sad boy hours

this is the worst time of my life :/

lyrics

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wake up n i wonder will i die today
when i think about all the drugs i take
i can’t help it when i’m sober i don’t feel okay
i don’t know if ima make it 
if i have it ima take it like fuck

i needa start soberin up
but my feelings make me sick as fuck
i needa be numb
i hate what ive become
& sometimes i think that im better off
under the dirt
6ft sleep
lie me in a hearse
..
yea i know im the worst

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)

wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane
i really need change

i need a life with a substace
i needa put down the substance
i needa quit with the fuck shit
ima stand tall soon jus truss it

i try to keep my head up
but the thoughts that reside
are too heavy to hold

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maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)
wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane

a cry 4 help [prod. wellfed & caustyk]

2002mix

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @jolst
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Art by @melmige

Too much time wasted on you

Got me in a bad mood

Chillin' bumpin' sad tunes

And all I want is your attention

Desperate for just a little affection yeah

It's no fun how

Things between us didn't work out

At least not in the way that we planned for

You were my greatest mistake but you left me wanting more


It’s not that I miss you
That’s not the issue
I just wish you felt like you used to

So
I'm breaking everything you gave me
I'm not proud of the man that you made me
I'm ashamed of who I’ve been lately
I can’t blame you when you say you hate me


I'ma take this forty to my face
How many doctors you think it’ll take to save me
Am I even worth saving

(skele)
always waking up in a bad mood 
all this fucking time that i’m wasting 
baby i hope you know i want you 
i didn’t wanna go, i hope you know i had to
tell me that it’s hurting you bad 
you know i’m sad too 

Got me breaking everything you gave me
I know I’m falling it’s not me who needed saving 
I’m steady fucking up my life it’s so frustrating 
Got me looking at the things I’ve been erasing 

Too much time wasted on you 
I still wish you would just come through 
I still miss when you would hold me 
Is it okay if you could call me

Listen on Spotify!

Not Worth Saving w/ skele (Prod. Jolst)

sadboi hoepless today. movie is on YouTube too

1000 times

yayayayaya im thinking less abt u but still thinking abt u

closure (it's over)

Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

she stole my heart
now i don't want it back
keep it girl
i just dont wanna fight
the city's open
i wish i could turn back the time
for those eyes 
and the black in your smile

it's too cold baby
death kissed my heart
outside of feeling too well
with u babygirl i'm not alone
don't leave me alone
without you baby i feel like ima die
it's too cold baby
don't leave me alone

but now i am on my own
her regret on the floor
she said goodbye but i can't let it go
gave you the knife 
that you stabbed in my back
i just hate all my past
just wanna be in your arms

she stole my heart
now i don't want it back
keep it girl
i just dont wanna fight
the city's open
i wish i could turn back the time
for those eyes 
and the black in your smile

the black in your smile (prod. krave x recyclebin)

yale

Cee- For The Pros

dont wanna stay feat. vagasoul {prod. cxrter x cloudy}

Shinigami x Lil Lotus - nightmare

produced by @caspr and @user-182805726
these dudes are so talented pls go support them

cover art by evan carr (@e.j.carr on ig)
this song will be on all platforms in a lil bit

lyrics:
it feels like sunday
when you'd call me up again
we could do whatever
never have to play pretend
because on monday
everybody knows it then
you're a vacant body
and you act like im nobody
now the weeks fly past
and i don't think about u
but one more ask
and you're back in my head tonight

(its that look in your eyes make my heart melt)
(and i'll tell u it all it is heartfelt)
its that look in your eyes, make my heart melt
and i'll tell u it all, it is heartfelt
i got nothin to spare leave it all on the table
know when to fold, hit me up when you're stable

sunday (p. caspr x saint tomorrow)

sunday [caves x saint tomorrow]

featuring: (@ilyaxhes) formerly cr00k of (@burnoutarchive)

produced: (@prod5head)

last time w/ ashes. (p. 5head)

I made this song for my daughter <3 to show her how much i love her
Prod. IOF

(Lyrics)
You are the best gift for me
The best thing I could ever ask for
You give my life a new meaning 
How could I ever want more 
I wanna be the one you run up to
I wanna be the one you look up to
I wanna do everything for you
I wanna be everything for you

Cause You saved me from myself 
It couldn’t be anybody else 
You saved me from myself
It couldn’t be anybody else 
One look at your face I knew that
I was never, never gonna go back
I’m gonna be who you need me to be
A father that loves you for eternity 

Never make you doubt your self worth
I’ll try protect from the worlds hurt 
I’ll do everything that I can 
I’ll do everything to be a man 
Cause you opened up my eyes
And now Ive realized
That’s there’s so much more to love
You’re everything I could ever want 
Cause you opened up my eyes 
And now I’ve realized
That theres a reason for my life 
And you’re the reason why

Mixed by Yago Beats

Saved me from myself (prod. IOF)

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/carlby x https://soundcloud.com/splashgvng

headache (prod. carlby x splashgvng)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

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Boston
Songwriter + Composer - no box, just sounds :)

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dead broke

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