A Lost Cause (goddamned holy war)

I don't wanna go to sleep
just to hope i can wake up and redeem
in which i ever wanted to believe
i don't wanna see all my past deeds
turn into dead leaves 
left scattered upon the street
for me to shuffle my feet
through everything i couldn't achieve.
and kick stones at their urban homes.
are they happy or just heartless, mindless drones?
I'm too old and in pain and overgrown from shame
to not know i fill these dirty shoes alone.
you backed my heart into a corner
'cause there's something that was missing
by the cornea of my former self
from the start of the story we mismanaged
into this mess.
and i know you'll say it was mainly me
that you found a new tribe or founded a new family
that makes you so much more happy
but if that's the only running story or form of reality...
why did the pain cut so deep?
why did it take so much for us to break free?

(only the winner gets love to tell his story and live on to percieve)

so dget rid of the dead bodies
and do away with duality and duality....


De Barjorak- Kickin It Until...

let’s go get lost (wreckless)

let’s go get lost in a concience
let’s go get lost in nothingness
let’s go get lost it’s always changing
let’s go get lost it’s always fading
let’s go get lost in the midst of a whore house
let’s go get lost in the back of the bar
let’s go get lost, no matter the cost
let’s go get lost, in who we are

my friend, I’d be willing to go anywhere with you
as long as we get lost together
I’ve seen the dangers and I know they’re overdue
but something new means you gotta bother your truth….

we’ll forget everything we thought we knew
but we’ll see so much more
than those laborers building fortresses of sand
or the lynchmen keeping score


let’s go get lost in our arts or crafts
let’s go get lost, within our collapsing past
let’s go get lost in some(black and white) projector
let’s go get lost oh in some (broken) mirror
let’s go get lost in the heart of the system
let’s go get lost in burning institutions
let’s go get lost try to make a living
let’s go get lost deal, pawn , rip off everything



So I guess it’s only by failing myself
that I learn how not to go
and if I ever fulfilled a function anywhere
I’ll return to claim my crown….and glow


now I know we’re all made of the same matter,
blood, shit, bones & skin
and I won’t look past those walls if you’re not ready to break them down
though they’re not even paper thin…







Let's Go Get Lost in a Conscience
Let's Go Get Lost in nothingness
Let's Go Get Lost in a whore house
Let's Go Get Lost in the back of the bar
Let's Go Get Lost, no matter the cost.
Let's Go Get Lost, in who we are.

My friend i was willing to go anywhere with you,
as long as we'd gotten lost together.
I saw the the dangers an i knew they they were overdue
Something new just meant we had to  bother the truce. the truth...

In hopes of forgetting
everything I thought I knew
In hopes of seeing so much more
Than those laborers (*never been)buildings fortresses of sand
or the “lynchmen” keeping score….

Let's Go Get Lost (Full Version)


Don’t you long to lose your mind?
Well everyone holds some divine.
Lie to tear apart.
Oh, ye holy broken heart.
Sometimes.
But I have died before
and I will kill again.
Through a million different truths.
In the way I still pretend.


To Still Be Just Like You. Don’t you know I’m just like you? So Blue.
Don’t Tell me you’re a turtured Soul?
aLike way back, when I was so old. And Cold.

Haunted, everywhere you go.
Fear, method Of control.
Dark Stallion in your own right.
Another Blonde-haired girl.
You dream.
And laugh right away it seems.
Cruelty, what you believed.
It’s far, itäs out of reach.
You crazy clock, what could you teach this dog?

I’m not lost, I’m searching the world.
For what no one could ever know, back at home.
But I can’t go breaking down your door.
Or stick to one game I fold into the unknown.

Fear method of control.
Haunted everywhere you go.


holy dirty intimacy new1

Tortured boys in candy stores
Sexual Dreams
Snow white and the 7 whores
Sexual Dreams
Selling plastic stars on hollywood boulevard 
Sexual Dreams
On MTV suicidal teens scream
Sexual Dreams


My libido is healthy can..t you tell?
Carrots, coconuts and shells: what else can we sell?
Now I know exactly what you think of me,
I can be as arrogant as i want to be!

Statues in front of government buildings
Sexual Dreams
So cry while doing your body building
Sexual Dreams
Holy hippies & priests of war
Sexual Dreams
In football stadiums they..re keeping score of our
Sexual Dreams

I got my power animal at the fountain of youth
Try looking in the mirror but I..m avoiding the truth
I want to trample everything that..s in my way
While a sweet barbie girl caresses me, telling me it..s all OK

But in forest and deserts and silicone valleys
In spaceships, bunkers and monasteries 
Sexual Dreams
In moshpits of spit where so-called anarchists ralley
In silence and show-offs and a desperate plea
Sexual Dreams
In castles next to swimming pools and a big mercedes
In shorts and bikinis, a stain of ice cream and
Sexual Dreams
On ant hills with greek gods in cemeteries
Through polluted air the perfumed sweat of the troubled psyche
and Sexual Dreams
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Sexual Dreams


Sexual Dreams (Acoustic)

you know it's only when i'm more than halfway down the drain I call your name. in vain. cause you're gone today and forever.

...
Hit that fucking wall why do I always have to hit that offing wall?

Karma Sutra

Karma Sutra (early acoustic version)

you know it’s only when i’m more than halfway down the drain
i call your name 
in vain
cause you’re gone:
today- and forever…

it’s absurd-
that i should ever deserve- or hope for something i truly desire:
in the face of loss-when it’s chocking on the cost
and on the thought of never….


Hit that FUCKING wall
Hit that FUCKING wall
Why do I always have to hit that FUCKING wall

Preparing for a big fall
Preparing for a big fall
Why am I always preparing for a bigger and bigger fall?


You know it’s only when they squish me into a stain-
and fuck my brain-
that I start to play the game!
Make them feel my pain:
So I can go on my way-
and rob some goldmine…

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karma sutra

from the upcoming 2nd solo studio album:
"the Sun Set On Happiness:
Blue For Sadness & Red For Rage"

Friday Knight (No Thy Self)

from "Baby Lone Bones' / (DeBarjorak)'s" 
upcoming 2nd solo studio album:
"the Sun Set On Happiness:
Blue For Sadness & Red For Rage"

Maybe ( Some One Else's Song)

Freedom child’s not afraid of death, 
he met her once then got bored and left
freedom child is so fucking cool, 
he spits at you if he catches you drool.
cause no agenda ‘s worth fitting in if the clock it spins
and makes you into a fool.

where’d’ye get that funky shit?
I’m not bro-o-o-ken
and I need to dance life’s precious gift
into something you devils leave unspoken

freedom child, you're wild, you child

freedom child reads minds & plays with energy
fucks warning signs and authority.
he screams in my ears and tears at my skin
to see the world without heroine.
he'd fuck a brother like a lover, he's just sexual
(oh sweet woman) what a romantic brute of an individual.

passing through some capitalist machine
like some ever-beeping counter!!!
the buck is never worth the fuck
if you don’t have a loather or at least a lover.

freedom child

Sometimes the walls imprint themselves on his head
Sometimes he imprints his head up on some walls
Sometimes the prize isn’t worth what they asked for dead
Sometimes it’s just for the fuck of taking a fall

Freedom Child I once saw you close to home, you looked like such a mess
but who am I to ever judge, we could all try our best, you’d still be unimpressed.


Freedom Child

She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as she stays with me

She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as I stayed clean

Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips

Molly's Lips (Nirvana / Vaselines Cover)

Will you survive in the animal world? Will you survive in the innermost world?

VagaBond DiasTole (Reggae Dub Mix)

whore of babylon
in your kingdom of cum
do you still like the attention?
d'your prowess (child) come undone?

Whore Of Babylon (you bare all our sickness and are the town therapist)

this is an interpretation of a kimya dawson song not intended for commercial distribution but still a recording of my own making.

favorite lyric
Why am I surprised lies and bs and bs and lies?

BabyLoneBones DeBarjorak

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