Brain Side

God Walks Among Us Now (Flaming Lips cover)

What a Wonderful World?

A Photograph Of You

from the new LP by the black watch, "sugarplum fairy, sugarplum fairy"

"sugarplum fairy"

I still want to kill you 9.5.25

what should have a bitter taste inside
is something I can’t want to hide
a once important sweetened fire enabled

and I want to go
I don’t want to stay
like a suicide or a castaway
the feeling can’t be thrown
I’m carrying a stone

and it left me something
it left me something else
and it left me something
it left me someone else
it’s a stone
and it’s heavier than you think
and it’s much too sweet to sink

an amazing wave of salt was cried
down the face of a timid glacial rockslide
now the bolder years careen us on to the next age

and I want to go
and I won’t stand by
while the tide recedes
leaving me high and dry
rewinding all I know
consent to undertow

and the taste will get you
‘cause it tastes like something sweet
till the bitterness
comes and knocks you off your feet
and it left me something
and it left me something else
and it left me something
and it left me someone else

it’s a stone
and it’s heavier than you think
it’s a stone
but it’s much too sweet to sink

drums: Todd Karinen

Saccharine Stone (album version)

Vocals & acoustic guitar 

This used to be called "Torn" but I couldn't stop thinking about Natalie Imbruglia. So instead I made a play on a Crosby, Stills, & Nash song.  Good job, me.  The lyrics (which have changed a little bit since I recorded this) are sort of about reflecting on how useless so much of the back and forth drama and arguments in a relationship can be, especially after the fact.  And how you can feel broken and incapable of loving in the future one moment, but wanting to go back to that person the next.  So I guess it's sort of about perspective, and needing the distance to be able to tell what's what when you look back on it.  I'd like to say I had it all figured out and I can dispassionately dissect what remains of it all, but I can't.  I can't even say that I'm over that person; it's just lower peaks and shallower valleys anymore.

Saccharine Stone (album version)

Teutonosaur

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