Bruh this scream is the best thing I’ve ever heard 😭😭

11/2

linden & nevrfall - wait for me in the next life (ft. heylog)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

Wait For Me

i'll let you cut as much as you like 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/prodcxrter https://soundcloud.com/tiedforsilver
extra production / master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call 
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle 
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little 
it kills me when you treat me so nice 
go grab the sickle 
i'll let you cut as much as you like 
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish 
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it 
one day i might lose it 
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go 
spill blood, wake up on the floor 
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second 
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it 
but i'm stuck on the way he said it 
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish 
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself 
and i can't help it 
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind 
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with 
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me 
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly 
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself 
like nobody else
and i hate you 
much more than you do 
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop 
no i can't stop

unsightly

tired eyes

forget me when the summer ends

i know what u think about me

fine.

+ i'm geist, decayinganyways, yokai dreams, ohmace, iissaa, yona, grasior 
+ coprod. mix/master - oc 

// i'm geist 
the seance has started :) 
find his heart in the garden 
don't look too hard my darling 
you'll find bones you once held dearly..
oh 
you once held dearly 
oh 
severed cleanly 

parasites are rotting with the snakes now? 
carving all the fakes fucking 'round me its a takedown 
everybody's sitting on their ass with their phones out 
swear i'll see the reaper b4 you catch me taking breaks love 
aha 

// decayinganyways 
walking out the bar not alive 
seen a name on a grave and I’m thinking that it’s mine
“mine” 
i’m not alive, I’m just another fucking ghost who’s out of time 
who’s out of time 
oh 
i wish I could just come back 
won’t see me now a heart attack 
i just wanna haunt inside your dreams 
i just wanna haunt inside your

// yokai dreams 
this is getting sickening
i think i'm getting sick of me
rip up every inch of me
i no longer resemble me
look at what they did to me
look at what they did to me !
am i not deserving of some sympathy?

give it my all for as long as i can
when the day turns night we gon have the upper hand
turn the lights off baby
i can't stand them
feel like someone else, you don't know how i am

lately i've been on some shit you wouldn't understand
another nail in the coffin, leave me where i am
getting kinda hard to tell the man from the myth
mark my death with a kiss
let me rot or take my hand

// ohmace 
six feet down rotting in another grave
turn me to a geist as i slowly decay
the dreams on my mind and they wont go away
and I dont know what else to do or to say
its in my brain,
somebody help my im going insane
call me a doctor and tell him to hurry
cut out the demons Im starting to worry
theyre taking over me
my blood seeps through as theyre ripping the seems
theyre taking over me
theyre haunting me in every dream

//iissaa 
i'd rather go 
somewhere that you don't know.
someplace that i dont show
somewhere behind the snow
is it fair that you can't see me now
tried so hard but i'm letting go
it's my fault, i said i'm where you go
my god i wish i never told

// yona 
look around with dead gaze
i dont think i go this
the leaves turn from green to orange
it feels so nostalgic
used to hold your hand, and fall asleep to your heartbeat
now ur gripping at my wrist, saying "how long u got bitch?" 
ive been panick struggling trying to get of the floor
grab me by the waist, cut me open some more
youre the ghost of a person i feel before
now im crying in fear, begging no more

// grasior 
fuck yall be saying i'm sick of it all
my stomach keeps turning i'm leaning on walls
scrolling my phone till i feel it collide
my anger is rising cause i'm in denial
i need to man up i'm not on my own
notes that i wrote considered the unknown'
seeing a grave all on my own
a body is showing of someone i know

raise the flags in the frontline
might be dead but i'll fight till the sun rise
left or right paranoid can you talk to me
hear the horns in distant calling me
want it to end sacrifice all my peace
silent but deadly i'll take them with ease
my body is rumbling I'm feeling the thrill
killstreak in a nuke with how many i've killed 


919

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séance w/ 919 + grasior

Prod. Me 
When I was in the fire; molding all my bones
Where were you at
At my lowest truly
I don't think I'll ever make it back
Paint a picture of me
Watch the portrait slowly turn to ash
Hash I'm packing
Just to keep my days in motion

While I lack Commitment
This my mission
Working towards my vision
As long as I am still living
I stop and my spirit dies
Can't fuck with a nine-five
Fuck hobbies, this is my life
Can't tell me otherwise
Now I'm back into motion
I'm geekin up off the potion
I've been stuck in my bed
Still healing from strong emotions
Give a fuck what they said about me
I'm living life
I'm doing alright despite
These demons up in my sight
Pray amen
I'm just a man with a plan
I get that check in advance
Sparkin up plants
Gettin as high as a rocket
You thought I was buzzin' the way I've been doin my dance

When I was in the fire; molding all my bones
Where were you at
At my lowest truly
I don't think I'll ever make it back
Paint a picture of me
Watch the portrait slowly turn to ash
Hash I'm packing
Just to keep my days in motion

The Blacksmith

fuck it i love you (p. ryan ansel)

i still see blue

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/user-411557229
prod: saint mike
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

writing out these letters
lately i can't help
but pray that i get better 
i'm stuck in my own hell
talk to me slow,
don't let me go 

we were so happy,
what happened?
stuck on the past tense
sometimes i miss it 
it's hard to forget it 
blue,
(i still see blue)
i still think of you
(i still think of you)

lay by the lake,
i was never the same 

baby ima masochist at best
got a lot of scars on my chest 
i was your porcelain puppet 
cracks line over my stomach
even with my body going numb
i still wished to feel the cuts 
and after everything was done
i still wanna be your one

(residential:)
am i bothering at all?
kinda wish you stayed 
is it someone else's palms
or the portraits that i framed

is it killing you at all?
cause i can't say the same 
the hazel in your eyes
is embalmed into my brain 

i cant sleep at night 
it's better with time
but i'll

pull it together
keep my dignity tethered
guess it's better than never
your words here forever

(skele:)
fucking wasted my time
still on the back of my mind
fucking wasted my life 
oh trust me, i tried
(trust me i, trust me i tried)



after everything (w/ residential)

Where Do We Go

Original Song "Serenity" Written and Produced by Days To Waste
 
Lyrics:
And it seems like I can't hide
Shut my lips and close my eyes
See the world in black and white
Except for you
Hold you close and hold me tight
Runaway, cuz I can't hide
See your face I'm going blind
There's only you

Left my body in your bedroom like a ghost
Haunt my nightmares, fuel my dreams
And let me go

But, I can't drown out the memories, the melody inside
I'm looking back on serenity, it's killin' me
So won't you come thru
Cuz I need you
But I can't walk away, I'm binded
To the wall, forget it all
And maybe I'll be fine

Losing track and losing hope
See my body sinking slow
Feel the ground beneath my feet
Pull me below

One track mind
Miss you so much
Feel my heart
Numb to the touch
Serotonin come in clutch
But I'm so blue

But, I can't drown out the memories, the melody inside
I'm looking back on serenity, it's killin' me
So won't you come thru
Cuz I need you
But I can't walk away, I'm binded
To the wall, forget it all
And maybe I'll be fine

tired eyes

Days to Waste

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