you said “in the grand scheme of things
six months isn’t a long time”
well I guess you’re right
because you’re always right
so I stopped waiting up to hear from you
and counting down the days until December
I forgot your birthday
but while you blew out the candles
I missed you in the worst way
you said

"hey kid I love you but I don’t have time"
you kissed my forehead when you said goodbye
and the whole ride home
I screamed what I should have said

I said “in the grand scheme of things
two years isn’t a long time”
well I guess I lied
because I’m collecting dust
in the places you don’t touch me
oh, I don’t want you to go
you know you’ve always been my real hero
that’s when I knew you loved me
when you killed me
but didn’t bury my body
you said

"hey kid, I love you but I just can’t fight"
you threw down your sword
your flag was white
and the whole ride home
I screamed what I should have said
this is what I should have said

I remember the back seats
and the sore knees
and you talking in your sleep
til your pocketwatch said you had to go home
and I remember the starlight
and the movies
we were drifting
we were laughing
and the radio said
"please don’t stop me now"
please don’t stop us now

dearalexandra