bella / i can't find anyone

bella

Red Moon

whatever you want

If Angels represent Love, Safety, and Connection, then Devilry is in the Disconnection.

***

my head’s spinnin’ out of control
and i cant take this anymore,

i know we’ve got a future,
but i think it’s better if i go home —

strangled the breath out of the
last person who loved me this much,

i’ll be damned if i’m so impatient
that i can’t give you a month

or a year,
take your time, i’ll be here,

cuttin’ my way through this swamp,
the work is never done —

karma’s flooded all the dry land,
i’m alone on an island,

signal calling with smoke, 
lit with a fire of hope,

SOS sent,
hell bent,

look where all
the time went,

wrote a few lines down,
secluded in the basement,

loaded a silver bullet
in a rusty .22,

gonna off my codependency
in a ritual next full moon —
 
my head’s spinnin’ outta control —
i think it’s better if i just go home tonight —

i’m a freak and you’re the weird kid,
i’ll give you space till i’m dead to

test out this dynamic —

…

meanwhile, in his voicemail:

…i wanted to add
that i wanted to send some 
Ease and Peace, um…

so i’ll see you tomorrow morning?
have a good night…

…

these days i struggle with alone time,
involuntarily pursued it most of my past life —

Marley in Chains showed me 
that part of my heart’s not functioning

when i sit inside, 
can't focus or read
or watch tv 
or get to sleep

cuz there’s no touch comforting
or slowly mesmerizing,

can’t be memorizing
spots in your eyes and

the shapes of
your body —

you’re not the only source of 
Ease and Peace,

but you’re the closest 
i’ve felt recently

to stability,
so take all the time that you need,

you want space?
i’ll board the next flight

to mercury,
single-handedly stop the retrograding —

i’ll never go back
to old rhythms of thinking — 

my head’s spinnin’ outta control,
i think it’s better if i just go home tonight,

i’m a freak and you’re the weird kid,
i’ll give you space till i’m dead to

test out this dynamic —

new direction

alone time

Sharing my first beat as I journey into production as a solo artist. Long way to go. Luh da process.

alone time

dannyleegreen

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