Im tired.


HI MY NAME IS DEADCITIZEN AND HERE ARE SOME LINKS.


FREE DOWNLOAD:(not if blank)


YOUTUBE:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOacUQadJlgpmBRhDE5dbEw


SOUNDCLOUD: 
https://soundcloud.com/deadcivilians

staying alive for no reason / / I cant feel anything

why is it so hard to be human? I try so fucking hard to cope and "be a man" but nothing fucking changes. It never fucking does. I don't wanna be miserable anymore. I wanna be free of all my mental illnesses, I want some remnant of normality. why am I like this?



HI MY NAME IS DEADCITIZEN AND HERE ARE SOME LINKS.


FREE DOWNLOAD:(not if blank)


SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1kEpL8zhJgoLBAeULPWHPd?si=5XZKi7ZyR5iyL0DRBuV_7g


YOUTUBE:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOacUQadJlgpmBRhDE5dbEw


SOUNDCLOUD: 
https://soundcloud.com/deadcivilians 


ITUNES:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/deadcitizen/1608781444


SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1kEpL8zhJgoLBAeULPWHPd?si=5XZKi7ZyR5iyL0DRBuV_7g


DISCORD FOR ALERTS:
https://discord.gg/ZQwQkcnzUV

there's no point in going on anymore

this is my first tape thingy.


hope you enjoy to whoever finds this

anxiety calamity

the devil is schizophrenic

fight your existential dread, you will probably lose

welcome to tutorial.

1. bpm 180
2. chord a ambient pad synth
3. add bassline
4. get amen break reddit (no punjabi)
5. arrange very obvouisly
6. little variation
7. make it super long

how to sewerslvt 4 dummies = complete


kill mein.

how to sewerslvt (music4dummies)

mug blooded american (rootbeercore)

welcome to the collab album between deadcitizen and fragmented space.

flame of a dying soul (fspace)

dead reality (deadcitizen)

neon streets (fspace)

id prefer if u stabbed me (deadcitizen)

welcome to the collab album between deadcitizen and fragmented space.



dont look at me
im hogging up the mirror again
im setting free
all my little fears again
no emapthy
dont know if ill love again
hanging from a tree
i know ill never walk again

hey there pretty liltte liar
get your pills
hey there pretty liar
come get your thrills

leave it to me
leave it to me

ive walked this sunken path
ive seen your god's wraith and 
id prefer to run from the draft

or is it a problem that I cannot solve
inside my head
my head feels like the holocaust

i want you in my bed
the thought of you brings joy and happiness and love to my head
im living full of dirty dread
its safe to say im obssesed
and I hope its real
cuz I caught a feel
and I dont wanna let go

ive been to hell 
I know the devil
I screamed so loud I became a kettle
of burnin anxiety
and gravel

Im a man of false promises
a hurt boy among commoners
my life sewn to a monitor
isint that sad
im holding onto life like I wasnt that mad
im holding onto life like the first time ive ever had
and my handles fucking broken
i cant speak up cuz I am choking
can you hear the pain thats evoking
from the screams of the dammed they are croaking

to distract myself from reality that is coping
all my brain does now is start smoking
your healing me
its closing

dont look at me
im hogging up the mirror again
im setting free
all my little fears again
no emapthy
dont know if ill love again
hanging from a tree
i know ill never walk again

i want you in my bed
the thought of you brings joy and happiness and love to my head
im living full of dirty dread
its safe to say im obssesed
and I hope its real
cuz I caught a feel
and I dont wanna let go

all my little fears (deadcitizen)

the pysch ward is on fire (fspace)

did I do a good breakcore? (fspace)

corpse rot (deadcitizen)

laceration treaty (fspace)

leave me alone.

(spotify soon)

hi my name is deadcitizen and here are some links.


free download:(not if blank)


spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1kepl8zhjgolbaeulpwhpd?si=5xzki7zyr5iyl0drbuv_7g


youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/ucoacuqadjlgpmbrhde5dbew


soundcloud: 
https://soundcloud.com/deadcivilians 


itunes:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/deadcitizen/1608781444


spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1kepl8zhjgolbaeulpwhpd?si=5xzki7zyr5iyl0drbuv_7g


discord for alerts:
https://discord.gg/zqwqkcnzuv

leave me alone + fspace

super sad stuff mr cititzen


lyrics:
I cannot sleep right
I cannot breath right
nothing feels right
I feel hopeless
my chair's broken
my hearts achin


howlin at the moon and myself
it was 2 past twelve
I was hoping for someone else
instead of my blanket
which love am I chasing?
for you or myself
for her or himself
or they or themselves


a heart unknown
im growing cold
I want your warmth
please feed my soul
please hug me tight
dont let me go
cuz if you do
then you'll know
when ill come back
when ill come home
ill be alone
a heart unknown


howlin at the moon and myself
it was 2 past twelve
I was hoping for someone else
instead of my blanket
which love am I chasing?
for you or myself
for her or himself
or they or themselves

lovesong for a degenerate

new genre.


lyrics:
break my bones
watch me implode
watch these old feeling corrode
it wasnt much but it was showed
I never knew how cold I grown

there was once a guy
he was set on revenge
and took a life
he never thought of it again
how the fuck are you man enough?
cant you stand enough?
why the fuck cant you handle us?

he smoke and drank
to disguise all the pain
and all of the rage
that didn't explain
the blood on his floor
to his wife he's a dork

deadset on remorse
deadset on divorce

its alright

its alright

break my bones
watch me implode
watch these old feeling corrode
it wasnt much but it was showed
I never knew how cold I grown
break my bones
watch me implode
watch these old feeling corrode
it wasnt much but it was showed
I never knew how cold I grown

he cried all night
he cried all day
he's hittin up his friend for a place to stay
hes dying to feel the love
of his son
but he must realize
whats done is done
and your never ever ever gonna get her back
it isint ever getting better
get your life on track

stop asking for handouts
its too late for that
you should save yourself
its too late for that

its alright
everything will be fine
its alright
everything will be fine


break my bones
watch me implode
watch these old feeling corrode
it wasnt much but it was showed
I never knew how cold I grown
break my bones
watch me implode
watch these old feeling corrode
it wasnt much but it was showed
I never knew how cold I grown

garage puke

its not ya fault
the words I say are just assault
it not personal
but I left the night you called
dont let me down
my heads been pushed into the ground
i dont wanna drownn
in my hearts desires
im on fire
you were a liar
i was not any better
my bloods on my sweater
your bloods on my mouth
im waiting for winter
my heads in the cloud
im hopin for someone
to take me out
im lookin for no one
i didnt have to shout
my heads on your photos
my brains on your logo
you took all to heart
and now your driving me loco
my heads gone broke
its all a big joke
you never know 
when things are broke
we use to dance
we used to cry
to live
and now I hide
from everyone 
execpt you
cause its not like me
to follow through

im sorry for how things are now
but when we meet 
ill show you how
i live in hurt in 
i live in pain
i want to prosper
bit i thrive in hate
and I hate myself
for who I am
for the things ive done
ive dragged you near
your image ive smeared
one day you’ll see
i dissappear
and be someone better

but its not what you want
what have I done?
I need you
i need to see myself
one more  time
its not a crime
to live your life
but dont live mine
your not who i am
your not who I want
your a figure of speech
ima figure of god

its not your fault (feat. POSITIVE+)

starting weekly drops?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
whatttttttt?!?!?!??!?!

i dont wanna wake up
i dont wanna wake up
dont look into my eyes
you will see hysteria
these thoughts in my mind
never seem to clear up
get high all the time
I dont wanna wake up
(2x)

im brain is my enemy
at night and im looking for remedy
then my brain starts to play
bad memories
swallow pain and my pride
in a melody
its designed to recline my feelings
into petty
workplace dealings
i feel my insides burning
im yearning for somebody to help
ive been living in pain by myself
im pouring the champagne straight from the shelf
it all taste the damn same and it never helps
the trying to change you should fix yourself
im trying to change my body
my brain
and my hobbies
my fixations on the drugs that i take
and how often i cry and how i get baked
ima loser at the end of the day
im trying to change my speech
and the pain that i made
and the souls that i reap 
and the way that I sleep
thinking somebody fake
and i wish i wasnt alone all day

i wanna change 
just for you

I dont wanna wake up + fspace

body on the floor
 its a cold one
 i wanna pick him up but he wont budge
crying all night for the fuzz
but no one came for help so i misjudged
the situation at hand 
i kept trying to move him 
but didnt have a plan
then a dark figure came beside me
and it told me to understand
that bodies dont need me
i then i started to shake
then the reality to take
my head was heavy
it was me on the ground and i couldnt wake upppp

idk gashacybin's lyrics but check them out!!!
https://soundcloud.com/psychoticpsychedelic

dead body on the ground +gashacybin +cajook

ok scratch that
no matter what happens ima clime back
ima change my life roll the clock back
try to change my life need my love back

try so hard but i keep falling down
heart wont beat if I got no sound
try to look at myself with a straight face
but i feel so cold cant stand my own gaze
heart starts to hurt but I cant stop now
got so far and I cant back out now
you dont hurt me anymore
you dont hurt me anymore
i dont want you
to be like me 
so depressed 
cant watch tv
reminded of a reality
where no one gets the best of me

ok i try
to be nice
ima lie on my rights
ima stay not to fight
i dont wanna lose my life
but i dont wanna talk to you
your selfish and your fucking rude


just treat me nice

laughing at me felt like fucking hell
they never cared about my mental health
they only cared about their themselves
they left me alone made me selfish

gacha life system

deku
needs his shrooms
he doesn't wanna be a hero anymore
and when you look
in his eyes
you'll see the rage
come to shore

and its okay 
to cry


then it comes
and then it goes
the high stays
but never lows
its not your fault
for being human
your not special 
your just like me

an anidote
in a prison
where its fucked up
with my condition

just let me free

lovesong for an addict

I dont care
if your dead
your love is neverending 
in my head
my heads all yours
and my heart
just hold it tight
you'll tear us apart

you turn down the noise
thats in my head 
all the time
and when I sleep
then I hear them speak
you always drown out the voice
cuz when your not around
to help me
and i cant distract myself
my head cant escape the void
and I need help
cant fix it myself
cause last time
all my feelings got destroyed

wax coffin lullaby

gay bathroom line

inspired by Pinegrove - Problems
not a direct cover but eh idek


this is how I spend my life alone
singing sad songs
while I waste my life alone

and all my problems
so stupid
there not even problems

and now your gone
how was I supposed to know?
you were here for a minute
but there no distractions now


and I can spend these years alone
on the phone
like I deserve much better

you couldve left a note
but you didnt
theres only misery now

and we walk alone
the problems never over
and I was supposed to know
I just wanted you closer

misery watcher

there's something going down tonight
and I dont want to be alive
there's something crawling deep inside
its hiding in my skin

and Im sorry its come to this
I dont want to turn into him

just tear it off
tear it off
JUST TEAR IT OFF
JUST TEAR IT OFF

and I dont know where to begin
it was when I was just a kid
he took advantage of me
and im still not over me

and theres something inside my skin
its crawling deep within


just tear it off
tear it off
JUST TEAR IT OFF
JUST TEAR IT OFF

I don't like my skin, please tear it off

I cant stand this state of mind
this state of mine
theres something happening to me

I try to fix myself
i only end up hurting others instead
and I wish to kill myself
so everyone knows that theres nothing left 

and I know 
that your coming home
i just wanna be alone
away from all of you

i wish this was a joke
I wish i wasnt broke 
my life is gone to waste
im gonna die  today

I can't do anything right

produced by taymxru

new song every friday 


I said its true!
I dont wanna be with you

you tell me fucked up lies
you don’t read my replies

and I say too myself
would I be better in hell?

time after time
that I've spent
wasted hours that I couldve been

figuring out
what this life all about?
there's so much out there for me
there's so much that I'm missing

and its up to me
who shapes my reality
but you affect it so much
I long and crave for your touch


I said its true
I don’t know what to do
with all this missing time
I don’t know whats is mine

and I say to myself
maybe you should get some help?
time after time that I tried 
I went and up fucked up my pride

you make this world so bright
I wanna feel your light
I wanna see your eyes
I wanna know your mine

I hate the feeling of knowing
that my relationship is going 
down the drain away from me
the pain will rot inside of me

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