this song is actually beautiful asf  bro holy shit

Nihilist [p. 88STRAIT x Jolst]

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6JuVcEsqHVmX8atqGSoyVU?si=9e92ae4a59fe4b48

cut away, keep away
you make me hurt more than anything
i'm a fucking loser
an introvert at best
im repulsive, disgusting
nothing worth in my chest
ill say i do it to protect me
say it a million ways
if we're all honest im nothing
more of a throwaway

my headspace is clouded
i feel the shame when i talk
ill pour my flaws onto a type beat
only way to take a load off

i hear the silence, its shouting
"can they hear what i say?"
i feel the comfort in solace
get the fuck out of my face

i dont want you to hear me
at the same time i do
i dont want you to fear me
is this normal for you?

prod. mercenarychild

throwaway

lyrics

imma spike what i’m drinking
i don’t feel none now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that tshirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

i been drinking
swear to God that i been drinking
can’t fight this feeling
wanna push my face through the drywall
baby blow my head off
shit look like a firework when you paint the wall
got different colors in this blunt shit look like paintball
the way she grab my tower she look like king kong
imma throw up the next morning i feel like godzilla
don’t fuck with me cuz i got killers
and you too soft like chinchilla
and you think you real but im way realer
i’m leaning like i’m skrilla every time that

imma spike what i’m drinking
i don’t feel nothing now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that t shirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

girl you know id be lying if i said i ain’t excited when i call you
but baby what you calling for?
i’m still mad but that don’t mean i ain’t falling for you
girl you way too much
but you mean the world to me
and if i break this off come send the calvary
bet they don’t do much to me, got this big knife inside of my jeans
i’m smoking on autumn leaves
this keef treat me like creatine
be careful with my heart it’s leased
at the end of the day at least imma spike what i’m drinking

i don’t feel nothing now im high and im lifted
past the ceiling going to the moon
spike what im drinking
i dont feel no way about it, do it
bitch i hate my life too you need a different excuse
i don’t wanna be the one to leave the ends loose
i just copped that t shirt cuz it went well with the shoes
now i got loose threads
now baby im not sure where the mask starts and the truth ends

beer before liquor (p. under the maple tree)

key chain w/ brecken [under the maple tree]

lil vault drop in honor of my brother tiedforsilver getting married ❤️

lyrics

i’ll fight this
feeling but i can’t shake it off me
since when did doing this become a need?
fearing that my addictions may lead
to complacency 

i’ll fight this feeling but i can’t shake it off of me
since when did doing this become something that i need
i fear that my addictions may lead to complacency 
my self-destructive habits will become the death of me

if i don’t give them up
my life will end abrupt
so if you gave i fuck 
you would come interrupt 
and save me from corrupt 
thoughts that get me stuck
knee high deep under the fucking mud

i’ve been scared but i got nowhere to run
you think it’s fair when you’re the only one
who’s having fun
i’m fucking done
nothings new underneath the fucking sun

i wish i cared but i don’t and that’s just who i am
i’ll give you what you want to help or make you understand 
that moving forward in this life was never part of my plan

but please tell me that you’ll see me in the morning
you know where i’ll be wasting time bed rotting 
the songs i write are like a pointless fucking story
i know it’s bad but imma hit this till im coughing blood

never knew what is was like to be understood
till i met you now im gone and i wish i would, have
checked on you more often
please don’t be dead or in a fucking coffin yuh

i still remember 
your face that december
grey skies in the winter
cold nights make my hands tremor 

i’ve been getting sick of tryna find out where you went
asking anyone around but answers aren’t that confident 
yelling at myself like i was in a fucking argument 
maybe i look insane but that’s just fucking, that’s just part of it

i’ll never know where you went and maybe that’s okay
i just hope that you are in a better place
i wish you would’ve left hints that you’d come back some day
just know a part of me won’t let your memory fade
i would never let your memory fade

i hope ur in a better place w/ tiedforsilver & ryan kelly

lyrics

only thing i wanna buy is time
when i blow up, selling tickets for free like shots at the line
you dont wanna play those games no more and thats fine
baby imma be alright
its like you know im waiting for the end when you drive straight to my house and you lift me up
wonder how i made it to my house when im this fucked up
none of this shit was ever in the playbook but i cant take the bus
half the shit i do, the moms on facebook like "control your son"
but this is all of my doing
havent been inside of my head as of late but now im tryna move in
tryna move on if you standing in front of me get out my way
i got them waiting on the next track, dont know what imma say yet
been going to sleep so high i cant tell if im even awake yet
should be a picture perfect life, somebody smeared up the painting

jai's lyrics soon...

chrysalis w/ love jai (p. under the maple tree)

produced by (@lycoraaa)
co-produced by me (@dawsin)

lyrics
hi,
it doesn't feel like before
like when I was four
or ill bite my tongue
still doubting ill find anyone
but still im patiently waiting for someone
someone i can hold
someone to rely on
someone i can laugh with
and someone to hear to my songs
even when its wrong..
you can weep and cry
but ill be here till' dawn
we'll take a photograph
memories never be gone
be part of nature like kodiak
no one in this era wants that
only me

"yes cause i love you
cause ur my husband, duh
thought you said we were engaged?
then duh then why would I not?
why are you smiling at me like that? stop
jeez
making me nervous
me? im not even saying anything"

she feels nostalgic
but my past is way too graphic 
for her
on a field of magnets
i feel the force pulling me
towards her
oh towards her
towards her

you can weep and cry
but ill be here till' dawn
we'll take a photograph
memories never be gone
be part of nature like kodiak
no one in this era wants that
only me

kodiak

Gold - elgoofy (prod. BENZTRACKZ)

prod. wyfy

drums by @1m1x

https://share.amuse.io/track/wyfy-9

https://open.spotify.com/track/6pjFmuCVesd3D25WYqFCyW

you
you
you, you
you
you
you, you
oh

you hurt
you hurt
you hurt
you hurt
you hurt
you hurt
you hurt

dont let me go
im not ready to yet
i detest my soul
as i take my final breath

ill scrape my bones
and break my throne
oh and this body
from head to toe
it aches but it goes
in ways that are beyond me

im scratching at the door
but god it feels so far away
the waters pouring out over the glass
god i know i gotta make my way
dont tell me that you notice now
cause you still dont get that im afraid
i am 19 but im barely a man
i really hope that i'll just get me there one day

you know
you know
you know
you know
you know

echo chamber
can you say my name out loud?
i want to know you're here
feel i can make this work out
(out, out)
its a race, see the finish
im running out of time
tip the scales in my favor
out of 10, im at 9

fatigues kicking in
the sweat falls off my chin
they keep saying i got potential
but my legs are just begging to give in
dont tell me that you notice now
cause you still dont get that im afraid
i am 19 but im barely a man
i really hope that i'll just get me there one day


ah, ah (fatigues kicking in)
ah, ah (the sweat falls off my chin)
ah, ah (they keep saying i got potential)
ah, ah (but my legs are just begging to give in)
ah, ah (dont tell me that you notice now)
ah, ah (cause you still dont get that im afraid)
ah, ah (i am 19 but im barely a man)
ah, ah (i really hope that i'll just get me there one day)

(see the finish)
(im running out of time)
(tip the scales)
(out of 10, im at 9)
(see the finish)
(im running out of time)
(tip the scales)
(out of 10, im at 9)

(solr)
old times i wish we'd have
only you can help with that
cuts on my wings
from all the times you've said you loved me
sick of making things about you
but honestly it's all of us i have

your angel needs your company
your lunar begs for you and me

(foolish)
haven't left my house
in what feels like years
don't know what to do
laying in my own tears
sheltering myself
someone pull me out
overwhelming myself
trying to figure it out

(solr & foolish)
searching for somewhere to hide
don't know what i will find
but i know you're waiting at the other side

kodiak

dawsin

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