Lying on the floor while my mom cries😢

I’ve been going thru it for the last time. 💔

One of my favs for sure. Youre awesome brother. Love u 🤘🏼

i hope you feel that back

prod: @jolst @afterlife66

i'm in a house made of cards
and it's falling
n i just break down 
seeing stars when i'm off it
don't say you'll come back
it's all the same 
i don't want it
cause i'll just bleed out
leaving stains on the carpet

don't bother calling
too busy balling
don't say you need those things you said you never wanted
i'm tryna be someone
i'm making moves, i'm gone
i had to go out to la so i could play that part
i hope you're doing better without me 
i hope you're telling your friends i was never making you happy
i hope you wake up sad
i hope you break down bad 
cause in the end you never cared,
i hope you feel that back

n you know just what to do 
move on to something new
i know you're good at that 
don't feel a thing i'm glad
cause for a minute i was thinking you would come right back

but you're so innocent,
you're so innocent,
you're so innocent,
you're so innocent

house of cards (prod. jolst & afterlife)

love i'm sorry 
god knows i tried 
i know you see through 
the wall in my eyes 
it's all i had left
so say what you mean 
don't worry about me, 
cause it only hurts a bit more through a screen
and i
love 
you

so please don't go 
cause i never could 
turn off my phone,
be perfectly fine tryna sleep on my own 
n i
need
you 
when i fall through 

so take what you want 
i'll try my best to replace it 
and even if it means breaking 
put the barrel back on my tongue 
i never wanted to feel so alone 
but i "felt so much better"
cause you were my home 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
given all of the things that i'll never get back
four in the morning i stare at my ceiling 
and wonder why the pale white wall 
looks so appealing to me 
asking why my eyes always look so sad 
guess it's what's left of the the things i had 

i never wanted to feel so alone
but i felt so much better 
cause i loved you
guess it's what's left of the things i have 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
i guess that i shouldn't have 
given all of the things that i'll never get back

all of the things that i'll never get back (prod. afterlife)

je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

i just wanted to write a love song 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

heavenly,
i hope you don't mind
formality apology,
i guess it never hurt you to lie
when you took that from me 
i felt nothing 
shaking aside
butchered up the rosary,
i prayed i could die
but you wanted to 
i said i'd be good for you 
shut my mouth for you 
and prayed it'd be over soon

i just wanted to write a love song 
story book ending 
block it all out 
i'm so good at pretending
they said it takes time
but i'm still stuck with the memory

it's probably my fault 
i must've asked for it 
payed for my sins
spilled out blood to the hyms
but i swear i felt heaven when i'm laying with him

i'm fooling myself 
it was never that fun 
it's easy to romanticize 
i fell for that once,
or twice
i'm losing the count of goodbyes
hoping one day i'd be enough in your eyes

where's the love in this 
hate the bruises on my lips
search for betterment 
and comfort in impermanence
you took it out of me 
i gave it all up
cause it's better to feel nothing
than to hurt when it's done

comfort in impermanence (prod. pekarot)

i'd give it all to give it up

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz https://soundcloud.com/lildriplildrip
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah

sometimes i wish i went to college
and only ever dreamed bout the shit that i started 
getting sick of my apartment 
something’s wrong with my head 
but i just don’t know what to call it 
telling myself it’s fine 
it’s what you dreamed of
the city of angels where devils meet up
i don’t leave my room 
it’s hard to speak up
when everyone around me thinks I’m no one

i wanna dream on 
i told i my mom that i would make it 
gotta keep on 

i’m super paranoid 
i wanna make em all proud 
but i keep falling down
i never had a choice
i wanna make em scream it back to me 
and hear the noise

testing my patience 
can’t even get out of my bed 
i’m fucking breaking 
don’t know what day it is 
i’d give it all to give it up
i’m way too anxious 

i’m never breathing right 
i gotta drink until i’m spinning 
just to sleep at night
i need him by my side 
i get so scared to be alone
that i start shaking i,
wish i went to college
i wish i had a nine to five
i can’t see the finish line
i do this every time

sometimes i wish i went to college

sometimes i wish i went to college (prod. nate2timez & lil drip)

staring at me 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/splashgvng
master: https://soundcloud.com/onlyfriendyeah
sitting with you 
in my small bedroom 
head on your shoulder 
didn’t care he was older
i knew 
it hurt too 
we kept on

and he smelled like cigarettes 
said i taste like medicine 
and we talked like newlyweds 
till i forgot we’d barely met

green eyes
staring at me 
and i cried
screaming at you
not to leave

off of them drugs 
quick new fucks 
paying my consequence for falling in love
you said that we could be friends 
you said that we would be fine if it ends 
own all the shit that you said 
tell me you’re sorry you left 
still scraping blood off the bed 
still seeing red on the white walls 
still breaking down when my mom calls

green

green (prod. splashgvng)

Ralf - Cadê Você ?

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

I can't even really cry alone at night,
it's like a movie of our time plays in my mind,
and I've been on your instagram page every night,
it's still crazy now I called you mine.

And every night feels like the last night,
I've been going through it for the last time,
finger on the trigger of my dads 9,
I hope that they all say I had a good life,

I got a lot of things that I regret, theres a lot of things that I just cant forget,
I can't fix my flaws and heal my head but I'll never get back my innocence from you.
I hope you find someone you don't fuck up like me,
I don't know what I believe.
It'd be so easy to leave,

Regrets (ft. Skele) (acoustic)

Featuring: https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
Guitar by: https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow
Drums by: hazenova
Cover art by: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

Coming to all platforms January 13th

Lyrics:

Hazenova: 
january 18th is the day youre going
got a hole in my chest and it keeps on growing
its getting hard to play pretend
im really not okay with this
not okay with it  

my life is filled with setbacks
im so tired of these attacks
everything i ever wanted
slips right through my grip
im haunted 

i just wanna go back to the sunny days
we would run around
we could runaway 

Skele:
just wanna go back
to how it used to be
when ur touch still
felt so comforting
but i know you don’t
and i know you won’t
so i jus sit back down keep my head low
it’s my fault i know i’m too emotional
but every day i feel the same way
i get lost in my headspace
so what am i supposed to do
when every night i dream of u
i wish we could go back to the sunny days
cause i’m done spending all my nights awake

listen on spotify

january 18th (feat. skele)

it gets hard to breathe
https://soundcloud.com/crackxlizard
https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted
mastered by: https://soundcloud.com/trechorboy


so is he everything
wanna fall in love
get a wedding ring
taking back all the memories you got from me 
when i look at the past yeah, it gets hard to breathe
i bet he's giving you everything
it's killing me

wake up, i don't wanna wake up 
don't wanna live another day feeling the fake love
and they like wait up, i don't wanna wait up
i keep breaking apart
i'll take the pain, love

do you treat him like me now
say he's the worst now
sending heart eyes while he's falling asleep now

i don't wanna wait till i break down
haunt me like a ghost until i'm bringing the knife out

Regrets (ft. Skele) (acoustic)

dead broke

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