on repeat!!! This is soo fire dawsinnn!!! So proud!! ❤️

I LEFT MY BODY AT HOME AND MY MIND IS SO WEAK <3

Some of the songs that I've most enjoyed from different artists over the years or that mean a lot to me.
I tired to organise it in a way that the genres are not too over the place.
Please listen, they deserve it.
Different genres and vibes but 100% good stuff.

I think you should listen

produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

oh its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore
no its not fair anymore

i just cant tell you enough
my thoughts been opening up
i never said it enough 
my heart was filled with your love

i would sacrifice my love just to be on your side
gimme just another day so that i can reside
while youre waiting at the gates, ill find somewhere to hide

i need somewhere to hide
i know youre in the fields looking at me over the light
if theres a chance that you hear me singing into the night
i need to tell you that ill love you till the end of the line

you know i always cared about you
i might sleep in water hang my head whilel i cry
been 2 years now im lost without you
take me to a forest filled with water and pine

its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore
its not fair anymore

how could you take away my best friend
ive got no one to trust
ill see your face in the end
your words fill my stomach making me who i am
you wouldnt have left me, i know ill see you again

enough

produced by heylog

lyrics:
no one
no faith
spacing
as i lie awake
when i see you then
i promise i won't leave again
woke up in terror, i'm feeling confused
cover my mouth as i just heard the news
how can it be?
how can it be true?
why god, do you take the things i love most
why's it the people who feel like a home
holding back tears
until i let go
facing
toward green
outside, you're all i see
i miss your praise
no matter what, you'd always stay
with me
i need to ease on the brakes
i feel my heart in my chest
i can't control cause it aches
and no one's feeling their best
and i'm not taking it light
you felt like my only friend
who'd be with me through the night
and be with me till the end
and i have so much to say
but at the same time i don't
all of it hurts in a way
that i can't even control
it comes and goes in a wave
and everytime it's unknown
and none of this is okay
i'd rather break every-
following footprints and trails
sunlight shines right through the trees
see beauty in each detail
please say that you're just hiding
no one
no faith
spacing
as i light awake
when i see u then
i promise i won't leave again
facing
toward green
outside, ur all i see
i miss you a lot
one of a kind
and filled with love

spotify

footprints & trails

all i want (cover)
enjoy

lyrics:

all I want is nothing more
to hear you knocking at my door
cause if i could see your face once more
i could die a happy man I'm sure

when you said your last goodbye
i died a little bit inside
i lay in tears in bed all night
alone without you by my side

but if you loved me
why’d leave me?
take my body
take my body
all i wanted
and all i needed
to find somebody
i'll find somebody

like you
you
you
you

cause you brought out the best in me
a part of me i'd never seen
you took my soul and wiped it clean
our love was made for movie screens

but if you loved me
why did you leave me?
take my body
take my body
all I want is
and all I need is
to find somebody
i'll find somebody

like you
you
you
you

all i want (cover)

@lilskeleskrrt

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i haven’t been waking up fast enough
i’m too naive for something like real love
i don’t even really know who you truly are
at least it feels like that from afar

so tell me everything that you've been hiding
a faceless volunteer that left me writhing
i’ll be in my room so please don’t mind me
the worst part of it all is the deciding

whether or not you’ll even
be here tomorrow
you've given me blades
but i guess they were all borrowed
the lies that you’ve spun
you hid your last smoking gun
don’t wanna know how it starts
just know you fractured the hearth

wait
for a second
i need to catch my breath
take a step and
realign myself
with my intentions
i forgot how to think
yeah it’s impressive
the way i read your mind
no obsession
i just had a hunch
it was expected
no matter what you do
i’ll still accept it
you’re still half of my genes
i can’t resent it

baseline elevated high, i
wrote this to remind my
ego to abide by
the rules behind my eyes, i
fell into a state of shock
amassing so much writer’s block
i thought my hands had time to thaw
now i focus on every flaw

would you hate to be so weak?
would it tear you up limb to limb?
has it ever occurred to you that i'm
lost at the beginning, no?

[skele]

hold on to you
so tight it hurts
i can’t let go
i can’t make you worse
this isn’t what i asked for
give me a sign
that you would’ve kept my
heart sore
leave me to die
gave you a little
don’t have more
i’m out of time
i can’t move on for
a reason tonight
it comes from the hearth
i wish you could see the sparks
i made for us

[zoltar]

i been waking up at 4 a.m.
white lies got me stressed again
internalize all of my anger then release it
through a pen
i’m so sick of second chances
you heal with a small bandage
how could you jeopardize a life,
a wife, a holy marriage?

and i won’t ever make the same mistakes as you did
i know you’re in my blood but i’m a different human
plus i can air out all my grievances through music
i lost the man that i revered through shit excuses

i cannot handle the things are given to me
i thought i was strong but i’m so fucking weak
feel safer in sadness, i hide my exterior
peace is so boring but i feel inferior
i’ll be returning whenever you’re hurting
cause you’re still a part of my family tree
suffer through poems, i gotta get goin'
just don’t forget to leave the light on for me

hearth (ft. skele)

prod. @nevrfall

why do i even bother
kill me with your gray eyes
leaving me paralyzed
you probably care for someone better
i've been overthinking
crying while i'm writing

foolish of me getting all my hopes up
always first to talk when i should really keep my mouth shut
i know i've been such a burden
you meant so much more to me than any other person

conjure the delusion
every time i see your name 
i skip a beat because it's all in disillusion
tell me what i am now
just a boy to keep you company 
when you're cooped up in your house

ghost me
save me from the trouble
keep me from the struggle
i'm loathing
you're so irreplaceable
i'm easy to replace though
hold onto
everything that you said
echoes on in my head
invest in you
always tend to do this
end up being useless

foolish of me getting all my hopes up
always first to talk when i should really keep my mouth shut
i know i've been such a burden
you meant so much more to me than any other person
issues with attachment
pull me in with every single fraction of a second
could you set me down gently
lay us all out on the table i appreciate the honesty

maybe the lead would taste better than this

prod, caves
Rip sleep… miss you brother

married in hell // cover

prod. me (dawsin)
composed by (dawsin)

lyrics:
look that pawn in his eyes
as you continue
to sacrifice
i can listen to the ghosts in my head
my head

I'm burning alive in this room
so hot in here i vision the fumes
left by everyone, i guess this my doom
then i formally invite my ex's to my tomb
to my tomb
so you see my body dismembered and skewed
i saw you by that grace, white cloak pretty face, you've never been
more rude

i left my body at home
and my mind is so weak
I'm traveling for miles
and the people don't speak
i tried for awhile
but no words was fled
i hate all their smiles
like why are they happy?
it doesn't make sense
it's not meant to be
maybe I'm dead or maybe I'm freed
I'm hoping for peace
I'm hoping for peace

I'M NOT DONE TALKING
(I AM THE NEW)
LOOK AT ME
(ORDER)
AM I JUST AN OBJECT TO YOU?

(LOUDER)
(LOUDER)
(LOUDER)

"the park on the lake,
we spent the whole day there
just the two of us, staring at the water"

I'm buried alive
i feel the nerves and they go
she always flirting with me
but me i watch my tone
why am i at this party?
why do i even go?
ill just sit here an think abt it and head home
i can't even go to bed when i want
hear the voices and the taunts
ouu the taunts

please don't leave
this ain't my full potential
please don't go
I'm not done talking
to you
to you
turn around
look at me
am i just an object to you

pawn

prod @dawsin n @1m1x


lyrics:

i am a ghoul

@dawsin
i-
i-
ALL

ILL KILL THEM ALL
A-LL
I'LL LEAVE THEM IN A DITCH
WHATS HE CRYING FOR?
FO-R
I'LL DRIVE THAT MUSTANG OFF A BRIDGE

@1m1x
ALL OF HIS PLAYS BE BOTTED
HE TRIED IT BUT HE AINT GETTIN SHI
LIL BRO USING AI AND SHI
WHAT THE FUCK
THE HELL IS THIS?
I USED TO ENVY YOU
BUT YOUR FOOLISH
HES MOVING HELLA SLOW
YOU DROPPED ONE
DISS WE DROPPED FIVE MO
H0-W???!?!?!

@dawsin
im tired of catching your strays
i chose violence when i woke up today
shot him in both hips, hip hip horray
kissing my ex? like how my dick taste?

@1m1x
SO HOW DOES IT TASTE TO LOSE ALL YOUR FRIENDS?
LIKE HOW DOES IT TASTE TO MEET YOUR END?
LIKE HOW DOES IT TASTE TO STARE DEATH IN ITS FACE?
SO HOW DOES IT TASTE WHEN WE HANDLE THE BASS?
BASS

oh god its such a pain
choke him out wit his chain
thats probably fake oh man
thats such a shame
said he got racks like that
and a strap like that
but he's picking up all the scraps
huh? boy you just a gnat

@dawsin
REMEMBER THE PAST WHEN I PASSED YOU WITH A SIGH
SI-
SIGH
NOW I CUT THE HEAD OF THE SNAKE WITH A SCYTHE
PUT A CROSS TO MY HEART AND HOPE HE DIES
NOW HE'S PESTERING ME ANNOYING LIKE A FL-

F-FL-FLY
F-FL-FLY
I AM A GHOUL
F-FL-FLY

TWO YEARS I FELT THE PAIN,
WHEN I DO IT, YOU THINK WE'RE THE SAME
DONT LUMP ME IN WITH YOUR MUSHY ASS BRAIN
TAKE IT FROM ME SHE RAN THROUGH LIKE A TRAIN
BUT I MEAN IF YOU WANT HER, BY ALL MEANS
JUST MAKE SURE YOU DON'T WALK BY ME
YOU KNOW WHERE THE HELL TO FIND ME
YOU SMELL LIKE A P**SY AND FOUL MEAT

dexter w/ mix≬

im sorry its quiet messy, it was supposed to be one take throughout i just couldnt do it, im sure you can hear. lyrics can be found on sleeps version.
i miss you sm buddy

anxiety - sleepwater (one take)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

prod by icantsleeplol & hvci
mixed and mastered by icantsleeplol & hvci

thank u @hvci for helping me with some of the layers to help my vocals more impactful ♡ 

and ofc w/ @xav0id

(i’m experimenting with my vocals and my voice in general to see what it’s capable of. i don’t wanna be limited to one genre. i wanna push past my comfort zone and explore different sounds with my voice)

enjoy:)

lyrics:

@icantsleeplol -
they asked me to smile
so i did
now i can’t tell when i actually mean it

i learned to read the room too well
picked up their moods, and forgot myself
said the lines they’d rather hear
kept my truth in second gear

they liked me better watered down
so i kept my head and voice low-bound
never asked them what they meant
just played the part and paid the rent

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
they never wanted all of me
just the version they could keep clean
so i edited my every thought
to fit inside the mold they bought

@icantsleeplol -
empty tent, the lights still burn
but no one waits for my return
they loved the laugh, not the cost
they clapped so loud, i got lost

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
empty tent, applause fades quick
left alone with what won't fix
i give and give, then disappear
while no one even shifts their ear

@icantsleeplol -
i swallowed pride and played polite
convinced myself it felt alright
but every nod, every demand
left another thing i couldn't stand

i tried to slow the spinning down
but silence just became more loud
i gave too much and asked too little
and broke apart right down the middle

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci
they smiled, so i assumed it worked
but underneath, it always hurt
and though i tried to keep it smooth
the pressure cracked the parts i moved
 
@xav0id -
empty tent, still looks the same
but i don’t walk out how i came
they called it charm, called it grace
but missed the tremble in my face

empty tent, the echo's mean
i’m still stuck on what they’ve seen
if this was love, or just a guess
why did i fall apart to impress?

@icantsleeplol w/ @xav0id
i’ve memorized what pleases them
but not what brings me back again
i dance around their fragile moods
and call it kindness as i lose

they say i’m calm, they say i’m nice
but only when i pay the price
and every time i try to breathe
i wonder what they’d let me keep

@xav0id - 
empty tent, lights flicker slow
no one left to tell me “go”
but i still bow, still play it cool
still scared of not fitting the rule

empty tent, just me and air
i gave too much, and no one cared
the quiet hits a little late...
but louder than the love they faked

i’m still here
they just forgot
and that’s the part
that hurts the most

empty tent w/ xav0id & hvci

lyrics by icantsleeplol 

original song - https://soundcloud.com/icantsleeplol/vivid

Mixed by stezzyxl
Produced by stezzyxl 

lyrics:
in the middle of the night
nothing never ever feels right
i swear i think i’m loosing my mind
a girl like you is really hard to find

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold

love me
hate me
tell me i’m dumb
fuck me
break me
after ur done
hold me
show me
what i am worth
or leave me
tell me
what i deserve

will u ever come back?
will u ever come back?
ohhh
ohhh

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold


domoi.mp3

stas en el top de mi MySpace ft XankillBoy

lyrics:
(heylog)
oh hi its nice to meet you
have i seen u before
if i did i wouldnt know it
pretty girls are in the fortress
i said its nice to meet you
i didnt know i was see through
can you talk to me like i am someone
it feels like im invisible

(yuno)
oh god i'm late to school 
oh god i'm super late
oh god my mom would kill me
oh god class girls a cutie
oh hi it's nice to meet you

(heylog)
she was saying that its nice to meet me
i know ive seen u before
did u know that i existed
run away down to the sandy shore
hi mom its nice to see you
are we gonna shop anytime soon
ur askin like a million questions
i know its nothing new

(yuno)
she said it's nice to meet you
just got off of the subway
can you tell me your name
am i dreaming of you
i don't think so cuz i can see you
you asked if i could show you around
so hi, it's nice to meet you
and now i think i'm bleeding

(heylog)
oh hi its nice to meet you
have i seen u before
if i did i wouldnt know it
pretty girls are in the fortress
i said its nice to meet you
i didnt know i was see through
can you talk to me like i am someone
it feels like im invisible

yuno & heylog ~ hi, nice to meet u (p. oui lele)

I'm just a random guy who sometimes has some inspiration and some motivation to do some music related things but it's quite rare tbh

pawn

dawsin

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