out
from day to day i
i see ur face i
don't wanna stay here
don't wanna be here
i'm off this gas now its gettin hard to see clear

shambles prod lovbug jenry

comeback 2 time:?

 lyrx
i got the n(n) its on my body 
i got a bitch n she kiss me softly
i got a bagg n ur still in the lobby ^^
ion wan tlk if ur still a nobody
actin a lame yea i swrr its ur hobbY
ur btch a 10.. n she still wanna top me
filln my pockets oh yea they gt heavyy
me n my bros yea we stil movn steady,.

we don fw u, me n my bros we in the back
i been up all night drikn liquor smokin pacckk 
swear i see ur face in my dreams i cnt go bacck
ion care abtt it all i care 4 is the rackzzZ

grl yea u wanna talk, 
but im here where ru
grl if u don give a fuck,
ion care but tell th truth 

i been gettn stacks, an i luv her
bitch yea don get mad, u gettn butthurt
buy her a new bag, ill be a butler
say u wantd that, i gotta cuff her

bag (jiyu)

best times @accee @nighfu

사랑 해요.... :n

(가사)
baby askin 2 call me back
up late smokin a cigarette
drinkn myself 2 sleep again
ill be back but ill take a sec
drink anothr cup
i been drinkin out in busan
smoke anothr blunt
said 2 me 지금 머물다
take u out oh grl don waste time
i want u 2 jus stay n be mine
say 너와 나 n grl we'll be fine
heart 2 heart come close i don bite
sippn it cold
ooOOH
smokin in seoul
ooOOOOOH
out n the town n we sip it up
u tryna talk like i giv a fuk  

cup fulla soju 2nite
grl tryna make u mine
take u out oh grl don waste time
i want u 2 jus stay n be mine
say 너와 나 n grl we'll be fine
heart 2 heart come close i don bite
ooh i still taste ur lipstick
i cant get u out my mind cuz ur the one that im still misSing..
i guess it doesnt mean anything all my hugs n my kisSes..
imma pull up 2 the airport on a visit plz come listen,#

busan.. (jxssx)

@comgan
@miyeru
ib: @176s
thanks for the yr

bluelemonade +comgan & miyel

16 🥳

thank you to everyone who's seen me through my year and a half of beat making - can't wait to celebrate another year of life with you all!

featuring: @azami37
inspirations: @diligencexs @maknae @viewwd @prodmh @2k3lifestyle @y4ndere and more

Tracklist and comments:
1) rocket - Heavily inspired by my friend @diligencexs
2) wind - Also inspired by Diligence.
3) up - inspired by https://soundcloud.com/anotherschoolday/bday (yes I know I coprod that beat)
4) selenium - The vocal chops are sampled from "selena gomez - who says". It was originally gonna be a remix/flip of that song but I eventually decided against it.
5) temperature - I made this weird chant/anime sounds thing that sounds awful on its own, but i gated it and made it into a background texture thingy
6) foliage - This was from around the start of February when i was obsessed with trance kicks
7) stream - UK Garage. the melody pad thing is a heavily edited sample of an imogen heap song but I forgot which one (sorry).
8) technology - I used open hats to make a background texture which I like. The open hat midi was from kuru kit, its not very good IMO (no hate to kuru he makes cool music) but I just put a lot of delay and reverb on it.
9) fluid - I had a lot of fun wih the 808s, the accent/counter mel 808 is just a spinz with a little processing, delay and reverb.
10) grave - The "i dont wanna die" sample works extremely well in my opinion, I really like it.
11) dystopia - It was gonna be a generic clips type beat but then I randomly thought to make it into dubstep. azami37 made the melody so shout out to them. Probably my favourite of the whole clips.
12) shine - I made the bell sounding thing from a generic perc, just boosted a resonant frequency until it was tonal. Shout out to the YouTube channel "Oversampled" for teaching me this technique.
13) ghoul - I sampled the xbox startup sound into a pluck.
14) virtue - This was originally gonna be the opener for valentines/pluggnb clips, but I never ended up dropping them since I just sent out most of the beats to people.
15) granite - A lot of the percs in this beat/background textures are sampled from actual wood/rock/metal sounds (not mine because I don't go outside LMAO). I will probably use that technique again, because its quite unique.

Birthday 2022 (@sssore @azami37)

Featuring @tdx1958 (only 2:43) and  @betteroffgone (only 3:58)



This is how ive decided to celebrate my 18 years of life

Honestly i dont like anything i hate everyone in my family and i barely got any friends 

I got used to passing days alone and now i don't even feel any way about it


I done tried my hardest and tried to cling on school life,make friends or get a girlfriend to find momentary happiness that'd slap me back into the world 
and give me a glimpse of pure joy sometime but nothing worked

Ive felt so much sadness,loneliness,hatred,rage,despair and misery in my life that despite being so young i already want to disappear


I don't know why i'm still living now,feeling only darker and dimmer days await me

I barely felt any of that school life because of my mental state that detoriated the more i went on and it's sad because

I found that there's no happy ending 

The only way to survive in this world is to outsmart everyone,use people like pawns and for your own benefits,make some important friends to go higher in rank

This world is full of Terror & Anxiety and i hate everyone and everything
I might just be living for the art,for the pure feeling of creating something never seen
For making something you'll never hear from anybody

I hope this message got thru you,

Goodbye,
- V.L

bluelemonade +comgan & miyel

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