Lyrics:


Maybe we’re meant to be on an island out at sea
Our eyes touch and then we meet
I dream of you
Maybe we’re meant to see everybody when we meet
Right then and only then
I see you through 

Through … you … 

Maybe we’re meant to leave in the silence of our sleep
Our eyes shut and then we leave
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A B C to Z, every letter has to mean
Something more than… something more than…
Something more than… (you)

You… you...

You got me to play but I won’t stay
You got me to say what I won’t say
I can’t complain, no (I’m just great)
You got me to throw my life away 

You got me to play but I won’t stay
You got me to say what I won’t say
It's hard to explain and concentrate 
You got me to slowly evaporate




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Music composed and recorded by Sebastian Ruiz
Produced by Sebastian Ruiz and Coleman Cashiola 
Mixed by Dylan Aydar and Sebastian Ruiz 
Mastered by Miguel Martinez 
Cover art by Quinn Kelly
Special thanks to Justin Yu

Pyramids

Deaf Dreamer was the first song Sebastian Ruiz wrote when he started making music in his adolesce. From what started as a bedroom recording project to now an official band, Deaf Dreamer comes out with "Pyramids", the lead single from the new up and coming EP titled " IT'S BETTER HERE THAN IN THE DARK " out September 22, 2023. 

What started as a conversation on the internet lead to the start of an actual live band. “ITS BETTER HERE THAN IN THE DARK” is an attempt to capture the start of the Deaf Dreamer live band and is an homage to a deep love/nostalgia that surrounds similar music taste amongst friends. The EP is a DIY home recording project done by Deaf Dreamer. Tracked in the basement of a 100 year old home in Portland, Oregon this EP marks the start of a new chapter in the group’s career. What once was a singular artist is now a tribe embarking on the start of their musical journey.

Spirit Guides

Something Serious

Lyrics:

Maybe I’ll just sleep
Sleep away in peace
Til' the morning creeps
Creeps up in my dreams
Maybe I should eat
Something more than me
A momentary scene
But somehow it repeats

You'll know, you'll know, you'll know the signs
They'll show, show, show you a light
That goes, and goes, and goes in the night
When all the stars become aligned
You'll know, you'll know, you'll know the signs
They'll show, show, show you a light
That goes, and goes, and goes in the night
When all the stars become aligned

Time is taking it's toll on your soul
You'll notice that you're not in control
And you thought you wanted
Everything that you've known
But It's all forgotten
Now it's all that you owe so here I am
Oh my friend, oh my friend
It's the end
Oh my friend, oh my friend
It's the end

You'll know, you'll know, you'll know the signs
They'll show, show, show you a light
That goes, and goes, and goes in the night
When all the stars become aligned

...

You'll know, you'll know, you'll know the signs
They'll show, show, show you a light
That goes, and goes, and goes in the night
When all the stars become aligned
You'll know, you'll know, you'll know the signs
They'll show, show, show you a light
That goes, and goes, and goes in the night
When all the stars become aligned

Written by Sebastian Ruiz & Coleman Cashiola

Blood Orange

Pondering

Lyrics:

She's falling asleep
in my arms tonight
she's stuck in a dream
she's searching for the light
& i don't know why
i can't get her off my mind

her eyes would say the strangest things to me
her love is all i really need to be.

it starts with a smile
that's always how it seems
so i'll be your fire
as long as you know when to put me out
i've never been higher
than when i'm with you on your cloud

her eyes would say the strangest things to me
her love is all i really need to be.

please notice me
i've been so lonely
baby i see
just what you need

her eyes would say the strangest things to me
her love is all i ever really need to be.

Written, recorded, produced, mixed by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer).

Cover art by Geo Salazar.

1/18/18

Lyrics:

look in the mirror 
who do you see?
i see a stranger 
that looks just like me 

please don't leave
i need you here
i'm not that wise
i live in fear

what is your purpose?
why am i here?
i'm losing focus 
it slowly disappears 
i can't control this
what i feel
slow down 
and pull me out

please don't leave
i need you here
i'm not that wise 
i need more years
please don't go
i need to know
how to go on
by myself
 
i've changed so much
yet have stayed the same 
and i hate myself 
for lying to you
and i blame myself
for the mistakes i've made
i tried to find my mind
my mind?
and i lie 
when i cry, i sigh all day
but today. im not awake
today, im not awake today.

something serious (demo)

Buy/Stream:  http://smarturl.it/beachsex
Official Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHMsYQOyfXM

Lyrics:

Wake up to the sounds of now 
maybe you and I should meet 
in a place that's so far out
 let's pretend we fell asleep

Let's sneak out tonight 
& forget about our lives
Let's sneak out tonight 
& forget about our lives

Won't you hold my hand? 
we'll play along the sand 
no one knows our plan
 the morning light has eyes

Let's sneak out tonight 
& forget about our lives 
we don't have much time
 so let's enjoy our high

Let's sneak out tonight 
& forget about our lives 
we never had it right, no 
 we never had it right

Let's sneak out tonight 
& forget about our lives
 Let's forget out our lives

Written, produced, & recorded by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer)

beach sex

Lyrics:

never did you’d think you’d find a way
to make it out alive and plan your escape
it’s 4am and we’re wide awake
today.
waiting on luck from a shooting star
praying out loud and from the heart
you never ever thought you’d go this far
without...

ignoring who you are
living through a mental cage
forgetting what’s most important to you

it’s so hard to choose
the words to say to you
all i wanna do with you is venture through the night (“hi.”)

skipping all the steps that you won’t regret
finding out a way different from what they said
make your own mark even if you’ve shed a tear
never did you’d think you’d find a way
to make it out alive and plan your escape
it’s 4am and we’re wide awake
today.

death is not your fear (no)
if your mind is clear of
all the evil thoughts
that haunt you when you’re lost

it’s so hard to choose
the words to say to you
all i wanna do with you is venture through the night (“hi.”)
​
Written, recorded, produced, & performed by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer)

venture

Lyrics:

drive til you can't see the lights
fly til you've opened your mind
up to the sky
where there's no one in sight
you're lost in the clouds
& your life is a lie.

oh i've been so lost in myself
i can't remember
why i said that shit
i take back my whole life

hide from your lonely heart
cry, i know it's hard
but you gotta get through
i know you'll get through
relief is coming
coming soon...
you're waiting for something but it's taking it's time
you're losing your patience, you're losing your mind.

oh i've been so lost in myself
i can't remember
why i said that shit
i take back my whole life

Written, recorded, produced, & performed by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer) & Cristian Moreno (KOKIO/Tokyo Thrift) in June 2017.

lost in myself (demo)

Lyrics:

everyday I think of you
memories fade, there's something new
never thought I'd wait again
but I don't know if you will too

i'm waiting again
i'm off in my head
but I pretend 
that I'm always fine

i guess 
i'm fine
truth is
i lie 
i guess
my life
is the same 
as anybody else's

nothing lasts 
like it's meant to be
it's understood 
so hopelessly  
my eyes deceive me
there's no surprise 
cuz in the end 
we're all the same
human life 
is so strange 
i don't know when it will change 
hoping sooner
better than late

so I'm waiting again 
this time instead 
of lying again 
to myself, that I'm fine

i guess
that's life
unknown 
through my eyes
i'm blessed
i'm fine 
something just ain't right 
i guess 
i'm fine 
i guess 
that's life
i guess
that's life 
i guess that's just my life

woah...

Written, recorded, produced, & performed by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer)

i guess (demo)

Lyrics:

i don't know what's about to happen 
and i don't if i can understand it

interest of time (interlude)

Lyrics:

Watching people take their time
Self-dissolving from 9 - 5
Somewhere else where they can’t be
Distracts them from being free

How much longer until I go ask for help?
How much further am I away from hell?
Well…

I don’t know
What I want
From you right now
Maybe if I take a step
Take a step backwards and out of my head
My perception is all I’ve said
You can still feel differently 

How much longer until I go ask for help?
How much further am I away from hell?
Well…

The happening is happening right now
I’m tryna tell you how I feel right now
How…

How much longer until I go ask for help?
How much further am I away from hell?
Well…
How much longer until I think for myself?
How much longer until I’m not overwhelmed?
Help!

Written, recorded, & produced by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer).

the happening is happening right now(demo)

Deaf Dreamer - “libra moon” (prod. Deaf Dreamer)

Lyrics:

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night 
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions on through the night

When you stare
It makes me feel so comfortable 
In your eyes I see myself
All the time
Anytime you need a sign to be reassured 
I’ll find a way to give my love
In a different way
If it’s not enough to change your mind

It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides
You’re the one who decides

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night 
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions on through the night

It’s up to you to tell the truth
Don’t be afraid, afraid to say
What you want to my face
I’ll understand you either way

It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides
You’re the one who decides

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night 
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions on through the night

Close the door
Ignore the chore
You’re my amor
That I adore
Close the door
Ignore the chore
You’re my amor
That I adore

Written, recorded, & produced by Sebastian Ruiz (Deaf Dreamer).

libra moon

Lyrics:

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on Mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions gone through the night

When you stare
It makes me feel so comfortable
In your eyes, I see myself all the time
Anytime you need a sign to be reassured
I’ll find a way to give my love in a different way
If it’s not enough to change your mind
It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides
It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on Mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions gone through the night

It’s up to you to tell the truth
Don’t be afraid, afraid to say
What you want to my face
I’ll understand you either way
It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides
It’s your life
In your mind
You’re the one who decides

Did you bring the alcohol?
We’ll see ourselves from a waterfall
Coming down, with the tide
Running wild on through the night
I’m picking up an ounce tonight
Let’s smoke some later so bring your light
High on Mars, we’ve taken flight
Ascending visions gone through the night

Close the door
Ignore the chore
You’re my amor
Who i adore
Close the door
Ignore the chore
You’re my amor
Who i adore

wyd?

Libra Moon

Lyrics:

Open your eyes up
To see the stars
You can’t tell no one
Where we are
If you feel something
Don’t question why
Cause all of our dreams are coming to life

I spend my life
Growing older
But feels like I’m
Getting nowhere

I’m always ahead of
What i would say
The moment is passing
It's fading away
So I just accept it
And ride on the wave
It’s all up to me now
If I still wanna change

I spend my life
Growing older
But waste my time
Getting nowhere
I spend my life
Growing older
But waste my time
Getting nowhere

I spend my life
Growing older
And feels like I'm
Turning over
And all the signs
Are getting closer
So I won't wait
When going nowhere

I spend my life
Growing older
But waste my time
Getting nowhere
I spend my life
Growing older
But waste my time
Getting nowhere

Space.WAV

Official Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHMsYQOyfXM

Lyrics:

Wake up to the sounds of now
Maybe you and I should meet
In a place that's so far out
Let's pretend we fell asleep

Let's sneak out tonight
And forget about our lives
Let's sneak out tonight
And forget about our lives

Won't you hold my hand?
We'll play along the sand
No one knows our plan
The morning light has eyes, eyes

Let's sneak out tonight
And forget about our lives
We don't have much time
So let's enjoy our high

Let's sneak out tonight
And forget about our lives
We never had it right, no
We never had it right
Let's sneak out tonight
And forget about our lives
Let's forget out our lives

Beach Sex

Lyrics:

You never have to feel alone
Just hit me up to go and smoke
And talk about the things we want
But yet they never seem to come

Hello, welcome to my world
Woah, it's going in swirls
I know it hurts letting go
Of you my dear

I'll let you know when I'm okay
Cuz I don't want to live like this
Without your kiss upon my lips
I feel like I just don't exist

Take me back to when we knew
How it felt to find ourselves
By the water from our dreams
It's hard to tell what all this means

I'll keep your secrets safe with me
I trust in you as equally
Don't doubt the bliss when feeling this
Emotion to reminisce

Hello, welcome to my world
Woah, it's going in swirls
I know it hurts letting go
Of you my dear

I'll let you know when I'm okay
Cuz I don't want to live like this
Without your kiss upon my lips
I feel like I just don't exist
I'll keep your secrets safe with me
I trust in you as equally
Don't doubt the bliss when feeling this
Emotion to reminisce

Lyrics:

I know that i can be a dick sometimes but i’m not like that
It’s hard to let shit go when all i do is mourn the past
And i forgot the way i used to feel when i’d hold your hand
And now i’m looking back, i’m looking back to try and understand

Where it all went wrong
And how much it's changed me
Into someone i’m not
Now i’m going crazy
I knew all along that
You couldn’t save me
We just don’t belong
With each other baby

Oh no,,,

Watching it burn
It fucking hurts
But it’s what i deserve
For being the worst
I can see now why i’m concerned
I can see how i treated her

Disco light on the walls tonight
Allure me in to the freshest sight
Of your perfect smile
And your diamond eyes
Your twisted kiss is a dream of mine
I fantasize every day and night
What could have been if i’d acted right
But never mind i’ll stay away
Please wake me up from this dream of mine

Prom Dress

Lyrics:

I'm losing touch
I don't care enough
Awaiting with patience
For my time to come
I'm emotionally fucked
I don't need a hug
I just need someone, someone I can trust

I'm stoned out of my mind
Been searching for paradise
Confused between wrong and right
Just help me find the light, yeah

You know that I
Won't fly as high
As you someday
And that's fine with me
We can't go back
And change the past
We're here right now
And we're moving fast

I don't know what happened
But I guess the reason might be something tragic
That's what I imagine
Cause all of my demons
Keep taking advantage
Of what I can't manage
That's just shit that happens

I'm stoned out of my mind
Been searching for paradise
Confused between wrong and right
Just help me find the light, yeah

You know that I
Won't fly as high
As you someday
And that's fine with me
We can't go back
And change the past
We're here right now
And we're moving fast

Oh, I wanna go home
I wanna go home
I wanna go home
Home, I wanna go home
I wanna go home
I wanna go home

lonely ALIEN

Lyrics:

I'm getting faded alone
I never made it back home
And I been trying to call you but you won't check your phone
If you're not in love, just say so

I've been wasting so much time
Overthinking my replies
Just to find you full of lies
Oh well, whatever, never mind now...

Am I getting wasted?
Don't know
Cause I can't taste it
No more
Now I'm slumped on the floor
Because my mind is at war
With the heart I ignore out of fear

I've been wasting so much time
Overthinking my replies
What do you have left to hide
That will burn me from the inside?

Now I feel nothing cause I've thought of a way
Now I feel nothing cause I'm stuck in a daze
I wanna feel something cause I'm never the same
I'm never the same now, I'm never the same these days

I've been wasting so much time
Overthinking my replies
Just to find you full of lies
Oh well, whatever, never mind
Take me back to shoreline drive
I have missed you all this time
You're the reason why I was high
You're the reason why I'm high now

shoreline drive

Lyrics;

You keep on hoping
That the doors will all open
But you've already closed them just by being afraid
You're overrun with emotions
And you're out in the open
Keep claiming you know shit that you still can't explain

I need a reason to keep going
Fell in love and now I'm broken
I'm just waiting for the moment
For someone to come and save
The part of me that has been chosen
I just gotta learn to own it
Cause no one out there will ever do it for me anyway

When you party alone and you're thinking about ending it
When you die
You would never had known if you never had tried sending it
Take the dive

I blame my sadness for what never happened
Won't let it hold me from turning to black, I won't
Now I'm surrounded, I'm lost in the madness
What we can't change isn't made to be safe, no

When you party alone and you're thinking about ending it
When you die
You would never had known if you never had tried sending it
Take the dive
Checking the floor for your feelings about what I said
It's you and I
I wanted more but I'm not that adored in the end
Suicide

(transition)

It doesn't matter now
The world is falling down
And we all know it now
So give yourself a try
You wouldn't wanna die
Without you knowing why

I died?
Without a reason to life my life so
It'll happen to you
It'll happen to me
We're bound together through eternity, yeah

It's really no surprise
The look is in your eyes
And it's still glowing bright
Now you wonder why
You couldn't fucking try your best
So do it now

What are you doing?
What are you doing?
What are you doing
With your life now?
What are you doing?
What are you doing?
What are you doing
With your life now?

Lyrics:

whatever you want them to be

Performed, arranged, produced, mixed, & mastered by the mysterious Sebastian Antonio Ruiz.

Thank you for listening <3

Deaf Dreamer

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