when are you going to be real about us...

real about everything you feel??

how do u expect to attract a authentic man in your life when you haven't closed out the shit you have run from for years??

Like please legitimately read what I'm saying because it's all the truth... and coming from a place of raw REAL love

you ain't in any danger neither are the babies

I've haven't done anything to you
and I always stress boundaries and permission before I ever decide that I make any moves

this is reality this is the truth

I sit in my side of the world paying my bills and minding my own business 

I am always doing the same shit

I keep my door cracked for you and I look your way to see if your trying to reach me

and that's it the only thing that changes is your receptiveness and mind/mood about us....

I'm yours dude there ain't two of me out here..(cept you🫠😉)

we ain't gonna find us anywhere 
quite like us except in us

we can heal together and be real together

but you have to choose that Collette

I can't choose it for you 

we are always one phone conversation from a completely different reality

I wish you saw the value in taking accountability for how difficult you make connecting with you

instead of looking at me as weak for loving you unconditionally to the best of my ability...

I don't have no I'll feelings towards you

I don't hate you I'm not angry with you

I never am

I genuinely love you I don't understand why it's so hard for you to realize and accept me for who I am

but I know that you are always doing your best and I do my best to try not to take your actions personally....

point is 

your living in a fake bubble reality

your whole idea of me is twisted and your ego thrives off of it 

you get a high from treating me like I'm subhuman garbage

you get low... you come back 

I build you up. and then you get your sense of normalcy back from bieng loved correctly and boom you block me and throw me away

I know I don't make things easy sometimes and I get emotionally overwhelmed and I'm sorry for that 
I been working on feeling my dark and not letting it overwhelm me 

it's a struggle that often comes from overthinking and bieng left so many times and I recognize the part I play
I'm not saying it's all your fault and I don't do no wrong ok

point is

your never going to find anyone else without settling because we are all we actually want...

we are supposed to heal with each other...i

untill we do that and do it authentically 

we are going to be alone....

I love you

imagine you give me a real proper chance to be myself 

imagine we start to unpack the dark stuff together without threat of abandonment...

I am here to heal and grow with you

but you actually got to be apart of it

untill you man up and be real about us

and you carry your share of the weight of our karma

your going to keep going through dumb shit

you can't cry out to the universe to bless you with a partner.....  you already have one and look at how you treat him..


don't shoot the messenger...

these are the facts💜💚



tamashii