Stand Next to Me - demo

This is basically my break up blues

Beautiful Zero - Without love

Beneath the slope, the slope that slowly rolls me home
To take her time out of my mind the sun it skins my bone
I haven't time for money now though some would disagree
As subtle breezes in my face lights the weary whole
I know there's bliss, I know there's joy, I know there's fantasy
Shattered by a fireball sky
That I've been dreaming on
That should be dreaming on me

Admit I must the village dust of daily misery
Is dragging on without a love, only my family
And soon the days will not be mine and also for that yours
A smile as broken as my voice, the cigarette burns on
I should know better

Love become me
(In the night when you're not there)
Love become me
(A space to breathe my lonely soul)
Love become me
(I cannot find my home at home without love)
Without love

Without love (2016)

Scorpio: Om Aim Kleem Sauh

Damages was originally recorded in 2012 on my first album Broken Bones. It’s a song about mental health issues around bi polar and the ups and downs that can bring and trying to navigate that in a strange world It’s also about not knowing my heritage from my biological father’s side. It’s saying look at all the love that you missed out on through the years, even though I was lucky with the love I had from my mums side.

I re-recorded a version of it for the 10th anniversary of broken bones album in 2022 but it never came to fruition. As fate should have it now it’s going to be release as a single for a suicide charity called Papyrus. 

Papyrus is the UK charity dedicated to the prevention of suicide and the promotion of positive mental health and emotional wellbeing in young people.
They exist to reduce the number of young people who take their own lives, by shattering the stigma surrounding suicide and equipping young people and their communities with the skills to recognise and respond to emotional distress. They believe that no young person should have to struggle alone with thoughts of suicide.

I’ve lost family member and friends to suicide and it’s something, I too feel, we need to highlight especially in these hard times. We need to support family and friends, we are all fighting an invisible battle and we never truly know whet people are going through.

Damages will be available digitally from 10th January and will be the first single taken from Broken Bones vol 2. 

There will be a run of gigs with all proceeds will go to Papyrus. More details on those to come later this month.

Jonnythefirth - Damages (feat. Rosie Doonan)

Ed Horrox, the creative director and A&R from 4AD joins NTS once a month for an hour of his personal favourites, which can be pretty much anything: hip-hop, house, found ‘classics’, esoteric century-old jazz recordings, and then occasionally some of those unreleased leftfield pop bangers that 4AD seem to be so good at finding.  
Find the full tracklist and related episodes on NTS: https://www.nts.live/shows/happy-death/episodes/happy-death-9th-january-2025

Happy Death w/ Ed Horrox 090125

A download of guided meditations aimed to complement the learnings found in Prof Mark William's and Dr Danny Penman's guide to freeing yourself from the stresses of everyday life. Containing all the meditations that are mentioned in the book this is an invaluable resource to cement their teachings on how to find Mindfulness, and how to keep it.

Mindfulness - Finding Peace In A Frantic World - Guided Meditations

Mindfulness: Meditation 1 - Mindfulness Of Body And Breath

Integral Thoughts

Out of Your Circle (Demo) 100bpm

#A92 Offica x Ksav x Dbo x BT - Plugged In W_ Fumez The Engineer _ Pressplay.mp3

https://soundcloud.com/zero7 - Home with https://soundcloud.com/tina-dico
https://soundcloud.com/cudderland - Day N' Night
https://soundcloud.com/snoopdogg - Ridin' In My Chevy
https://soundcloud.com/alice-in-chains-official - Grind
https://soundcloud.com/john-lennon-official - Gimme Some Truth
https://soundcloud.com/nirvana - Heart-Shaped Box
https://soundcloud.com/radiohead - My Iron Lung

A Total Waste Of Time Mixtape

We lived in a farmhouse at the edge of the village. I listened to the cold war numbers station on my shortwave radio with my mum while my dad powered the house. I guess I received some signals from the Big Bang because I learnt to see them in the people in my life. These are rhetorical transmissions..

Integral Thoughts

Dark Fragments

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