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Jungle Song

People always talk about what we say at the top of our lungs, but it is what is at the bottom of our lungs that is the most important:

At the top of my lungs
There’s a plan there’s a goal
At the bottom of my lungs there’s a song and a soul
At the top of my lungs 
I scream what they want to hear
At the bottom of my lungs 
I whisper what is truly here

At the top of my lungs
There are sounds to be heard
At the bottom of my lungs
Are important words
At the top of my lungs 
Only safe things are roared
But the bottom of my lungs 
Will no longer be ignored

A part of me feels right
And the other part feels left
And my throat is keeping silent songs inside my chest
And I want to let that sweet
Song out where It can breath
But It’s bigger than I ever thought that I should be

So I’ll tell myself
From the bottom of my lungs
I swear this song won’t stay unsung
And I’ll sing it out
Be it right, be it wrong
I swear this song won’t stay unsung

Like the deepest pit
Like the blackest hole
The unclaimed truth
Has the strongest pull
While my mind can make an
Untrue choice
The bottom of my lungs
Can only have an honest voice

A part of me feels right
And the other part feels real
And my throat is singing soothing songs for me to heal
And I want to let that sweet
Song out where It can breath
So I can finally claim this other part of me

So I’ll tell myself
From the bottom of my lungs
I swear this song won’t stay unsung
And I’ll scream it out
Be it right, be it wrong
I swear this song won’t stay unsung

Unsung

I have always felt like I was too much for people. I have learned that my depth of feeling is my superpower. This one is for all of the highly sensitive people out there:

Charles
Haven’t lost all your marbles
You just see all the marvels
No one else sees

Charles
Rarer still than the narwhals 
Have more glitters and sparkles
Than you ever could need

Others may have shooter-louders
But you have got a superpower
Others may be fitter inners
But you my friend are sensitive to
Everything
Everything
Cause all the things
need witnessing
So keep on keeping
Validating
By seeing feeling
Understanding
The parts behind
The “doing fine”
The reasons why
We try and try
The tree that grows
The river knows
The heart that glows
The ebbs and flows
Of time
 
Charles
Your intensity startles
But you get all the garbles
That no one else might

Charles
Intuit by the armfuls 
Understanding the warbles
That our hearts cry at night

Others may have shooter-louders
But you have got a superpower
Others may be fitter inners
But you my friend are sensitive to
Everything
Everything
Cause all the things
need witnessing
So keep on keeping
Validating
By seeing feeling
Understanding
The parts behind
The “doing fine”
The reasons why
We try and try
The tree that grows
The river knows 
The heart that glows
The ebbs and flows
Of time

And just in case we needed
Someone just to be
You are, you feel, you hear, you smell, you taste, you sense, you see

Everything
Everything
Cause all the things
need witnessing
So keep on keeping
Validating
By seeing feeling
Understanding
The parts behind
The “doing fine”
The reasons why
We try and try
The tree that grows
The river knows
The heart that glows
The ebbs and flows
Of time

Charles

When I first tried to kiss my eventual wife 14 years ago, she leaned away. She said she was worried that if we kissed we would be like all the other couples. I told her, "don't you know that we're different?" As an enneagram four, she liked this, and was part of her falling in love with me. I wrote this song about that moment, and all the other moments that all show that we are a little different:

I tried to kiss you but you didn't want to, no
I thought you meant that you didn't intend to go
That you'd only go where the safe trusted people went
You didn't know the one thing that I know:
We're different

We didn't make it to getting a picket fence
You didn't fit in with repeat and wash and rinse
I couldn't give up my soul to pay the rent
We only know how to follow and feel the flow: 
we're different

We don't follow the yellow brick road
We don't walk down the road less traveled
The highway to heaven is just for show
We don't let ourselves wear those shackles

Others will stay where their grandparents settled down
But you’ll follow me and I’ll follow you around
Things have been hard, we’re broken, we’re bruised, we’re bent
Life is unsure but one thing we know is so: 
we're different

We don't follow the yellow brick road
We don't walk down the road less traveled
The highway to heaven is just for show
We don't let ourselves wear those shackles
We don't walk down the road at all
We are the river, we are the current
We can be infinite and small
We don't do it like them:
We're different

We don’t do it like them
We’re different
We don’t fit the system
We’re different
We turned our intention
We’re different
In a totally new direction
We’re different
We let go of the string
We’re different
We got new songs to sing
We’re different
You got me at your wing
We’re different
And together we’ll face everything
We’re different

We don't follow the yellow brick road
We don't walk down the road less traveled
The highway to heaven is just for show
We don't let ourselves wear those shackles
We don't walk down the road at all
We are the river, we are the current
We can be infinite and small
We don't do it like them:
We're different

We're Different

We’re Different

I wrote this song after feeling depressed that nothing I tried to do seemed to work out, and the crazy chaos of my life somehow ended up being good for me:

Oh I’ve always been a hurricane
Who is living on tranquility lane
Every single day I smile and wave
But every once in a while I completely destroy everything

My order is chaos
It taunts and dismays us
It builds me a city 
It makes me look pretty
Then kills us and flays us
My chaos is order
I sit in the corner
I cry myself silly
I hate it but really
It’s moving me forward

I can always feel your pain
Deep inside my own my parietal brain
Every day I smile and say
“How are you?” but sometimes my shame blows us away

My order is chaos
It taunts and dismays us
It builds me a city 
It makes me look pretty
Then kills us and flays us
My chaos is order
I sit in the corner
I cry myself silly
I hate it but really
It’s moving me forward

How are you out on the Gulf of Mexico?
While I’m stuck inside afraid of letting go
How do you have space to change the world we know?
While I’m still afraid to show

My order is chaos
It taunts and dismays us
It builds me a city 
It makes me look pretty
Then kills us and flays us
My chaos is order
I sit in the corner
I cry myself silly
I hate it but really
It’s moving me forward

Order and Chaos

Order and chaos

I learned recently that white noise on a tv or radio is from the background radiation of the universe interacting with the antenna. I also learned that the reason that children respond to the "shhh" sound when parents are calming them is because it mimics this background radiation that is constantly around us. I wrote these lyrics about how love is the background radiation of the universe.

A little later I noticed a repeat melody when listening to the sound machine that my kids use to go to sleep. I decided to use this melody to make a song, and put these lyrics to it:

Sometimes I wonder
if life can be wonderful
if we weren’t under 
this “punish or plunder”
And It is superfluous 
to him to her to us
To say it’s them or us 
who must be dolorous
I want to release 
that untrue belief
That to get relief 
we must be a thief
Stealing love from now 
building a temple mound
Only for those who vow 
to be like us somehow

Love is the background radiation
Love is the best foundation’s foundation
Love is the soft sound heard when conversation is through
Love is the H2 of the ocean
Love is your intuition in motion
Love is my daily new notions of you

when I fall for the
lie that it’s them or me
I keep that safe story
Deep in my memory
Or when I am in fear
I hold on to the dear
Heavenly palace near 
oceans so crystal clear
every perfect place 
has to keep in place
it cannot embrace 
Alternative faith
love is here now too
for me them and you
An expanding universe 
with many rooms

Love is the background radiation
Love is the best foundation’s foundation
Love is the soft sound heard when conversation is through
Love is the H2 of the ocean
Love is your intuition in motion
Love is my daily new notions of you

Cause we build these giant monuments to love
And we make the rules that guarantee connection from above
And we babble builders still don’t understand
That the love we search for isn’t far away, it’s in our hands


Love is the background radiation
Love is the best foundation’s foundation
Love is the soft sound heard when conversation is through
Love is the H2 of the ocean
Love is your intuition in motion
Love my daily new notions of you

Sound Machine

Sound machine

Six and a half

This is a song for my wife. It's about how we met. It's about our lives now. It's about how any moment with her is pure magic.

I’m all at sixes and sevens
And I’m minding my Ps and Qs
But you’re just an inch from my leg
In this stranger’s living room

My heart’s beating fast like a sinner
So I’m faithfully crossing my T’s
But I spot your eyes as they glimmer
And quickly cut over to me

I've never been so lost
I’ve never been so found
My defense is crashing down

Will we touch? Oh we might
You could brush me with your thigh
Oh I must get this right
If I just catch your eye
That’s me getting lucky
Tonight 

We’ve been in a fight for a week
Now I feel like we’re miles apart
You’ve never made me feel so weak
And I’ve never so broken your heart

We sit on this couch in the silence
Resentment filling the air
Some old part of me has to die if
I come all the way over there

I've never been so lost
I’ve never been so found
My defense is crashing down

Will we touch? Oh we might
I could brush your arm with mine
Oh I must get this right
If I just catch your eye
That’s me getting lucky
Tonight 

Some people say they were born
But you know I was born yesterday
The day I just held you rock steady
And did not wipe your tears away

I've never been so lost
I’ve never been so found
My defense is crashing down

I can touch like you like
Hear the rush of your sigh 
Oh I must get this right
See the lust in your eye
That’s me getting lucky
Tonight

Sixes and Sevens

You be you

Lyrics:

How far would I go?
How far would I go?
I’d go through the unknown
I’d go through the unknown

From the district to the commonwealth
Through North Carolina or anywhere else
To the valley of the rio grande
Just hearing your voice and holding your hand
From the district to the commonwealth
Every place where you laughed or you slept and I fell
To the open Gulf of Mexico 
International waters and farther I’ll go 
for your love

How far would I go?
How far would I go?
I would lose all control
I would lose all control

From the district to the commonwealth
No places of strength, just places of health
Through the towers of my self defense
All the grasping for meaning and false confidence 
From the district to the commonwealth
Past lies to confuse, past tricks to upsell
To the places that I do not know
International waters and farther I’ll go 
for your love

How far would I go?
How far would I go?
I would go through my soul
I would go through my soul

From the district to the commonwealth
Past the old comfy towns of myself and myself
Where the river me joins the river you
And we flow to the sea; I do, I do
From the district to the commonwealth
Through the mountains, to deserts, through heaven or hell
To the place where all the rivers flow
Into death and it’s waters and farther I’ll go 
for your love

International Waters

Bizarro Columbus

Polymath. Jack of all trades. Empath. I have a vast array of life experiences. Each one has given me something to say about relationships, spirituality, the environment, and the interconnectedness of all things.

Starting a nonprofit, adopting three kiddos, living all over the world, earning multiple degrees, falling in love, losing and gaining spiritual beliefs; it's all bubbling out of me now in the art I create.

https://www.twine.fm/Dj6molar

David Jones

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