the suspense, the everything, this is the soul, let's go fish ily

YOOO I DID NOT EXPECT THAT, THIS IS SO GOOD

I have fucking goosebumps. This music is better then love and sex. Let me ride this song into an euphoric death.

forget me like forgetting the lyrics to my old songs

produced by @taxpurposes
thank you all for listening <3

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the gallows (p. taxpurposes)

Lyrics: 
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
filled with uncertainty
what path am I taking to currency?
treacherous roads lead to gold
anxiety taking the wheel with no courtesy
so I take the path filled with mold
these creatures they lurking behind me in bold
i'm fucked in the head and my body is cold
these questions unanswered echo in my dome
~
rewind freeze time
I'm copin with the music, hope it fix my mind
I might be fucking useless but I sure can rhyme
I'm grinding no excuses boy I love the climb
~
feel like I'm wasting all my time oh yeah
time is moving faster than my mind oh yeah
sit alone and think about the life I have left
will I crash and burn or will I rise above the rest
~
I can't get enough love
always wanting more
I'm craving every single touch
body hit the floor right after puffin on that dutch
eating beats for breakfast but ill save her for my lunch
~
nothing in the pockets of my ripped jeans 
reminisce upon the times that she said that she missed me
focused on my own dreams
bleeding out my own seems
I can't seem to find a scene where everybody feels me
out of place I can't erase my actions so I just freeze 
anxiety and the nose bleeds
sobriety is not for me
society got me feelings so fucked up, find happiness by my own means

Time moves on, so should you [prod. yunny goldz]

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

follow my girlfriend @novagarden

TRECH:
in my suicide note i wrote
that if any motherfuckers want smoke
id choke 
i stay fucked up
i’m so hung up
on the fact i ain’t shit
but a fuck up
all my friends have overdosed
even though i ain’t there yet, bitch i’m close
in the meantime
i’ll stay locked in my room 
away from sunshine

take cover in a substance
i hate the taste
down it like its nothin’
how many hits can i lick before i tap out?
how many
drinks can i sip before i black out?
imma test my limit for the last time
please stay with me on the hotline
i’ll call u back when i feel alright
but tomorrow never comes
a life is finite

NOVA:
i can’t stop takin’ hella pills
but im not addicted 
i just do it for the thrill
acid tabs sitting on my tongue
but don’t worry ‘bout a thing
i just do it for fun
glassed eyes in the mirror
lookin’ at myself
thinkin’ ‘bout why the fuck i do this to my health
paranoia got me grabbin’ shrooms off my shelf
try to stop me
i cant let you bitch
so go to hell

TRECH:
i feel nothin’
to feel somethin’
but im a fucking slave to the chemicals
ive been 
straight huffin’
i wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
take my mind away
my eyes fell down the drain
these tear drops act as rain
try to flush away rinse away my pain

shards of glass

shards of glass (feat. nova garden)

nothing is enough

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

stay away please

Well the world don't seem so small
When you're so far away from me
Tried to call you late last night 
But I hung up before the second ring 
Tried to follow my heart
But I would rather just fucking scream
Nothing makes no fucking sense
I need to wake up from this dream 

But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to live without you
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same 
I'd wait every day and all the nights to save this
You cut me deep enough I don't think I'll fucking make it baby
After all this time away
I thought I'd finally be okay
But every marker on the highway just makes me feel the fucking same
But I can't 
No I won't yeah I'm the problem
Shaky hands on cigarettes or on the bottle baby
I don't wanna see you anymore I hope I die tomorrow yeah yeah
'Cause if I don't it's just another one to fucking live without you 
Without you

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the problem [bonus track] (p. shiki xo)

bluff w/ Weepings & Ally Holloway (prod. jody)

Im Back (prod. Oblivion Version)

s/o to https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty for the fire beet and inspiration <33
s/o soundcloud.com/cay2o for mastering too
mixed by me

lyrics:
I know u hate this, I don't fkin like it either.
my brain cant stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I cant fkn kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself.

she gon' thank me when I kick the bucket.
obsessive thinking, my mind crazy, but I cant say fk it.
cause I got u and these people who gon' listen to me
this shit my therapy, don't take it as a lecture homie.

I fkn, lay in bed just thinking and sht.
i think id probably be happy if I didn't think about sht, but i cant help it my mind racing like a track meet
i try to sleep then get depressed like tf happened to me.

I’m wastin my time, I opened my eyes
can’t rely on these bitches I learned that the hard way
comin back to my senses, but ive been through hell
i’m a lion in a cell, but its kinda hard to tell
now I dont mean to yell, but sometimes I need to get this feelin out of my chest.
I love my homies, s/o my brothas 1 time 
I hope they not lonely, cause im barely alive.

Afraid

Deadfish

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