Lyrics:

Dig your nails in my back hearing you beg
Said you cant get enough
Love the taste of your blood biting your neck
Show me how much you can take
Push you to the edge, my tongue cuts in like its a knife
There's no need to hold back cause my lips give you the breath of life

Feel the negative presence when you're here
But I cant get enough
Waking up from a dream to a nightmare
Don't know how much I can take
Push me to the edge, lets take our time to redefine our fate
I don't know if we should stop, our lives are always put at stake

Woah
Woah
You wrapped around inside my head and now I cant let go
You pushed me to the other side I've fallen so below
You wrapped around inside my head and now I cant let go
Your pretty face wanted me dead
This time you'll be alone

Dig your nails in my back hearing you beg
Said you cant get enough
Love the taste of your blood biting your neck
Show me how much you can take
Push you to the edge, my tongue cuts in like its a knife
There's no need to hold back cause my lips give you the breath of life

Feel the negative presence when you're here
But I cant get enough
Waking up from a dream to a nightmare
Don't know how much I can take
Push me to the edge, lets take our time to redefine our fate
I don't know if we should stop, our lives are always put at stake

Woah
Woah
Woah
Woah, oh

take

Disease

Lyrics:

Made my mistakes
While you would watch
Me burn, and burn
But i love the thought
The thought of us
I cant turn, cant turn away
Why wont you stay
If there's nothing to change
I cant take, the pain away
One more mistake
Straight to my brain
All the memories of just you and me

Your too hard to tame
So I dug my grave
For you
Maybe I'm to blame
For all of our pain
Its eating my alive

Cause I made my mistakes
While you would watch
Me burn, and burn
But I love the thought
The thought of us
I cant change, can't change cause I

Made my mistakes
While you would watch
Me burn, and burn but I
I love the thought
The thought of us
I cant turn, cant turn so why
Why wont you stay
If there's nothing to change
I cant take, the pain
One more mistake
Straight to my brain
All the memories of just you and me

mistakes

Lyrics:

You wanna say it to my face while you cover my ears
But all your words mean nothing to me sorry my dear
Oh sorry my dear

You wanna say it to my face while you cover my ears
While you cover my ears
But all your words mean nothing to me sorry my dear
Oh sorry my dear
When you hold me, you take all my fears
Every time you told me, it wasn't ever clear
Oh I must have been, out of my head
Cause I can't see no one else, putting up with your shit

You were better off dead
Dead
Like a whisper, only hear you through my friends
I'm
Full of emotions, I can't make it to the end
Coming closer to my end
Wish to get you out my head

You wanna say it to my face while you cover my ears
While you cover my ears
But all your words mean nothing to me sorry my dear
Oh sorry my dear

You wanna say it to my face while you cover my ears
While you cover my ears
But all your words mean nothing to me sorry my dear
Oh sorry my dear
When you hold me, you take all my fears
Every time you told me, it wasn't ever clear
Oh I must have been, out of my head
Cause I can't see no one else, putting up with your shit

Better off dead
While you cover my ears
Putting up with your shit
Oh sorry my dear
When you hold me, you take all my fears
Every time you told me, it wasn't ever clear
Oh I must have been, out of my head
Cause I can't see no one else, putting up with your shit

sayittomyface

Lyrics:

If you want something to change you could start a call
Now you know I'm on my way bring the alcohol
Take it to another stage smashing out the walls
I'm breaking everything around cause I don't care at all
I care so much it made me bleed
I spilled so much down to my knees
Wont catch me begging, I wont plead
Think I'm in need of some relief

Asking if I'd ever change, told her not at all
I swear I'll always be the same cause I'm an asshole
And yeah I'll say it to your face cause I'm not scared of ya
Not afraid to take the blame, have you had enough

Made me bleed
Down to my knees
I wont plead
For some relief

I think I owe myself some relief
Spent all my time, crawling up from beneath

If you want something to change you could start a call
Now you know I'm on my way bring the alcohol
Take it to another stage smashing out the walls
I'm breaking everything around cause I don't care at all
I care so much it made me bleed
I spilled so much down to my knees
Wont catch me begging, I wont plead
Think I'm in need of some relief

Start a call
Out the walls
Uh
Out the wall
I don't care at all
Made me bleed
Down to my knees
I wont plead
For some relief

breaking point

Is There Something I Can Say

DEATHGOD ALBUM 'This Fire Burns Inside Of Me' is out Friday 7th November 2025 on: TikTok, Apple Music, YouTube Music, Spotify, Napster, Deezer, Amazon Music, Yandex, VK.

DEATHGOD is:

Matt "Gareth" Shadows (Vocals, Keys, Guitar)
Synyster "Brian" Gates (Guitar, Vocals, Strings)
Zack "Ariyus" Vengeance (Guitar, Vocals)
Jonny "John" Christ (Bass, Drums)
Dameon "Salem" Ash (Bass, Keys)
Reverend "Tholamew" Plague (Drums, Vocals)
DJ "Steven" Cymatics (Synths, Pads, Turntables)

Ian, Sanders, Tuck, Heafy, Corey T, Shady, Amy and Shinoda are 8 of my best friends and the guilt that falls on them is a shame. "Guilty by association"?

The idiot "M. Sanders" in the fake Avenged Sevenfold is a cheap clone. I said to him, "Stand down, place your mother by your side, she's our whore, in the end, you'll surely lose and that's alright!". I told "Matt Tuck" to "Tuck into his tuck box" and I called "Mike Shinoda", "Odour of the Shin". I told "Bonnie Fraser, I'll f**k her after she's dead, and then I don't need living lovers, and then they can't make me cry". Little black Timmy gives me injections and I don't like it. I told Eminem, "You owe me a million for cutting the tree down. Talk to the green wall, it's God, isn't it?". I told "Ian Watkins", I'd visit him in prison because I still think he was framed and that's where 'Nightmare' began. I called "Corey Taylor", "Curry faced tailor", and I called Matt Heafy, "Heafew"? I think knot. I hope we can get past that. You are family and friends. I called Amy Lee, "Evan's essence"? Love you all really. You don't love us. Love is evil.

The DEATHGOD band quit Avenged Sevenfold after Waking the Fallen returned for Nightmare and left again. It's a common myth that we're American but we're English. This war will be the end of everything and good. This war will be final. This war will be mine. Sign my music already. I'm broke. Where butterflies make hurricanes moments fall away like waterfalls. I like to go by the name of Prince Matthew Addison, Justin Parker Valentine, Kris Redfield, Em and Sinister. Some of you knew me as Vesper Way and I used to call myself Orpheus. This is DEATHGOD, the sequel to Vesper Way. This is new. This is for you! I am a writer, musician and film maker, metaphysicist, cosmologist, philosopher, ontologist and an armed forces commander and have done this myself on negative zero. This is a massive noise project of a return to music we used to do from some small rooms. I am a lyricist, vocalist, guitarist, keyboardist, arranger, mixer, producer, engineer, composer, writer, actor, coder and video artist.

Everything on here I did myself over the past 5 or 6 months whilst locked in a room and forced to take 2000mg of Lithium a night and Depoxil Palliperidone injections so you can hear my noise and see my journey through portal 666. Well that's a lie. It took me 19 years but being sectioned to an acute psychiatric ward was a fucked up kind of hell. I was so gone. This is for you! We're all prisoner in the UK that was once known as Great Britain whilst King Charles and Queen Camilla think we're all going to die before them. Where butterflies make hurricanes moments fall away like waterfalls. Where dreams are reality and realities are a question of dreams, the answer is only a question of you.

​​I don't believe in humanity. We're either angels or animals, we're angels fallen from the stars, they're animals. God save us all. A name is a name. I can't help the name my bastard father put on a birth certificate when I was born after he raped my mother to get her pregnant. Oliver, I hope you get better. They can't know, judge or tell whom someone is by three null words they call a name. What is law but a three letter word? They put biotechnology into my body so that they can clock my every move by neurological computation and basically when you find me dead it's murder by infliction of suicide. I'm not a robot. Don't blindly believe everything you're told as if I don't have a hundred thousand dangerous bastards out to kill me. I'm DEATHGOD. If I die tomorrow, the only thing I'll regret is dieing! So go on and celebrate, because there is a Heaven and a Hell, and I'd like to believe when I die I'll ascend to Heaven and cause transcenscion, but I don't think I'm going to Heaven this time. This is for all of you that fight for me. I won't see you tonight.

To those that believe the terrorists of the NHS, the Council, the Government, the Police and the Crown that like to treat me like I’m nothing at all, please don’t eat up the bullshit about me, that mentally ill Nazi police like Kate Freeman Fox do, to think that they can continually harass me about 'mental health problems', detain me illegally, rape me and then have the nerve to ask more of me. Two weeks ago, "Sorry that broke your little chrome heart," is what they said to me and they said Sarah Boon killed herself 15 years ago when the whole time I thought she was just ignoring me. In a memory lost to time I committed no crime and it did break my little chrome heart. I don't know if she killed herself or if she was murdered but we'll get revenge. I don't ever show my tears but I've never cried like this before. Love you, Bonnie. Do you remember? Where the fuck are you? There are 46 territories in the United Kingdom (Great Britain) now. Colonial civil war ravages the social structure as we speak. We all started human but that has changed because of Half-Life and Resident Evil. Passports and bank accounts are useless now. There's no way in and no way out. I still stand for the Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament but let's be realistic. I was in bomb disposal in the armed forces having to cut wires to disarm detonators, it's why my hands just start shaking. Go to war to make peace? That's not the answer. This is a cold and lonely place to die, and I'm not okay. Check out the page called Cinema for a series of 25 music videos in the form of a film of me and Sarah of events that all actually ocurred.

Shout out to Stand Atlantic, Paramore, Parkway Drive, Oliver Sykes, Ryan Star, Evanescence, Enter Shikari, Avenged Sevenfold, Trivium, Slipknot, Pendulum and Linkin Park.​ I've been through a lot of hell and it made me look to the light. I pour my rage, hate, love, sorrow, faith, hopelessness and hope into my sounds. I'm okay I guess, going through a lot of things idiots in this idiot country called England will never understand. I am an English prince that is second in line to the throne and they're still calling me a half cast. Thank you to everyone that helps me through this. It's not easy being the one, understand. Trust me. Raise your hand and taste the courage.

If any of you ever want to talk to me just email me at: kris@deathgodcom.com

Thank you so much for taking the time to listen and thanks for the support, it means a lot. Thanks so much for every hit, every moment, all the love and all the nightmares that make me know the difference between Heaven and Hell. Let me tell you, it's taken me 25 years to get to this point since I first got into making music and I can't wait to put a band together again and take it live (if I ever know how to memorise my words). The show won't be in Tokyo. Alias. 24.​​ 15 years has been an incredible journey of amazing moments and hell and consequences. It's going to be really amazing when I figure out how to take it to live venues. I'm really pleased that my music does good things for people going through a similar kind of hell that I have been through. Music is a gift. I never dreamed of being a musician but it just comes naturally to me. If you want to do it just do it. You have to work at it every day and night and push yourself to your limits and think outside of the box. Don't see yourself as a person. See yourself as a Heaven sent instrument with the power to change what happens by changing yourself to change the ending of everything.

I'll tell you something else. When I was 15 I was just studying maths, physics and computer engineering at university in London, UK. I'd played keyboard when I was a kid and I was a guitarist and vocalist since I was 14 years old but I’d never produced. One day I was at my friends dorm room when we were 18 and he showed me Logic Pro and I asked him if I could have an hour in his room to see what I could do, and I don't know what I made but he thought it was terrible and I took that personally because I’d never used OSX before and I did something that had never been done before in keyboard portamento. In fact in the same room I designed the CPU they used for the PS4 and he stole my design. I'd never used anything like Logic Pro before, I’d only used Audacity, Acoustica Mixcraft and Guitar Pro. Yet as the months of that year progressed I stopped going to my lectures and started making tracks and it got really phenomenal.​ I found I could do things with guitars and keyboards and microphones that I never imagined. I made loads of tracks that year 2010 - 2011 but I was never satisfied because the same idiot kept telling me the tracks weren't good enough, so I kept pushing the threshold. Something tragic and what the hell happened on my 21st birthday, April 2011, someone called Sarah committed suicide or was murdered, I was the last person she spoke to and the next day I woke up in a psychiatric ward that was pretty much like the end of ‘The Butterfly Effect’ crossed with ‘Silent Hill’ the J-Horror original, and maybe it was, but I wasn’t an actor. By the time I got 'home' from there, ('home' being a detainment cell I worked to earn) my memory was gone and I completely forgot about it all. A couple of years later I found all the tracks and started putting a compilation together that I just finished off turning into an album yesterday (23rd of October 2025). So, the story went, I went beyond the grave to save a friend who committed suicide and found out that everything wasn't quite as it seemed. Wait, this isn't my first life, I realised. I want to believe in myself and in you and in what I know happened and I know it is real, it's just I feel it all fall away from me. I looked into Chaos Theory and Death Magic to see how to manipulate life and death so I wouldn't lose her. I composed a theorem called ‘The ‘Absence of Linearity’ to cause cosmological unexistance and it worked but what happened lies beyond the possibilities of the human mind. I didn’t want to die, so cold and alone here.​ Forgive me, my love. I know I was bad to let you suffer when suddenly they all wanted me bleeding and screaming. I fought for you. I finished composing 'Unexistance' to end myself because I was tired and broken and I couldn't find anyone and ended up somewhere where time stood still and my screaming was all the ears of the dead could hear. I was taken to an acute psychiatric ward and it was a fucked up kind of hell. I made it back to here wherever the hell here is earlier this year and this is what I've done so far. Thanks.
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​"I know you're right here. Why do you seem worlds away?".
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Check out the Soundcloud for all the demos from May 2025 to now @ www.soundcloud.com/deathgod1. Please comment and subscribe. It's free. My first single in 5 years is out now on Apple Music and iTunes and Spotify as:

Artist: DEATHGOD
Song: Keep Me In A Memory
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Thanks to everyone that does the right thing and fights back against the oppression reigning down. We have one chance to save everything. This doesn’t happen twice, probably.​


I'm M. Shadows. I'm sorry that I lost my mind trying to solve how to use the butterfly effect known as chaos theory to kill myself because I always die but it always continues anyway. For some fucking reason, it rewinds all the way and then I get stuck somewhere for millions of years. Some bastard told everyone I were Ian from LOSTPROPHETS and I get annihilated by whoever believed them. It's fucked up. There's another Ian Watkins, Ian 'H' Watkins from that 90's cheese band, 'Steps', and that my friends is not just slander but liable too. Dreams have reality. Dreams have laws too, doesn't mean police can act like they are above the laws they are paid to uphold. M.

Is There Something I Can Say

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