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Track 1 off Self Titled Album

prod. @horoshamusic and @sorrow_bringer 

song about driving high af and bein sad

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long way home [+horosha & sorrow bringer]

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Lyrics:
Will u love me im insane
Cried too much now im so drained
Im a rockstar, feel my pain
And i need u back but i wont say that to ur face

Im in my head all day
I miss you when its late 
Im fucking up my brain
Your the drug i crave


Im bleedin for the racks
Got a knife in my back
U know i care but i cant
Do nothin bout that

Its all in the past


They say i dont belong here and maybe i dont
But who knows
I make everybody leave me alone
Its my fault 

I been wipin up the blood from my phone
Did u call
Baby i get high but i know
That ill fall

Will u love me im insane
Cried too much now im so drained
Im a rockstar, feel my pain
And i need u back but i wont say that to ur face

Im in my head all day
I miss you when its late 
Im fucking up my brain
Your the drug i crave

Im dragging myself down through life
Despite telling everyone that im fine
My head is in a cloud i cant clear out my mind 
And honestly i'm nervous when i see all the eyes

CRIED TOO MUCH NOW I'M SO DRAINED (Prod. Discent)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

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i love you

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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wayside remix!
featuring @oni_boy
produced by @nevrfall :)
cover art by @ejcarrmusic lmfao
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

i dont wanna lose u now
i feel so safe in your arms when the moon is out
i lose it when you’re not around
im glad im something special to u

[verse - oni boy]
i feel so dead when you’re not around me
just tell me you love me and touch on my body
cause once i start loving you know there’s no stopping
and inside my head girl you’re the only topic

suffocate me
i wanna fucking choke
consuming all your love
it’s not enough to know
i wanna feel you now
but i can’t replicate
cause all this other love
is feeling fucking fake

cause every day i wake up without you
it’s just not enough to pray to be with you
i’ll hop in the whip and drive past the bay view
the dreams become real it’ll be just us two

i don’t wanna waste my time
i gotta be by your side
and make you mine
but the timings never fucking right
drowning deep inside the tides
lost in the lines 

[pre-chorus]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight

[decks]
its 2 in the morning
i dont wanna waste
any second with u
cuz there’s nothing to delay
i been bored and confused
till u made everything
seem a little more in color
i want u to be with me

[decks & oni boy]
im scared to fall by the wayside
too tough to see how the days fly by
and all this is great, well in hindsight
cuz everything could change overnight, oh my

wayside

wayside w/ oni boy [nevrfall]

Prod. Flowers for You

my entire discography: https://open.spotify.com/user/lukeee117/playlist/2gRn7V9QfxZxFaJJdS00EP?si=vUv0Ie1qQc2dhn8mHtwk0w&dl_branch=1

alright, that's fine w/ skele

She only text’s me in the nighttime
Still drunk can’t read don't feel right
And I swear i could never act right
Still left on read like ghost time 
And i swear that I’m trying 
Two shots to my head now dying
And he acting like she bribed him
No love just sex now crying

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And I smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

I’m easily replaceable
Don’t have another way to go
I’m lost without a reason 
Time to stop my breathing
Heart be running fast within my chest it gets to beating
Found another way to make it out i swear I'm leaving
Pain been pushed aside i lost my friend and now I'm grieving, grieving

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh i lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now I’m dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

gemini (prod. siem spark x gavinhadley x milesjulian)

prod deadfish <3
enjoy :3

featured artist: @xona
ig: https://www.instagram.com/urxona/

socials:
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lyrics:



So many sleepless nights
Don't worry I'll be fine

Hi
Please Don't hang up
I've been tryna call you
For a while

And I ain't wasted
At least not yet
And I don't want to
Spend the night alone

I swear, this is for the last time
And I promise to never call your phone again
I'm struggling with just keeping it together
But I can't keep it up forever

I can't
Stop this
I'm a
Burden

Please just
Help me
I need
Saving

Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

[xona]
I can try again
I don’t want it to end
you bring me out of it
you’re mocking all my ex’s
we’re not alike
you and I
I stay out of sight
you watch my eyes
It’s a sign, I can’t make it right

yeah yeah
ima turn my back, don’t wait
I can’t breath with all this weight
you burn my body up, I just feel disgrace
I guess you wonder why I feel this way

I can try again
I don’t want it to end
you bring me out of it
you’re mocking all my ex’s
we’re not alike
you and I
I stay out of sight
you watch my eyes
It’s a sign, I can’t make it right

[deadfish]
Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

I can't
Stop this
I'm a
Burden

Please just
Help me
I need
Saving
x2

Cuz I've had too many sleepless nights
Don't worry I'll be fine

I cannot stop this
And I cannot see straight
Whole life been a fuck up
Whole life been bit different

And you're laughing at me
Ppl stare at me
My social anxiety
And I fucking hate it

that I've had too many sleepless nights
Cause I'm always on my own
Always say don't worry I'll be fine
Cause I can't show anyone I'm alone

rever

rever (feat. xona)

produced by hiraeth


Leave me outside in the rain 
Crying with no one to stay
Leave me to rot and decay
Can’t even look at my face

Say that you hate me 
I won’t break
Don’t ever tell me to change
I know I struggle I promise I’ll wait
If I’m staying inside 
am I safe ?

Call me anything you promised that you’d wait
Changed my name so I don’t fall by what you say
Letting go just to save me from what I hate

Take away from what I own
I never had a plan
Saving grace you never cared 
I never had a chance 
Tear me up and take away from all I ever had
Can’t believe you tried to blame it on your fucking past

Nothing lasts
You were all I had
Turning back 
Save me fore I crash
Going bad 
Turning into ash
Nothing lasts
Holding to the past

grise fiord

produced by me :)

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lyrics:

You said I was something
When I think I’m nothing
Always smiling at me
When I say something stupid

Always tryna call me
But my phone switched on focus
Always writing songs
And you know that it’s exhausting

Never think that anything
I write will ever make it
Always say I’m fine, 
Guess I’ll fake it til I’ll make it

Always regret anything I say
I can’t help it
Staring at the ceiling like
It’s gonna help me

I feel undone
It’s been a long run
Block out the sun
Try to have fun

Don’t look at me
I’ve changed in 3 weeks
Stuck under debris
Used to be so carefree

I stg someday you’ll try to call me
But it’ll always go to the voice mail
Lazy fat fuck, never achieved anything
I call me that, my self-esteem has always been
This low, can’t switch my life around
On God, that’s why I can’t stick around 
Prefer staying in my room and hate my life
When everybody around just feeds my lies

focus

@gothprinc3 @tnvr555

i’ll stay far away i won’t make a sound
cause i don’t want to speak now
everybody makes fun of the words that come out
so you can stop staring
you don’t even know me
what i’m about

and i’ve had it with all of these strangers planting their lies deep under my skin
so take your pretty blade
and show them how i’m so paper thin
oh

toss and turn with the pain now
come on love blow my brains out
i don’t want to fight this
had enough, i’m lifeless
lost inside of my own crowd
paper thin with the blade out
never meant to be like this
can’t swallow all i’ll miss
oh oh

and i keep seeing all of these faces i wish i could forget
baby you know you’ll haunt me in my dreams till i am dead
and i try to fixate on the blood so i won’t feel the regret
oh love, i hope you know that it’s hell keeping you out my head

breathe

i
toss and turn with the pain now
come on love blow my brains out
i don’t want to fight this
had enough, i’m lifeless
lost inside of own crowd
paper thin with the blade out
never meant to be like this
can’t swallow all i’ll miss
oh oh

paper thin [princ3 x tnvr]

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

prod. @trytoseeghosts & @sinxi

@imgeist
@trytoseeghosts
@yokaidreams
@tnvr555
@hiraethsry
@sinxi

// imgeist
oh
souls lost
watch them pray on their knees
cause i don’t fuck with anybody who’s not worshipping me
saw her soul cross
what a devious treat
so go and grab the bodies they’re all filled with disease

oh trick or treat love
can you see what i see?
street lights flickering green?
jack-o-lanterns they scream
oh trick or treat love
like how you always fooled me
now all the ghosts that you see
they’ll haunt you till defeat

terrified, oh are you?
scared of all the karma left to come
face the consequences
you can’t hide from all the sins you’ve done

*new ghost detected*

// trytoseeghosts
always stay protected while your in an armor
never wanna deal with all my trauma
i don’t really wanna talk to you that’s karma
feeling, dead inside my head
i know that i lost a lot of friends but
i know they never got my bloody back
and i prefer to live with spirit and passion
i think i saw ghosts
and i can’t stop by now
i think that im haunted in my own damn house
my minds fucked
and my hearts a split
the only thing i am is just a fucked up kid

// yokai dreams
i was up a little late last night
saw a few things i should never see
now the second that i close my eyes
i can feel them staring back at me
please do not be alarmed
it's only me within the dark

from under the grave i am setting myself free
i do not think you can help me
i am not what you call healthy
carry disease
could call it the mark of the beast

// tnvr
you're praying for me,
but i'm watching you bleed on the floor
there's blood in the sink,
so don't you dare walk out that door
he's playing for keeps, the devil in me
tryna take my soul away
won't let me sleep, i'm wide awake
won't make it to heavens gate

so tear my eyes out from the inside
i'm not alive, i can't fall asleep
tear my eyes out from the inside
tear my eyes out from the inside

// hiraeth
please just let me go, i really want him to bleed
cutting marks along his chest, i’ll throw the bitch in the sea
and you think it’s all okay, i hope you catch a disease
leave him buried in the ground, along with dirt and the leafs
i hope you care about someone until they fuck you and leave
i hope that every tear you shed scratches your face and you bleed
and no one even comes to help cause you just left them with ease
as soon as someone new comes in you’re always down on ur knees

// sinxi
lend ur soul to me
i’ve got a couple minutes
you tell me that i’m mean
when i explained my reasons
hit ‘em where it hurts cos i like the feeling
didn’t mean to try i just kept you clingin

‘oh my god what the fuck, what’d u do to me?’
it’s almost like i can’t control the things i see
creatures on my skin that i can’t believe
baby oh u didn’t u made them just for me?

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DISEASE w/ trytoseeghosts, yokai dreams, tnvr, hiraeth & sinxi

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

3 am

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