I have a very personal
grief.
I've given it the power of being
an emotional thief.
It has stolen a lot of my life.

So many false prophets are filling
my media streams
with false dreams and prophecies.
False prophets are filling
my media streams
with false dreams and prophecies.
Huge profits are being creamed
from unnecessary industries.
Huge profits are being creamed
from unnecessary industries.
The prophets are predicting
a rise in the size of our debts.

*

It seems
nobody knows what they want
until they're told to want more stuff.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
..........Fly this idea.
Dig deep to feed your greed.

It seems
nobody knows what they want
until they're told to want more stuff.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
..........Fly this idea.
Dig deep to feed your greed.

*

I have a very personal
grief.
I've given it the power of being
an emotional thief.
It has stolen a lot of my life.

So many false prophets are filling
my media streams
with false dreams and prophecies.
False prophets are filling
my media streams
with false dreams and prophecies.
Huge profits are being creamed
from unnecessary industries.
Huge profits are being creamed
from unnecessary industries.
The prophets are predicting
a rise in the size of our debts.

*

It seems
nobody knows what they want
until they're told to want more stuff.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
..........Fly this idea.
Dig deep to feed your greed.

It seems
nobody knows what they want
until they're told to want more stuff.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
..........Fly this idea.
Dig deep to feed your greed.

*

I have a very personal
grief.
I've given it the power of being
an emotional thief.
It has stolen a lot of my life.

Try this.
.....Buy this.
Try this.
.....Buy this.
..........Fly this idea.
Dig deep to feed your greed.

DIG DEEP

[Intro - Hopeful orchestral swell, morning light]
[Verse 1 - Kody waking, shaken, genuine]
I saw them all last night
The children that I raised
The wives who stood beside me
Through all my selfish ways
The chains... the spreadsheets... Christine's eyes
The truth I couldn't fake
Maybe I've been wrong this whole time
Maybe... I'm awake
[Pre-chorus - Building hope]
I could call them, I could change
I could be the man I swore
I could humble myself finally
And not keep score anymore
[Chorus - Almost triumphant]
Almost... I can almost see it
A future where I'm whole
Almost... I can almost feel it
The healing of my soul
I'll call Janelle this morning
I'll apologize to Meri
I'll tell Christine I'm sorry
I'll stop being so contrary
Almost... this could be my moment
The redemption I deserve
Almost... I could be the father
With the love they all deserve
[Verse 2 - Reaching for phone, hesitating]
My hand is on the phone now
Janelle's number on the screen
One button and I'm different
One button and I'm clean
But what would I even say?
"Sorry for the wasted years"?
Would they even take my call?
Would they even want my tears?
[Pre-chorus - Doubt creeping]
And anyway, who's really wrong here?
I gave them everything I had
The sacrifices I made to love them
Maybe THEY should feel bad
[Chorus - Hope deflating]
Almost... but now I'm thinking
Maybe I was right before
Almost... but my mind is sinking
Back to keeping score
Janelle with her spreadsheets
Acting like she's so smart
Christine selling pies now
Like she didn't break my heart
Almost... but the feeling's fading
It's easier to stay the same
Almost... but who am I kidding?
They're the ones to blame
[Bridge - Robyn appears, saccharine]
ROBYN: [Spoken, sweet]
Kody? Honey? Are you okay?
You were talking in your sleep...
Come back to bed. I made your coffee.
The world outside can keep.
KODY: [Spoken]
I had the strangest dream, Robyn...
I thought... I thought maybe I should...
ROBYN: [Sung, music box melody underneath]
Shhhh... don't think so hard, my love
You do so much already
The others never saw your worth
But I am always ready
They left YOU, remember?
You didn't leave them
Come sit in your garage awhile
And let me bring your coffee in
[Verse 3 - Kody retreating, convincing himself]
She's right... she's always right
The others made their choice
I offered them my leadership
They rejected my voice
The knife is in my kidneys still
They put it there, not me
I was the victim all along
Why can't the world see?
[Pre-chorus - Full denial restored]
Meri and her catfish drama
Janelle and her precious "space"
Christine running off to Utah
Couldn't keep up with the pace
I gave them Coyote Pass!
I gave them everything!
The sacrifices I made to love them!
I was their patriarch king!
[Chorus - Tragic reprise of opening song]
The knife in my kidneys!
It's not my fault, it's theirs
The knife in my kidneys!
Nobody really cares
Almost had a breakthrough
Almost saw the light
Almost changed this morning
But I was right... I was right...
[Outro - Garage scene, deflated, defiant]
[Sound of garage door opening]
There's my weights I never lift
There's my tools I never use
There's my empty kingdom waiting
Nothing left to lose
[Robyn's music box theme plays distantly]
The angels watch from inside
Their painted smiles never fade
Robyn brings my coffee
And I've got it made
[Spoken, bitter]
God bless us, everyone?
No.
God bless ME.
I'm the one who suffered.
[Final sung line - Quiet, hollow]
Almost... I was almost different...
Almost... I was almost free...
Almost... but it's so much easier...
To just stay... being... me.
[Garage door closes]
[Music box winds down]
[Silence]

Turpentine Chaser

Dashboard Confessional

Related tracks