Performed by: Deadboi
Written by: Deadboi
(Self Prod.)
--------------------------------------------
[Lyrics]
I am on a journey that I do not wanna take
But I've been here before, what a mistake
Guess I've thrown my motivation into the lake
Procrastining then I wonder why I'm behind
Failing my classes as I write this very line
Perhaps I should just sit down and rethink my life

Since highschool I wondered was I fine
Had a routine but it fell out of line
Guess I'll hide away myself tonight

My god I hate my brain my brain
Like what is there to gain to gain? 
Everytime I need some motivation, 
My mind just goes on vacation 
My god Im on decline decline
I think Ive lost my mind my mind
But if you see me on vacation
Well at least I had dedication 

They say wisdom comes with age but I digress 
It is something I still can not digest
But Im here so I guess Ill do my best
Ive been applying, but Im just not their type
No one wants a straight kid who just draws and writes
I'm doing better but I'm very far from fine

Now in college, still feeling dumb 
So stupid that I'm feeling numb
But Ill try to work on myself at once

My god I hate my brain my brain
Like what is there to gain to gain? 
Everytime I need some motivation, 
My mind just goes on vacation 
My god Im on decline decline
I think Ive lost my mind my mind
But if you see me on vacation
Well at least I had dedication

Decline (Hate My Brain)

Lyrics: R01
Composer: R01
Producer: R01
Art cover: Dead8oi https://www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/

Lyrics:
Why am I sad and tired? I should cheer up
Everyone has struggles but they seem to be fine
I’m just edgy for no reason. I should stop this
My close ones have expectations for me.
I should meet up to their standards
For their sake, I must push through, right?
No need to be scared of the future. 
The nightmares are left behind in the past
The world has so much to offer. It’s my home after all
I have good memories with the world, right?
I should live, laugh and love happily ever after…
Right?

Intro: why so edgy?

Lyrics: R01
Composer: R01
Producer: R01
Album art: Dead8oi https://www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/

Lyrics:
Sometimes 
I feel like a bum, like I’m some 
typa dumb guy. I’m done for real
Kinda done fighting guns striking 
spikes tight in my heels. surreal!
Done stealing fun from the town
Not healing, body shutting down
Shouting pounding doubting sounds in 
My mind, might drive psyche out, insanity
These lines beneath my 
sleeves might increase (yikes)
Zebra like. Deep I hide, 
weep and cry fear and fright
Steer the wheel and lead ma life
Pay attention to praise and mentions
They pray to save your fate. Too late
To shake up and take ascension*1.
Can’t wait to take ascension*2 
Momma said hey, we’re gonna stay 
close Just flow, trust. hang on and wait but
I concentrate on contemplating 
this constant rate of conscience hating
I’ve been obligated, robbed in ages
I'm intoxicated, locked in cages
I mean “block the gate and slog in pages”
I'm in complicated combinations 
Of depression. Lost the passion
Evading facing hating reflections
Most affectionate folks get tension
Caused due to self deprecation
Claws of echoing revocations
Saw through youth, cess dedication
Fraud of patience draws attention
Ain’t nobody save yo’ buddy from jaws of fate
*1 (as in rise to success)
*2 (as in the soul leaving the body)
Vocals:
Please save me from myself
In this world, I don’t belong
I waste the helping hands in vain      
I’m done just make it end

Deep Rest

[hook]
진짜 못해 너네 위에 난 비웃지 Ha Ha
내가 가짜라는 놈들 여기서 다 나가
위에 우리 말고 래퍼라는 놈들 가짜
이게 나야 bow wow
우리 스타일 skrr skrr

[verse-luckyca7]
lucky on the track
Traumacore different vibe check
지금 내 인생 ㅈ됐지
난 웃으며 신마저 내려다보는 광대
거짓말에 제일 서툴러서
일으킨 사고가 대체 몇 개
한 백 개 쯤 먹고 나니까
배부른지 아닌지 알겠네
그냥 안 할래, 넌 래퍼이기 전에
음악인이라고 불러주면 안 돼
남의 한계를 재단하고선
너는 뭐 한 게 하나 있긴 해?
그런 놈들이랑은 확실히 달라
I call them 허수 물론 이과는 아냐
안전주의자의 보법은 다르지만
모순이지 난 존재 자체가 말야

[hook]
진짜 못해 너네 위에 난 비웃지 Ha Ha
내가 가짜라는 놈들 여기서 다 나가
위에 우리 말고 래퍼라는 놈들 가짜
이게 나야 bow wow
우리 스타일 skrr skrr

[verse-김준호]
나는 뛰어넘어야 돼 전체를 
열심히 해보자고 둘째치고 멋은
아직 견제할 대상이 없지 
왜냐면 웬만한 래퍼들보다 내가 hustle
내가 안될 거란 너는 뭔데 
내가 나가서 하면 되잖아 증명을
내가 하는 말들은 다 no cap 
어른들이 하는 말은 안 듣겠어 더는
왜 내게 뭐라 해 그럴수록 
나는 점점 더 불안해
근데 속을 까고 보니 
그저 그건 저주였네
그저 내 갈 길을 ay
딱히 받은 건 없었지 혜택 
tag 떼 매일 내게 들어오는 새삥 
랩해 오늘도 난 여전히 game set
해버리고 기다리지 내일을
다음 타자한테 맡기고 난 이만 떠나지

[verse-안백호]
남한테 관심 많은 정신병자들 여긴 넘 많아
그런 새끼들 귀에 대고 난 존나 웃어
저런 것도 랩이라고 칭해주니 여기 대부분은
다 쓰레기들로 가득 찼어
자라다가 너무 커져버린 머리
내 벌이 여기에 내 모든 것을 all in
내 정 신머린 언제나 칠전팔기
난 내 자신을 믿어 마치 굳건한 내 다리
Yeah trappin and 트래핑 난 될 거야 볼러
새끼들 하는 꼬라지봐 졸려
넌 멀어져 네 꿈 이것 좀 봐 하는 게 없군
난 매일 new style로 기사가 떴어 봐 내 타임라인
만들어 너넨 절대 못 볼 위 구름 
나 비구름 와도 끄떡없어 전부 다 덤벼
일단 챙겨 친구

[hook]
진짜 못해 너네 위에 난 비웃지 Ha Ha
내가 가짜라는 놈들 여기서 다 나가
위에 우리 말고 래퍼라는 놈들 가짜
이게 나야 bow wow
우리 스타일 skrr skrr

[verse-강지호]
힙합에 관심없는 또라이가 
여기 올라오니 다들 할 말이 많은가 봐
누구한텐 좋다가도 박자 한번 삐끗하다
그대로 떨어진다 나락 나랑 가자
술을 원샷 안주 공짜 이건 소망이고
내가 아직 자신이 없을 때 고
떠는 건지 틀린 건지 기회 잡고 랩하다가
다시 한번 웃고 시작해 난 하하
술 취하면 대가리에 원킬 원샷
다시 시작해 나 랩은 술보다 자신이 없네
실속 없는 코스프레여도
딱 너처럼 비위가 상해 이젠 못해 
좀 더러워진 청바지랑 신발은 괜찮긴 해
너도 웃는 게 좀 봐줄만해 다행이야
주정뱅이도 아닌데 하하
대리나 불러요 알바

[verse-Cold Case]
내 눈 보고 똑바로 서 한 대만 더 맞자 너 
신념에 잡아먹혀버린 새끼 너 그래 너
자기 배만 채우던 결과가 어때 보여
건배사 하나 더 할 기운이라도 남아있어?
혐오의 시대, 요식업을 빛내,
거기에 내걸었던 당신의 인생,
자신을 돌아봐, 수많은 feedback 속엔
아직도 섞여있어 도야지 쉰내
가성비는 개뿔 니가 벌려놨던 사업
그건 하루 벌어 하루 사는 사람들의 파업이고
"자영업자 소생"은 무슨
농가 살리기 좆까 FUCK!
니가 하냐 Competition
"음, 탈락, 안성재가 눌러"
'백'수저 '백'종원 탈락의 고배 꿀꺽
돈에 돈에 눈이 먼 넌 결국 전활 걸어
연돈의 돈의 보조로서 튀김가루 묻혀

[verse-HyeoNu]
내 스타일 잊었지 너넨
죽었다 깨어나도 나는 저열해
또 그놈의 거리
지겹지도 않냐 다 구라를 하니
사실을 말하는 놈한테 다구리를 까지
다 웃기지 이 씬은 코미디
코미디언을 까고 까이는 블랙 코미디
리스너들 환장해 래퍼들은 박장
박자도 못 맞추니 쟤넨 전부 가짜
웃기는 건 내가 너넬 아무리 까봤자
너넨 열에 아홉 갖다 놔도 맛이 없다
나를 알게 된다 해도 너넨 나를 못까
반의반이라도 따라와봐 혹시 몰라?
여기서부터 내가 이미 유리한 판이지
들어오고 싶음 들어와서 한 판
싸우자고 피스 끼고 무대 위로 와봐
피스 올리고서 나는 오는 너넬 맞아

[hook]
진짜 못해 너네 위에 난 비웃지 Ha Ha
내가 가짜라는 놈들 여기서 다 나가
위에 우리 말고 래퍼라는 놈들 가짜
이게 나야 bow wow
우리 스타일 skrr skrr

진짜 못해 너네 위에 난 비웃지 Ha Ha
내가 가짜라는 놈들 여기서 다 나가
위에 우리 말고 래퍼라는 놈들 가짜
이게 나야 bow wow
우리 스타일 skrr skrr

HAHA remix

Written by: Dead8oi
Performed by: Dead8oi
(Prod. Woof Pepper)

Lyrics
All that remains 
Are broken bridges
Wish I could sustain
But you're so unhinged


What is wrong with me? I don't even know
Didn't want us to fall, but now I've lost hope
I kept quiet to keep the peace
And to calm your anxieties
Now I hate what we've become

I can't fathom all these lies that made me feel numb
I see the threads unravel, now that you're far gone
Wish I could save them all
But even heroes fall
And all that remains are just broken bridges

I learned the hard way 
Adult friendships are difficult to maintain
But I gotta be honest, I been lying to myself
Should've seen all the red flags, Why the hell,

Was I so blind? 
Guess I'm just way too damn nice
Because I let you vent, and gave you my advice
Never judged you, never even questioned you why

But that was not enough, 
You threw away our trust
Choose one of our boys over your friends, 
Then try to turn him against us

Because let's face it, you were always insecure
Bringing people down you were never any better
Than the ones who supposedly did us wrong
We got pissed off at them when, it was you all along

I want the world to turn against you but I still want you to repent
Tried so hard to keep the gang together, just for the void to deepen
I was decieved (I was decieved). Should've known better what you put us through
But hindsight is 20/20, I can clearly see the hypocrisy flowing out of you

What is wrong with me? I don't even know
Didn't want us to fall, but now I've lost hope
I kept quiet to keep the peace
And to calm your anxieties
Now I hate what we've become

I can't fathom all these lies that made me feel numb
I see the threads unravel, now that you're far gone
Wish I could save them all
But even heroes fall
And all that remains are just broken bridges

I hate to be stuck in the middle
Of this never-ending ripple 
effect, I wanna disinfect
From the rejects who try to project

all of their flaws onto all of us
No I'm not a perfect person, but here is the crux
Of the matter: You're the water to our rust
The rust to our metal, and your own oppressor, because of your lust

For attention. 
All I be feeling is this high tension
Fires may be out, but it takes years to refine
What was once paradise, is now a soulless land mine

In an empty wasteland
Mentally encased and
Questioning my worth
On this corrupt earth

Sometimes I pretend that I have it together
But realistically I was never really any better

There is an eerie unspoken pressure, 
being the person who gets along with everyone
Where you mediate the hate, keep the homies secure
Keep a positive mind, and try to work out everybody's problems

Cause I can't bear to see my friends
sabotage their life away until the very end
I was once like that, don't fall into my trap
Cause the hate you put out can not be taken back

What is wrong with me? I don't even know
Didn't want us to fall, but now I've lost hope
I kept quiet to keep the peace
And to calm your anxieties
Now I hate what we've become

I can't fathom all these lies that made me feel numb
I see the threads unravel, now that you're far gone
Wish I could save them all
But even heroes fall
And all that remains are just broken bridges

Broken Bridges

Lyrics: R01, Nyle
Composer: DSP
Producer: DSP, R01
Art cover: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/

Lyrics:
Remember that day when we sat on the sofa?
hanging out and playing? Time went by so fast
Remember as they gave us candies and cakes 
we elevated celebrations, everyone’s so glad
Remember the members and the family par-
-ty, entertaining days painting memories of art
Remember December and now here we are
Dismembered fading. Fate taking us apart
Lately I've longed for a longer lull-aby (I buy)
Lazy times chase these vibes mull a life
I just wanna be called a child again roll a dice 
Maybe I'm lazy. Look for ways to escape me
Maybe I'm lazy. Just a wailing baby 
I just wanna go back to the old ways
Of little me. Throwback to the old days

Nyle:
When we were young 
To us everything was wonderful 
Jumping and running through halls 
And I remember how 
Everything was so beautiful 
It seems that we were unstoppable 
So take me out let's go back to the beach 
Like in the times nothing was out of reach 
Saving Peach, good times we would preach 
I get the ich, thinking when we didn't glitch 
We were rich of kindness, made adults go Sheesh, it was so fun, we would laugh at 
Blopper puns, we were simple, everything was simpler. 
But we're adults now in a few months I'm in college 
Rent and cheap groceries will be my new collègues (colleagues) 
Can I go back to the summer of 2012 please? 
Or could I die just to be at ease?

Vocals:
Wait! Just for a moment, let me breathe 
Okay? These emotions, are overwhelming
Weight. So let me take them all in slowly
Wait! These memories take me to the old days
When I had my prime of happy times.
Watching childhood shows I smile
Although I feel I’m close to crying
Wait. Let me take them all in slowly
Wait! These memories take me to the old days

Nostalgia (feat. Nyle)

Lyrics: R01
Composer: R01
Producer: R01
Cover art: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/

Verse1: 
Ever since that day you've cursed me
Your image on my mind lurking
Every night is dark and murky
Why do you wanna disturb me
Just cause I can't see, can't mean I can't feel that
Creep present in my backseat twenty-four seven.
That means that beast has me panting, gasping for heavens. 
Can't piece the puzzle. Sad scene since seven
Always has been suffering. Can't seem to bother and 
cast the shutter, enhance peace. Please dispatch me-
Already. I'm not ready for dreading. My bed is not safe and steady 
Almost like I want a teddy bear, bear with me. I’m barely breathing.
From demons to ghosts and humans I fear the most
Wish I’d never host those. Not if I ever chose 
Bleeding of the hope out of me like a severed hose 
Verse2:
Analysis shows: morale, if it’s low, paralysis grows 
My clarity's blown, dragging me slowly down.
Insanity flows rapidly closer cracking the codes 
Of sanity, and it is shown 
Eyes catching shadows while grasping that po-
sition. Rakes in visions make incisions on my body. 
This collision will envision the death of pigeons. I'm finally
Spiraling out of my mind and soul now
Vitally damaged right in my core (ouch)
Virally spread, virus “versus all”, vow how
I shall live henceforth envious of them more
Sucks that I can’t ever settle the score
The more I see the lore I be absorbed 
Out there there is glory and gold galore 
Guess I’ll miss out, all I have is damn gore

Nightmares

Lyrics: R01, Fenrir
Composer: R01
Producer: R01
Cover art: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/ 

Check out Fenrir on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/MHDTmB6PfOUmYwfwfF

Lyrics:
Chorus:
I wanna watch the world 
burn x6
I wanna watch the world
burn x6
I wanna watch the world
Verse:
First of all, you gotta shut the fuck up
I’m done, y’all just hush and suck up
To your foolish ideals and gods
None of’ y’all follow them rules you got up
Hollow stems, got them to the core
Wallow in rotten pools o’ gore
I just know this world is done for
I just noticed there is some more
Chaos needed to fully delete it
Everybody gonna be fully depleted 
I gotta feed it the fire it needed to
heat it up and beat them opps.
Greed eats them up
Speedin’ up I’ve seen enough 
Obscene scenes of ‘em seeking blood,
Weed and drugs smoking and choking 
On their own deeds. Enough!
Call me psycho, all is fine though 
Fall behind those stalling time know-
-ing it’s inevitable to die slowly 
But surely we might go. Say bye bro (Bye bro) 
Say your prayers, stay kind though 
Thanks to hydrogen missiles those 
suckers are getting better, getting our life blown
Chorus*
Fenrir:
Turn the heat up, bring the gasoline 
No machine can learn from me. 
I burn them, beat up with my scheme. 
A robber plotting his next gig. 
I clobber you with words. I dig deep 
to have them heard from my big (beep) brain. 
While I Zig-Zag and Mishmash, 
this that, ee-ä rhymes. 
No AI can replace me or trace me, I’m crazy for 
days on end, so count ‘till the end of your days. 
I got many ways to end you
 with or without flames, but even then,
they’re still fire. A dire need to get higher 
to spread and set ablaze everything, I got an 
arsonist’s arsenal, a flamethrower, partially opened matchbox 
and a pharmacist’s personal prescription pills. 
If my bars are plain, yours are two towers. 
Nine-Eleven got nothing on my powers. 
On the beat, I’m in my element cuz 
I flow like water, cadence in the air, but
I keep it down to earth. I chose my avatar, 
so mama gave birth to a firebender. 
Must be new years cuz this fire works for me 
harder than you work on yourself. So just sit the fuck down, Bitch.
Chorus*
I wanna watch myself burn

Watch It Burn (feat. Fenrir)

Lyrics: R01
Composer: R01
Producer: R01
Cover art: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/

Lyrics:
God, tell me ‘bout me and what I got
Came from streets full o’ spilled guts
Bullets are reigning, still hot
Blood is raining mixed with mud
Bearded maniacs kill in your name
But why am I now getting blame?
Begging “Amen” to get it changed
Bet it’s shame to see death in vain
How can I proudly look at reflections?
Shout it loudly “I'm perfection”?
Doubt I'll ever get true affection 
From the world thanks to the tension
Nevermind this damn conversation.
I never find any inspiration 
Not even in my own nation?
All I've got is stress inflation 

Somewhere along the way I got lost
Who am I and what do I cost? 
Less than a penny in trash bazaar 
Standards of life so bizarre 
“To be or not to be” left a scar
To me, it is to cease cause I'm far
From living fully to the fullest 
Come kill me truly I'm too pissed 
To bother and seek a meaning 
Other than grieving every scene in
My fake and phony happy dreams
By taking those deep naps, it seems
No identity left in my entity I'm endlessly 
Longing for purpose. Lots of intensity 
Sending me down the endless deep maze
I'm impatiently counting days

I’m hopeless, helplessly seeking meaning, but I’m homeless.

Homeless

Lyrics: R01
Composer: NetuH
Producer: NetuH, R01
Cover art: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/
Check out NetuH here https://www.youtube.com/@NetuH
Lyrics:
Verse:
What’s good, idiot? Damn, you hideous
Thang, you serious? Man you’re furious
At yourself that you fell back to hell 
Snap back to sad reality 
you’re selfish
Can you help it? Mad, who held this
Boy from his toys? Son is spoiled,
unemployed. hope I never see you gone in joy
Even these gator tears ain’t saving here. 
Faking fear, baiting peers 
Into prayers and cheers that you don’t adhere to.
It appears to me that
All this bad tension's for attention 
And I can mention the ascension 
Of mood when you sense affection.
“Dude went through tense abjection”
That's Cap. You lack the knack to sack
The stacked wacky emotions
In fact, your act is packed with slacking
On pacts enacting motion 
Your mask is cracked, eyes are black
You can’t look back at the facts 
Only catching sad impact 
Go back to the land of crappy shacks
Ugly duckling must be struggling 
Roughly, tussling luck, needs cuddling
“Hug me-” Sike!
Go fuck yourself!
Oh, “I’m too frail”
Show what you tell
Blow up yourself
Otherwise shut up and 
grow stuck to hell on earth
Outro:
You're a failure, you’re doomed to suffer eternally, coward! 
Keep competing about depression but you’re too scared to actually end this
Fuck you, fucking piece of shit

Depressed to impress

Lyrics: R01, Dead8oi
Composer: GAXILLIC, R01
Producer: GAXILLIC, R01, Dead8oi
Cover art: Dead8oi www.instagram.com/_dbakawoofpepper/
Beat from GAXILLIX: https://youtu.be/IjJjQQg6LnM?si=_0OlwWmKFvUI_qN8

Lyrics:
I can't keep on moving on
I can't keep up any longer
Broken from the core
R01:
Please call me with a calming smile. Tell me I did fine 
So I can fall in peace and cry all of it out till I feel fine
Please tell me it's fine to fail and fear and fly free in the sky
I've been tired of fighting for my life every passing night
I feel like a deer staring at the headlights of my looming
Doom zooming towards me illuminating gloomy rooms
Crushing weights of hating imperfection captured in perfection
I keep losing, they keep cruising. No excuses, so confusing
Not amusing in the slightest. Stop abusing “you’re the brightest”
Stop accusing me of slyness. God! I’m choosing to be lifeless
At this point. Pain is growing, can’t fight
I’m just suffocating under the ruins of my own cursed mind
Chorus 
I can't keep on moving on
No, I can't keep up any longer 
Suffering on repeat, I'm in need
Of breathing in the peace
Why can't you leave me alone?
Oh why can't you stop breaking my bones?
I know I'm the worst piece
I'll take it from now, please
Dead8oi:
The pressure folds into me as I am sinking down the deep end
Of this vast sea called society. The mass is pitted against me
They want their own identity, but the don't want to be identified
You oiled up in the lies of the media, now you've been deep fried
They make us boys suppress ourselves, 
So as a man I gotta fly
But for their money, they put us through hell
They don't even care how much of us die
Feeling like a little minnow, stuck in this blue state
Sharks lurking around, saying shit to my face
But I'm evil if I stand up to you
I don't give a damn don't tell me what to do
I've been kicked to curb by these so called"friends"
This ship didn't sail, it sunk like the titanic
If life was a movie, then it would've been a sad end
But it's what I make it, so I won't die panicked
Chorus
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Dead8oi outro
My mind is scrambled
And I am in shambles
Chained up in drama
Like I'm in a coma
The moment I die from the poison
Injected in my heart
From a world so broken
It tears me apart
Wanna stand up to the evil, but I'm bounded to the ground
Wish I could shield them from the bullets that get shot year round
I just wanna cry for help, but I can't even cry loud enough
At this point, I'm hopeless, I just wanna be heard by someone
R01 adlib: I'm sick and tired of pleasing those eyes

Heavy (feat. Dead8oi)

I'm an independent song writer and artist from California. I predominately rap, but I sing too. Most of the lyrics I write are based on true stories that happen through out my life, or my internal conflicts/mental health. I only do this as a hobby, so I don't really promote a whole lot. Listen at your own discretion

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