Guitars - Tomas Tavares Zlock/Noah Ostrowski
Synth - Daniel Joseph

Sunday Jam

You told me I was sexy
But is that just to bait me?
Never been told I’m sexy
So what the hell does that mean?

You told me I deserve it
Swelling butterfly stomachs
I know I must deserve this
But I’m convinced I didn’t earn it

I don’t love you anymore
But you’re still behind my eyes
Am I myself anymore?
Am I the bad guy?
Don’t tell me that you love me
I’m not ready to be yours
Cause you could tell me that you love me
And I still wouldn’t see what you love me for

You told me I was sexy
Can’t tell if that was easy
I don’t think that you’re sexy
And I’m sorry for being sorry

sexy (voice memo)

I’m ugly and I’m not the same
As I used to be
When I was thirteen
I just think about the names
That I used to see
Before they had to leave

Take my hand
Don’t forget me yet
I don’t wanna go
Take my hand
Kiss my head
Til you have to go

I’m ugly and I’m not the same
As I used to be
When I was thirteen
I just think about the way
That things used to be
Before I forgot to be happy

Take my hand
Don’t forget me yet
I don’t wanna go
Take my hand
Kiss my head
Til you have to go

Take my hand
Don’t let me forget

I don’t wanna die
Alone

thirteen (demo)

Why am I so restless?
Why am I not happy?
I could make my bed forty times until I see the sun
I’ll hold you if you let me
Don’t lay in bed without me
I don’t want to paint the wrong picture of us

Lay here with me
Let me hold you
I’m tired of being alone
Come dance with me
I can hold you
And you’ll hold me

Don’t let go of one kiss
Don’t let go of hoping
But it hurts to be left by someone (someone)
I died because you let me (I died)
I still see you in my car seat (still there)
It’s pathetic, fragile illusions of love

Lay here with me
Let me hold you
I’m tired of being alone
Come dance with me
I can hold you
And you’ll hold me

Lay here with me
Let me hold you
I’m tired of being alone
I’ll let you leave
I won’t hold you
But please hold me before you go

hold me (demo)

I keep running and running
But I can’t find you anywhere
I’m still here with you
I’m still here forever

I can never see you
Only echoes of what once was
Echoes of before
My heart is still without you

Under fluorescent lights
I tasted your spit
And I choked
We were never meant to be here

Against the glass, we sleep
Maybe this is all that’s left
Taking time before I leave
I want to forget you, I want to know you

Liquored lips, I float away
I’ve never felt more at home
But it’s so cold, it’s so cold
And all I want is you

Intoxicated and happy
Playing with the lights
My hair shimmers in the endless fall
The endless season that never stops

Some of us drive fast cars on long highways
Some of us just walk
Maybe I was meant to meet you there
Did I scare you when everything stopped?

Please never leave me
My white wolf, clawing at my door
You are everything to me
And I am nothing to you

I thought that I liked you
But that was all a magic trick
Don’t deliver false prophecies
I’ll just believe them

Did I believe you?
Did you believe me?
Can I ever love you?
Did you ever love me?

Almost Lovers

Breaking bones on the concrete, all alone
This isn’t a playground, and you’re not thirteen
Set in stone, and I can see how much you’ve grown
But it kind of feels like the day that you met me

I think some things are meant to be
I think some things are meant to be
Why do you always remember my name?
It’s so hard to leave, so don’t forget me

Things we know are reframed because we’ve grown
And you wait for me, like I wait for you
I want to know the things you’ve done and where you’ll go
And I’m not bitter, I’m proud of you

I think some things are meant to be
I think some things are meant to be
Why do you always remember my name?
It’s so hard to leave, so don’t forget me

I think some things are meant to be
I think some things are meant to be

liam (demo)

Night life, I’m high
Glowing faces in the light
Heels along the concrete
Electric in my body
Open eyes
Tears I’ve yet to cry
Midnight sky, tiny lights
“Kiss me now," I said, “I might”

Night’s done, hands tied
Take me home and unwind
Low flames and pink wine
I’ll hold you while you cry

glowing (demo)

I broke down on the highway
And I could see the moon rise
I said I’d do it my way
A child will always lie

Blood red moon
Summer’s ending
It’s only June
And I’m poking dead things

I think I have the jumpers
But I left them in my house
Whose choice is it to jump first?
Whose choice is it to stay down?

Blood red moon
Bathe me in light
The beast’s cocoon
Endless stop signs

Did you notice that I’m not conscious?
Did you notice the blood running away?
Did you know that we could have stopped this?
Do you notice my face either way?

Seeing red
Played my cards wrong
A brush with death
Raven’s shrill song

Didn’t know how this would end
Didn’t know how you would leave
Maybe this is all pretend
A sudden death, a lover’s deed, a time to laugh, a time to grieve

Blood runs through
The passenger seat
I spoke too soon
And now I’m not me

Blood runs through
But not through my veins
You left too soon
And now I’m in pain

BLOOD RED MOON

I think I lost my soul
Something cracked inside of me
And then the rooster crowed
Shouldn’t that set you free?
Red and green and gold
Is it all make-believe?
I know you know we all get old
So do I, and I wish that you could see

Dancing in white crystals
When you spoke English the most
The basement is a temple
And the video’s my Holy Ghost

I think I lost my culture
I think my brain’s gone bad
And every time I say it’s over
I can’t help but still get sad
Red and green folds over
Now it’s just a muted rag
Thought it would make me closer
But the parties didn’t last

Pick me up and kiss my cheek
You loved me since I was small
I don’t remember how you speak
And you can’t see me get tall

saudade

Season of the Witch (Donovan Cover)

I’m on the brink
But I can’t think about
What you mean to me
It just makes me so goddamn tired
I’d like to think
It just takes time because
That would help me sleep
But I’m sick of fanning the fire

Moving in too fast
Memories can’t last
But that’s okay
First heart attack
And though I’d never go back
I won’t give it away

I’m not saying
That I’m obsessed, but I
Get scared when you won’t speak
But I still keep the hope alive
I’m sick of trying
Not to regress, but I
Can’t wait another week
Stood in my apartment and cried

Want to lay with you
Want to love you too
I thought that was a sign
I’m tired of acting cool
I just want to know you
Maybe it’s all a lie

I’m on the brink
But I still think about
What you’d mean to me
I’d like to think you’re not a liar
It wasn’t real
But I still thought it was
So I guess, shame on me
‘Cause to myself, I was a liar

daniel.joseph

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