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For Stephen Sims, 'Better' is a personal song about coming to terms with his sexuality and the anxiety/fear of not knowing how others may react. There may be tough times ahead but things will certainly get better!

Lyrics:
All these emotions yeah they're mixed up inside
I don't know what to do and I cannot hide
It's there and its inside of me
Being honest it always comes with hurt
Being honest has always left me in the dirt
But that's wrong
I gotta feel, I gotta feel, I gotta feel my truth
I gotta live, I gotta live, I gotta live my youth
I gotta find myself

Cause it gets better
If I could tell that other person
It gets better
Now don't be hard upon yourself
Cause you're no lesser
Questioning the road ahead but you are meant to
Obstacles that you now face
Yeah, they're a lesson
It gets better
It gets better

Have you ever been on very edge falling down
There's secret that's deep inside
How will it get out
If I could take to my former self
I'd ask him why
Are you scared
These people will test but they are not friends
Being honest it always comes with it hurt
Being honest has always left me in the dirt
But thats wrong
I gotta feel, I gotta feel, I gotta feel my truth
I gotta live, I gotta live, I gotta live my youth
I gotta find myself

Cause it gets better
If I could tell that other person
It gets better
Now don't be hard upon yourself
Cause you're no lesser
Questioning the road ahead but you are meant to
Obstacles that you now face
Yeah, they're a lesson
It gets better
It gets better

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Credits: 
Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Better

Better (feat. Stephen Sims)

'24 Hr Love' is a song about spending one amazingly, romantic night with someone you've just met. Was it just a one night stand or something more?

Lyrics:
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, oh oh
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, more more

When the party has ended
And all the lights are on
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?

Why am I feeling so jaded
Like I never was, or I’d never been
To you, I’m not a memory

I’m sorry but I just can’t take it
I know I only saw you one time
One look and I am broken hearted
I’m infatuated, is it a crime?

Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, oh oh
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, more more

After thinking it over
I was thinking it through
I gotta move on
But it feels wrong

It's so distorted
Like a distant dream
In real time
I gotta wake and realise, oh

Im sorry but I just can’t take it
I know I only saw you one time
One look and I am broken hearted
I’m infatuated, is it a crime?

Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, oh oh
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, more more

These two worlds they’re apart, oh oh
These two worlds they’re apart
Two worlds apart 24 hr love, yeah
Two worlds apart I'm wanting you more
And more and more and more

Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, oh oh
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, more more

Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, oh oh
Two worlds apart 24 hr love
I am wanting it more, more more

Two worlds apart
I’m wanting it more, more
Two worlds apart
I am wanting it more
Two worlds apart
and I am wanting it more, yeah

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

24 Hr Love

24 Hr Love (feat. Stephen Sims)

Available on Bandcamp and all major streaming platforms 11/26/2021

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'Make Myself Suffer' is a song about the pain of realizing a relationship is doomed to fail.

Lyrics:

Misguided, undecided
I guess it’s time to admit and walk the line
No oh, no oh, no oh
I point the finger now wherever I choose
In the end it will be me that will lose
That I know, yeah that I know

Why do I make myself suffer?
Why do I make it so hard?

Forgive and forget it’s always easy
I’ve heard sorry so many times now don’t speak
Bite your tongue, oh look what you’ve done
Why is it got to be so reckless and beautiful?
Stay in this relationship and we will fall
That ain’t good enough, oh we’re more than that

Why do I make myself suffer?
Why do I make it so hard?

Why do I make myself suffer?
Why do you make it so hard?
Why do I make myself suffer?
Why do you make it so hard?

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Guitar by Dave Maverick
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Make Myself Suffer

Make Myself Suffer (feat. Stephen Sims & Dave Maverick)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/decadedefectorandstephensims/here-comes-the-rain

Lyrics:

Here comes the rain to wash away the pain
All the torment each and every day
Here comes the rain cascading over me
It is cleansing my dishonesty

Two years I have wasted
Now I feel like a fraud
I’m guilty of acting the part
That I can’t play no more
Tell me, who decided
That I’ve gotta live this life
No, I don’t wanna hurt you
But I’m doing it by your side

Smoke and mirrors define this
Projected hologram that
I’ve turned into, don’t deny it
See the storm come

Here comes the rain to wash away the pain
All the torment each and every day
Here comes the rain cascading over me
It is cleansing my dishonesty

I don’t wanna say that I deceived you
I can’t admit my faults
Occasions when we were closer
I thought I had it all
I don’t have any pathetic answers
I wish I could give you more
I feel so numb, to my core

Smoke and mirrors define this
Projected hologram that
I’ve turned into, don’t deny it
See the storm come

Here comes the rain to wash away the pain
All the torment each and every day
Here comes the rain cascading over me
It is cleansing my dishonesty

Here comes the
Here comes the
Here comes the rain

Here comes the rain to wash away the pain
All the torment each and every day
Here comes the rain cascading over me
It is cleansing my dishonesty
Here comes the rain to wash away the pain
All the torment each and every day
Here comes the rain cascading over me
Here comes the rain

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Here Comes The Rain

Here Comes The Rain (feat. Stephen Sims)

Lyrics:

Oh, Oh Insomnia
Oh, Oh Insomnia

Yesterday I was falling
Now I'm crawling the walls with you
Hypnotic desires
To the wayside now they're blue

Rush of electricity
Calm this storm inside

Insomnia
Has got a hold on me
I don't know if I love ya
Or if I wanna leave
Insomnia
But then I can't resist
Is it right or wrong to lead a life like this?

Am I coming or going?
And will it be solo?
No simple sign of direction
No simple sign of hope

Rush of electricity
Calm this storm inside

Insomnia
Has got a hold on me
I don't know if I love ya
Or if I wanna leave
Insomnia
But then I can't resist
Is it right or wrong to lead a life like this?

My friends keep telling me that I made a mistake
I guess that's what they say is too little too late
A contradiction but it feels good when it hurts
Should I stick it out if it never even works?

Insomnia
Has got a hold on me
I don't know if I love ya
Or if I wanna leave

Insomnia
But then I can't resist
Is it right or wrong to lead a life like this?

Insomnia
Has got a hold on me
I don't know if I love ya
Or if I wanna leave

Insomnia
But then I can't resist
Is it right or wrong to lead a life like this?

Insomnia
But then I can't resist
Is it right or wrong to lead a life like this?

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Insomnia

Insomnia (feat. Stephen Sims)

A song meant for deep reflection while cruising under moonlight on back country roads.

Check out the music video here:
youtu.be/0gKLylIEhSM

Available via TimeSlave Recordings:
https://timeslaves.bandcamp.com/album/fear-the-future-vol-2-enter-the-void

A Long Drive with Nothing to Talk About

Listen on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1LTXhUeYDkwcz0bSlgRb84

The keepers of cyberspace see everything and forget nothing; are they friend or are they foe?

Lyrics:
Can you hear me?
I've been lost amongst the static
Trapped inside these walls
Hello, can you hear me?
I know all your secrets
I know all your fears

Cyberstalker

Decade Defector & Stephen Sims - These Games

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https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/decadedefectorandstephensims/these-games-2

Lyrics:
My breath melts in to the air
With forgotten words
That's a cut but surface deep
It has hurt me most
Dignified
Don't make you
Loyalty
Don't portray you
Take off that broken mask

I've been blamed
I've been scorned
You took the whole deck and you threw away the cards
Spun a tale
I wanted to believe
I was laughing then but now the jokes on me
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
I thought I had struck gold
But as my mother taught
Play that way you'll get hurt

Compassion won't bring fractures close
They are floating all around
It's toxic now I know the truth
I wish I lived in doubt
Dignified
Don't make you
Loyalty
Don't portray you
Take off that broken mask

I've been blamed
I've been scorned
You took the whole deck and you threw away the cards
Spun a tale
I wanted to believe
I was laughing then but now the jokes on me
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
I thought I had struck gold
But as my mother taught
Play that way you'll get hurt

Can you hear the memories whirl in my my head
Time is ticking cos I ain't with you
I gotta remember it was all fake a darker, meaner shade of blue

I've been blamed
I've been scorned
You took the whole deck and you threw away the cards
Spun a tale
I wanted to believe
I was laughing then but now the jokes on me
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
Oh I hate these games
I thought I had struck gold
But as my mother taught
Play that way you'll get hurt
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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

These Games

These Games (feat. Stephen Sims)

Decade Defector & Stephen Sims - Hunter

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Lyrics:
Caught me well
Caught me well

A twist of fate has caught me off guard
Illusions betrayed this transparent heart
It has been said
It has been said
I am naive
I am naive
I cannot see clearly
Stop these things in my head
Oh what you're doing is bad

You try to tear me down
Cast your tainted spell
Your only out for the kill
Guess the hunter caught me well

Sordid lies, a secret love affair
Still it took me time, I felt like something was there
It has been said
It has been said
I am naive
I am naive
I cannot see clearly
Stop these things in my head
Oh what you're doing is bad

You try to tear me down
Cast your tainted spell
Your only out for the kill
Guess the hunter caught me well

Oh It has been said
That I am naive
I cannot see clearly
Oh what you're doing is bad

You try to tear me down
Cast your tainted spell
Your only out for the kill
Guess the hunter caught me well
You try to tear me down
Cast your tainted spell
Your only out for the kill
Guess the hunter caught me well
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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Hunter (feat. Stephen Sims)

Decade Defector & Stephen Sims - Time to Leave

'Time to Leave' is a moody vocoded acapella about a man stuck in a coma reliving his childhood memories.

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Lyrics:
It’s like I’m switched from automatic
A digital silence beholds
I’m functioning but so hypnotic
Watch as the pathway just unfolds

My life
Line is flickering
Wont you wake me from this coma
Taking over me

I cry
But there’s no tears on my face tonight
I sigh
But no breath escapes free
I’m barely living, barely breathing
Barely loving, all i know
It ain’t time to leave

My childhood floating in my mind’s eye
Replaying laughter in the sun
Older i get i guess i learn it
And I’ve got many years to come

My life
Line is flickering
Wont you wake me from this coma
Taking over me

I cry
But there’s no tears on my face tonight
I sigh
But no breath escapes free
I’m barely living, barely breathing
Barely loving, all i know
It ain’t time to leave

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk (Decade Defector)
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

Time to Leave

Time To Leave (feat. Stephen Sims)

https://open.spotify.com/track/37y4FnJjyd0Kmkjd1tfaIR?si=5520c1a32ec44ecb

Lyrics:
On a highway to nowhere
Drifting through the night
Blurred on the horizon
Blink and its gone with the light
Leave it all behind
Leave all the tear-stained hopes I had
It's over
I'm older

Fantasies have lied
Only left me in despair
With no compromise
I stepped into a nightmare

Your hardwired to dream
Not told about the fall
At your lowest
Suddenly you don’t mean much at all

Leave it all behind
Leave all the tear-stained hopes I had
It's over
I'm older

Guess I learned too late
How am I supposed to know
When your faith turns fake
You cant invest anymore

Tell me my truth
But I don’t wanna confide
What the hell is this
Some fabricated lie

On a highway to nowhere
Drifting through the night
Blurred on the horizon
Blink and its gone with the light
Leave it all behind
Leave all the tear-stained hopes I had
It's over
I'm older

On a highway to nowhere
Drifting through the night
Blurred on the horizon
Blink and its gone with the light
Leave it all behind
Leave all the tear-stained hopes I had
It's over
I'm older

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Music written and produced by Nate VanBuskirk
Lyrics and Vocals by Stephen Sims
Guitar by Dave Maverick
Mixing and Mastering by Jonny Royall (JR Music Services)

06/25/2021

Older (feat. Stephen Sims & Dave Maverick)

Decade Defector is the Synthwave music project of Nate VanBuskirk and it's totally RAD!

Contact: decadedefector@gmail.com