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ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ， ｎｏｗｈｅｒｅ．- ｐａｒｋｉｎｇ ｌｏｔ

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

<3
Been away from my "working station" for a while, wasnt gonna release this but it feels like ive been inactive for a long time. love you guys.
Heres the lyrics;
[Verse1]
Dont wanna get lost tonight
cuz baby youre my valentine
ima put the fire out
a thousand degrees when your skin touches mine

 [Break]
I cross my fingers, want you to stay
as always i dont really know what to say.
You're sitting right next to me, 
two cans filled with ice
Blank words mean nothing compared to your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
And we talk about memories
How we used to live on the streets
climbing rooftops, always a treat
I knew the reason why my heart could beat
You were my drug, my nicotine
these memories flash by like a movie scene
I can't escape the past

[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

[Verse 2]
Ive got a tendency to lose my shit when im stressed out
Ill go with honesty and tell you how i feel, right,

[Break 2]
Brush it off its a new day
There wasnt anything I could say
You didnt have to act like that
Never wanted to get back
Dont get the idea that i will ever understand
Bottom line is that im far ahead



[Hook]
You dont have to act like that
and i dont wanna do you like that
Dont get the idea that i ever will understand

2xU - for the last couple of days

all alone in my room
i'm feeling down again
i don't know what to say
it's getting bad again
all i know is i need to try my best
to get out of this hole i put myself in
she's my everything
she's all i've ever wanted
when i am with her
i feel like i'm important
i feel alive when i'm in her arms
she makes me want to live
how did we get this far
without me ruining it all
i'm scared that i'll ruin it all
but i swear i try my best
but i'm always such a mess
yea
i wish that i could love myself as much i love you
you're my everything
you're everything i need
and you're everything i want
when i'm down i tend to hide
but i'm tryna change
i wish i didnt hate myself
somedays i feel like i should just kill myself
but then i think of you and it all feels worth it
but right now i feel worthless
i feel so worthless
you make it worth it
just hold me
tell me that i'll be okay

it's getting bad again

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it's getting bad again (prod. lil biscuit)

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

Last Night Was A Blur (Prod. By yng abrey)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

Mix/Master: @qawikamri
Cover: @collidingwithmars
I really hope you all enjoy this song! go show some love to the song i just dropped with @qawikamri over on his page as well!!! I truly love you all, thank you for everything you have done for me! Make sure to check out @prod-trash as well, he is amazing <3

Lyrics-

yung van:
I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

I'm only 19
You all know nothing bout me
You only know that sad
I don't even live with dad
But when you cry it's storm
You feel your body get warm
I see your eyes their all red
I know you wish you were dead

I know you wish you were dead x4

I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

qawi kamri:
bloodshot eyes from you crying
you don't want to wake up in the morning 
when you see my calls you ignore it
but i can truly see that you're trying
i can see the pain in your eyes
when you said that you're fine
i know that you lied
i know that you lied

yung van & qawi kamri:
Let it fall
Let the rain run down your face 
feel it all
As your mind disintegrates

qawi kamri:
I know you wish you were dead
I know you wish you were dead
i know you wish we were done
I know you wish you were dead

yung van:
I know you wish you were dead x4

yung van & qawi kamri:
I can see the storm in your eyes
When you're about to cry I know why
I can feel the pain in your tears
all of your secrets and fears

when you cry, it's a storm w/ Qawi Kamri (Prod. TRA$H)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

cet album est pour toi

where were you when i was down, bleedin on the floor
where were you when i was lonely, barely breathin needing more
where were you when i was knocking, i was screaming at deaths door
where were you when i was drowning i can't take this anymore

fears control my life i swear ill end it give me time
fears control my actions make me blind
fears control my life i swear ill end it give me time
fears control my actions make me blind (woah)

from the sunset on the western coast to the never-ending sea
the devil on my shoulder tells me i'll never be free

i am a person i hurt like the rest of you
i am a person i hurt like the rest of you
fuck over anyone bestn u testn u 
they gonna see when u see it thru

where were you when i was down, bleedin on the floor
where were you when i was lonely, barely breathin needing more
where were you when i was knocking, i was screaming at deaths door
where were you when i was drowning i can't take this anymore

fears control my life i swear ill end it give me time
fears control my actions make me blind
fears control my life i swear ill end it give me time
fears control my actions make me blind (woah)

sage's memory

prod. @antongxldn & @produnown

Today I turned 19 and I'm still lost af tbh.

P.S. You're Dead To Me

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

prod. notmorgn

cover art by: @fixedfortommy and guccihighwaters

here’s a love song for you
another dumb song
for you

i been feeling fucked up
but i’m the only one sober
but i’d pop one to ‘cause
i’m afraid to grow older

you’re so bad
so bad for me
i’m so glad
glad you ran from me
and i see your horns
will you dance?
yeah dance around me
you dance around me

you’re so bad
so bad for me
i’m so glad
glad you ran from me
and i see your horns
will you dance?
yeah dance around me
you dance around me

it's getting bad again (prod. lil biscuit)

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