on my emo shi

additon w/ lucille

Terrified (OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS)

lucille - point blank range

lucille - insane

bunii - wishing

lucille - if you (full song)

The words you speak are so nefarious
What's your intentions
I feel like you're tearing me apart
All i ever wanted was some clarity
Now I'm twenty three in a bar
With the bottle up
Grab the kerosene, let's start a fire I

Don't think that I matter to you
I'm so unimportant I
Wish I could be normal like you
Where's the party, blowing candles out
The riots and the smiles around me
And all my friends are gone
Like oh what's that about
There's not a banner with my name
I'll turn this smile around
Like fuck I'm signing out
I'll end up falling on my head
Don't feel bad for me
I've given up, can't walk with broken legs
I can't speak up anymore
You pull my heart up out my chest
i think I'm better off just dead
I know I 

Don't deserve this
I feel so alone
I don't know why they all desert me
Are you better off?
Is it worth it?
Am I such a burden I remind you of the worst days?
I'm not even happy I'm alive here on my birthday
Breaking down
Open my wrists till I need first aid
(Man, fuck)
I'm not even happy I'm alive here on my birthday

natalis (interlude)

What would it take for you to talk to me?
I'd give you all you wanted
I'm in agony, my god
You still stab my back regardless
You want apologies, I'm sorry
I just hate how it's all my fault

It's been a while
I'm in the rain
I hope it'll change but i know it won't
I'd rather leave it
You want a cause or a why or a reason

Yeah I'm just depleted
Tired of breathing, tired of thinking
When i need a break in the ring
You keep beating
Knock my lights out, such a diva
I'm not pure but you're so evil

Yeah I'm just depleted
Tired of breathing, tired of thinking
When i need a break in the ring
You keep beating
Knock my lights out, such a diva
I'm not pure but you're so evil

We're in so much dismay
You're so cold i idolize it
Can't put it all behind me
I think i need some rest because

I'm just depleted
Tired of breathing, tired of thinking
When i need a break in the ring
You keep beating
Knock my lights out, such a diva
I'm not pure but you're so evil

Yeah I'm just depleted
Tired of breathing, tired of thinking
When i need a break in the ring
You keep beating
Knock my lights out, such a diva
I'm not pure but you're so evil


evil

She runs around in my head
Who thought I'd be here alone
The things we did
I digress
Nowhere to go, you're my home
And i tried just letting it go
Cause you'll find me wherever i know
Cause my heart still beats for you
No one will ever kiss like you

(So out of words, i miss you)
(Can't lie i need you so)

I know
What a bad time to realize it
Now that you're gone and it's all behind us
I know you know the truth
My lies don't work on you

Nothing left to fix or repair
If I take your hand, you'll lead me nowhere
It's a mental break, you're ripping your hair
Tryna tell me you do but I know you don't care

No apology will work
It's like poison with no cure
And i know no one is perfect
But you're so damn close for sure

Nothing left to fix or repair
If i take your hand, you'll lead me nowhere
It's a mental break, you're ripping your hair
Tryna tell me you do but i know you don't care

(And i know you don't care)
(Cause you love it don't you)

(So out of words, i miss you)
(Can't lie i need you so)

I know
What a bad time to realize it
Now that you're gone and it's all behind us
I know you know the truth
My lies don't work on you

Nothing left to fix or repair
If I take your hand, you'll lead me nowhere
It's a mental break, you're ripping your hair
Tryna tell me you do but I know you don't care

No apology will work
It's like poison with no cure
And i know no one is perfect
But you're so damn close for sure

Nothing left to fix or repair
If i take your hand, you'll lead me nowhere
It's a mental break, you're ripping your hair
Tryna tell me you do but i know you don't care



kiss

I don't know if you're alive or just pretending
With all the time you'll end up spending alone
Cause i know you fear it more than anything I've ever known
Can you fix it at all?
Think i need a witch doctor
Hexing on my heart i feel it

Gnawing on me
But wont let me escape
The way you're tired of me
But won't unlock these chains
I've been trapped here in this cycle
I don't think that I'm okay
Cause I'll be your laughing stock
I hope you're entertained

Cause i runaway
In your mind, i swear I'll roam in it forever
In the end
Cause I'll never see your face again
I know it never really mattered cause you're still

Gnawing on me
But wont let me escape
The way you're tired of me
But won't unlock these chains
I've been trapped here in this cycle
I don't think that I'm okay
Cause I'll be your laughing stock
I hope you're entertained

And i know
It's not getting better
I'm nothing but a jester
Your punchline, you're my header
All the time i thought I'd get back
Don't let go, I'm falling right back
I'm so attached
I'd never leave
I'm so defenseless when
They all attack
It's so relentless

I don't know if you're alive or just pretending
With all the time you'll end up spending alone
Cause i know you fear it more than anything I've ever known
Can you fix it at all?
Think i need a witch doctor
Hexing on my heart i feel it

Gnawing on me
But wont let me escape
The way you're tired of me
But won't unlock these chains
I've been trapped here in this cycle
I don't think that I'm okay
Cause I'll be your laughing stock
I hope you're entertained

Cause i runaway
In your mind, i swear I'll roam in it forever
In the end
Cause I'll never see your face again
I know it never really mattered cause you're still

Gnawing on me
But wont let me escape
The way you're tired of me
But won't unlock these chains
I've been trapped here in this cycle
I don't think that I'm okay
Cause I'll be your laughing stock
I hope you're entertained

motley

Prod. Horizon
Never wanna lose 
But it seems like every time i do 
Feeling all the walls fall down
All this wasted love 
I hate your guts
Didn't think you cared anyway 
All i tried to do was keep you safe

Now your gone 
Washed up like the ocean 
Like everything you did just break my heart
Feeling my whole body fall apart
Down I'll never feel the same 
Toying with my brain 
Never ever trust again
You treat me like a bastard 
Don't know what your after 
I think about it time and time
Sometimes i just wished you died
In my head get the fuck out of my head
Hearing all your words deteriorate 
I can never run away from fate 

Your word cut into my skin 
But i can never let you in 
I know that you want me again 
But your just another sin
Corrupting my brain 
I might go insane 

Never wanna lose 
But it seems like every time i do 
Feeling all the walls fall down
All this wasted love 
I hate your guts
Didn't think you cared anyway 
All i tried to do was keep you safe

Wasted (OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS)

theirthoughts

selah

lucille - parade (leak)

lucille & bunii - whatever it takes (og) (leak)

lucille - tabs (final)

lucille - mean it (final)

would you talk to me at all?
i'm just constantly at fault

i'm met with misery
i should've seen the fall
you look so good to me, your skin is all i want
(you're all i want)

with all the tears you shed
you're still here standing tall

tryna pick apart
all of my flaws
i know this shit wont end, i'm stuck here at the start

it feels like torture
it's so damn horrid
you're lurking as i
make the wrong choices
just say i lost

i'm met with misery
i should've seen the fall
you look so good to me, your skin is all i want
(you're all i want)

with all the tears you shed
you're still here standing tall

tryna pick apart
all of my flaws
i know this shit wont end, i'm stuck here at the start

misery

didn't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

i don't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

it's a fake out
tryna trash this party
doing lines in the bathroom
do you wanna makeout?
we could probably find a spot on the hills if we had to, i know

even if you could apologize
they'd find the wrongs inside your rights

no matter what you do
they'll always be after you
until i walk alone
on misery avenue 

all fall down
under the surface
i might drown

didn't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

i don't wanna but i had to
if i blow my brains out, its nothing but a hat trick
think i'd doubt you?
(wherever you are)
they'll see any day now, you're nothing but a bastard!

hat trick

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