a presence in the night 
a shadow in the dark 
a chill that runs down your spine 
a voice that leaves a scar

the whispers in your ear
the footsteps down the hall 
the feeling of terror 
the fear that takes control 

lost in the darkness
searching for the light
haunted by the shadows
haunted by the night 

the creaking of the floor
the banging on the door
the cold mist in the air
the things u can’t ignore 
apparitions that appear
the faces in the mist 
make me question 
all the things that exist 

lost in the darkness
searching for the light
haunted by the shadows
haunted by the night 

the shadows speak to me
the shadows speak to me in my sleep
the things that cannot be explained
the things that are not right 
the fear that grips your heart
the terror in your soul
the things that you can’t see
are things that take a toll

lost in the darkness
searching for the light
haunted by the shadows
haunted by the night

paranormal

staring in the mirror
all i see is u
couldn’t be any clearer
what i need to do
the night is young
the moon is out
can u feel the sparks in the air? 

when we kiss under the moon 
u cauterize all my wounds
i cannot die it’s too soon 
baby i’m falling into a gravity well
that pulls me closer to u

dreamy eyes, yes
in ur sundress
as u stare at me 
i start to say 
“i can’t deny, 
ur dreamy eyes
make me feel like 
i’m lost in time” 

when we kiss under the moon 
u cauterize all my wounds
i cannot die it’s too soon 
baby i’m falling into a gravity well
that pulls me closer to u

there’s nowhere left to go
except right here next to u
nothing can stand in our way
everything will be okay 

u cauterize all my wounds
i cannot die it’s too soon 
baby i’m falling into a gravity well
that pulls me closer to u

cAuTeRiZe (under the moon)

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The Mask Beneath

Child of Rape(Indie Metal Remix)

AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

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