About seeing someone you love more than they are

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Chemicals

First verse/Chorus: @DecayingAnyways / 2nd Verse:  @LukeSkyzz
prod: @33roaa x @benjithemachine

Lyrics:

She’s so lovely, honestly
So won’t you break me down on the count of 3
It’s always what you want and never what we need
With a shattered core, broke apart it seems
I talk too long, and I’m stuck in this place
And I’ve been tryna find a way, but I’ve been stuck in the delay
So, hold my hand, grip it tight
Find a way to mess it up tonight

Losing track of time, it’s fading away
Losing track of time, how it turns to gray
Finding any reason so that maybe you’ll stay

It’s hard to say, “I need you by my side.”
I hope that I will never die alone
I want this bad, and I want you bad,
But I know that we’ll have a horrible ending
I still want you right by my side even though I’m independent 
I’m sorry someone else is the reason I’m never depending on you
Our story will live on forever
I know I never loosened myself up to you
You can tell me all your problems and I’ll make amends with you
It wasn’t your decision to tell me what to do
I never had control of fucking up
You said you’re always

Losing track of time, it’s fading away
Losing track of time, how it turns to gray
Finding any reason so that maybe you’ll stay

Losing Track of Time w/ Luke Skyzz (prod. 33roaa x Benji The Machine)

Nobody Else ft Redhorse

Lyrics 

Are they everything you pictured them to be 
Ain’t it crushing when they’re not like what they seem
This ain’t new this something you’ve already seen 
Staying hopeful even though it’s at the least 

Are they everything that you could ever want 
Do they treat you fairly probably maybe not 
Now that’s somebody you wish that you forgot 
Now that’s somebody you wish that you forgot 

Oh why oh why 
Could see the lies again 
Oh why 
Oh why—

This love is like a horror scene 
Something that I’ve seen on screen 
You Film me when I’m feeling weak 
When I’m terrified 

Oh why oh why 
Could see the lies again 
Oh why 
Oh why—

Horror Scene (Prod Guda)

made this in like 4 hours I wanna cry fuk this song LMAO

Ramune and Cigarettes prod roku beats

Candlelight ft i'm yxno

Guillotine w/ Lxve turo!

OUT NOW ON ALL PLATS

LYRICS

Wish I would’ve listened when my friends talked about you. 
Never did I notice all the times I was melting away.
In this place in this time I
Won’t go back tonight 
And in my mind I saw you die that day 

And I don’t mind a single thing 
Cause the words you say don’t mean nothing 
Oh no now
I - I 
Won’t try 
 try too save you 

Oh my 
Hold on 
Watchu telling me 
won’t wait 
Won’t wait 
For another scene 
I’ve seen now how this gone play out 

I been losing sleep 
Losing sleep 
Fucking constantly  
I can barely breathe
Barely breathe 
What is wrong with me 
I don’t recognize not a bit what’s in front of me 
You been changing fast moving rash like the open sea

Wish I never would of looked back 
I been struggling to find my way 
In my mind I saw you die that day 

And I don’t mind a single thing 
Cause the words you say don’t mean nothing 
Oh no now
I I
Won’t try 
 try too save you 

Oh my 
Hold on 
Watchu telling me 
won’t wait 
Won’t wait 
For another scene 
I’ve seen now how this gone play out

Save You prod reesoo

You're Gone prod 02ashes

Satellites ft Yoku

This song came out way too fucking loud for no reason,
*LYRICS*

I’m pacing back and fourth 
Tell me why I’m feeling so vulnerable 
I don’t wanna open up no , no more 
I just wanna wallow in this pitiful 
Vulnerable 

Take it all away 
Every second I been losing on delay 
Well I’ll just burn away 
Oh I’ll just break today
Dying in decay 
Almost ever-day 

And if I were to go and fall away 
Tell me would it even change a single thing 
Oh I don’t wanna question every single thing 
Losing all my mind in every way 
Oh ever-day 

So I shouldn’t give a fuck always down on my luck 
I’m just having fucking fun
Oh never give it up 
And I won’t give it up no 
I will never run no 
I been feeling so low 
So low 

And I know 
I been living so slow 
And treat it all like some joke 
I don’t even care no more 
More 

Wishing that I could’ve told you what is wrong 
I don’t got a valid reason why I’m crying in this song 
Oh woah 
I don’t know
Oh woah 
Moving slow 

And I’ll breath in to breathe out 
To calm down
At sundown I look down and frown 
Cause I know the next day comes round 
I wake up and wish that I drowned 

But I don’t know why ,cause I live a happy life 
Got my momma and pops ,I believe that it’s enough
But I’m always wanting more man I’m such a greedy whore 
I want the world in my hands and I want it more and more 

So I shouldn’t give a fuck always down on my luck 
I’m just having fucking fun
Oh never give it up 
And I won’t give it up no 
I will never run no 
I been feeling so low 
So low 

And I know 
I been living so slow 
And treat it all like some joke 
I don’t even care no more 
More

Vulnerable prod Lil Biscuit

out everywhere!!! prod Solio


*Lyrics*

Am I so outta touch with the things that I love 
Feel my heart resonate as my lungs fill with rust 
Feel my ribs strip away as my heart beat delays 
How I wanna be me but Im told that I’ve changed 

My god the fallout I fall down 
Tell me I been changing 
Tone down ,tone down my god 
I can hear you screaming 

And I lie sometimes , but I’ll try to leave back all my fear 
And I’ll try , to be fine in these times 
But I know death is near 
—
I’ll tell you it’s true 
That I’m feeling so damn lost 
So gone 

I just wanna run away from this place 
Leave the city and change my name 
Change my voice and change my face 
Hope you still love me the same 

Solo 
I been feeling like I’m feeling so alone 
I been dying for feeling of at home 
I been feeling like I’m chasing my shadow 
Got nobody oh no 


Am I so outta touch with the things that I love 
Feel my heart resonate as my lungs fill with rust 
Feel my ribs strip away as my heart beat delays 
How I wanna be me but Im told that I’ve changed 

My god the fallout I fall down 
Tell me I been changing 
Tone down ,tone down my god 
I can hear you screaming 

And I lie sometimes , but I’ll try to leave back all my fear 
And I’ll try , to be fine in these times 
But I know death is near

Out of touch prod Solio "OUT EVERYWHERE"

Infinity W/Prod Solio

“Lyrics”

×2
i cannot love now i'm fucked up overdosing on drugs cannot get enough i'm a burden yeah i'm a slug
i can never get shit right i'll add another cut

It’s on my mind , my love 
I been feeling like I lost my , my trust 
Dying like a zombie ugh , don’t call me 
Oh my god I know that!! Know that!!!

That I’m feenin for your touch 
Telling me to run 

Her lips are shiny with some glitter , she ain’t made of gold 
Oh tell me that she want me but she acting fucking cold 
Oh I know , oh I know , oh I hope oh I hope 
Todo tiempo ya pedido
Lemme know and I will go 
And everything is up in smoke 
Dime todo and I hope 
And I’ll find a perfect method in a way that I can cope 

×2
i cannot love now i'm fucked up overdosing on drugs cannot get enough i'm a burden yeah i'm a slug
i can never get shit right i'll add another cut

Burden w/lavendr

made this alone on 4th of july lmao
*Lyrics*
I been staying in all night 
Watching fireworks fly high 
All I want is someone tonight 
And I don’t know 
Why I 
Don’t know why , I
Don’t know why , I 
Oh no 

Don’t save my life 
Won’t tell you why 
I know tonight 
I’ll chase the light 

Don’t save my life 
Won’t tell you why 
I know tonight 
I’ll chase the light 


Watch the sky 
How it’s painting a picture a colorful blizzard 
God I’m alone in this place I don’t know 
Been here a year but it’s never my home 

It’s been way to long 
I don’t really wanna leave no 
Oh no

Feeling so used to it 
But all I know 
All I know  
Oh 

Why I 
Don’t know why I 
Don’t know why I
Oh no 

Don’t save my life 
Won’t tell you why 
I know tonight 
I’ll chase the light 

Don’t save my life 
Won’t tell you why 
I know tonight 
I’ll chase the light 

Watch the sky 
How it’s painting a picture a colorful blizzard 
God I’m alone in this place I don’t know 
Been here a year but it’s never my home—

Fireworks prod qyroo

*Lyrics*

I was thinking bout a bad ending thought about it twice 
Now I’m picturing a third and it’s such a pretty sight 
I been staying up late staring blankly at the sky 
Connecting all the dots , all the stars alive tonight 

I was fearing such a bad ending
now I couldn’t mind any of these things
Feeling somewhat better , but it’s still nothing 
Staying hopeful even though it’s at the least 

Oh I don’t care if I lose ,I just wanna love you 
I don’t wanna hold back I just wanna touch you 
I just wanna know now , do you really love me ,oh
Did you really love me 

Everywhere I’ve gone , everything I’ve hoped 
I just wanna know , where do we all go?
I been up all night , tryna start a fight.
Start it with the sun ,end it all at night with the moon
I’ve been thinking what I’ll do 
If everything is fucking true 

I’ve been feeling so used x3


Bad endings, I got plenty 
Oh sweetie please don’t let me..
Walk away like you let me
Once before Once before 

Bad endings, I got plenty 
Oh darling you’re one of many 
Only one I’m regretting 
Every single day every single night 

Taken apart , breaking my heart 
Crushing it slow, all from the start 
But it’s not your fault , I started this first 
Honest to worse 

Oh 
Oh I don’t care if I lose ,I just wanna love you 
I don’t wanna hold back I just wanna touch you 
I just wanna know now , do you really love me ,oh
Did you really love me 

“Reversed”

the moon
I’ve been thinking what I’ll do 
If everything is fucking true 

I’ve been feeling so used 
I’ve been feeling so used 
I’ve been feeling so…

BADENDINGS :/  Prod Guda

https://share.amuse.io/track/decayinganyways-silent-hill

SilentHill Prod Everest

Prod DollaTegaBeatz 
New song with Vai5000, wishing everyone happy holidays and a new year!!


LYRICS 
Me:
It’s so cold, like frostbite 
I won’t go, till I find 
A way to run out and hope that you’re never looking back
I know it’s hard but this feeling is like a heart attack 

Cold and I’m wishing you known 
now it’s freezing me so slow all the way to my bones 
and every single other step getting stuck in the snow 
and then I’m hoping that you know, that I’m hoping that you don’t, that you don’t!

Out too long seen Ice building on windows 
match lit strong but the light is getting dim though 
hold my breath for a second with this halo
Tell me love why’d I ever ever wait for 

Vai5000: Lyrics coming soon


Me:

It’s so cold, like frostbite 
I won’t go, till I find 
A way to run out and hope that you’re never looking back
I know it’s hard but this feeling is like a heart attack 

Cold and I’m wishing you known 
now it’s freezing me so slow all the way to my bones 
and every single other step getting stuck in the snow 
and then I’m hoping that you know, that I’m hoping that you don’t, that you don’t!

Out too long seen Ice building on windows 
match lit strong but the light is getting dim though 
hold my breath for a second with this halo
Tell me love why’d I ever ever wait for

Winter Is Killing Me ft. Vai5000

"Lyrics"

It’s less or more oh I adore 
The feel of death kicking my door 
It’s less
Feeling allure 
It’s less or more 
It washes ashore 

"Glitches"
Oh I won’t go home 
"Glitches" 
It makes me feel alone 

"Glitches"
Oh I won’t go home 
"Glitches" 
It makes me feel alone 

Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
Feeling less just to feel abit more 
Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
All the way right into the floor 
Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
Oh tell me more maybe tell me more 
Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
I love the sound yea I love the roar 

I hear the record scratching oh my gosh 
Again 
I’m faded on anxiety I scratch my neck
And fireflies are burning high around 
I wonder if they’re lost or maybe found 

I don’t feel the R just B 
I don’t see what I need to be 
Just tell me what to think 
I don’t know it’s breaking evenly 
I’m speaking honestly I don’t think that I could find peace, I hit my breaking point now just watch me shatter perfectly 

It’s less or more oh I adore 
It’s less or more oh I adore 
It’s less or more oh I adore 
It’s less or more oh I adore

"Glitches" 
Feeling less just to feel abit more 
"Glitches" 
All the way right into the floor 
Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
Oh tell me more maybe tell me more 
Ooh ahh ooh ahh ahh ohh
I love the sound yea I love the roar 

I hear the record scratching oh my gosh 
Again 
I’m faded on anxiety I scratch my neck
And fireflies are burning high around 
I wonder if they’re lost or maybe found

I Adore

This is a old test song, I recorded this then my old pc got corrupted and I lost this project, so decided to post this cuz fuck it lol

Might re-create it idk but might as well put it up 

Much love 
Xoxo

“Falling Out Loud” Lost File :(

PROD:DecayingAnyways X Takuori
*LYRICS*

Whyhaze:
Sold my soul away
but i thought you’d stay
did it all for you
never once for me
put your blood in the ink
off the chemicals 
i can’t even think


Decay:
Oh how I’m feeling cold 
Off the chemicals 
That are from my mind 
It’s flowing down my spine 

So do I give in give up 
Tell me my love 
Oh This dream that I want 
Is killing me slow 
At night 

I felt the silver knife its gliding underneath my skin, they gave something just to write on using blood & pens,it’s something that I want but baby I’m not giving in. I know it’s something that I want

(It’s something that I want)
(something that I want )
(something that I want)
(It’s something that I want)
(something that I want )
(something that I want)

Whyhaze:
i want you did you know that ? 
withdrawals got me feeling so bad
i’d take a bullet for you
you’re all that i have
all that i want 
is you & your blood
I’ll bite through your neck
and then you’ll never wake up

blood & pens on the paper
angel wings on your back but
you’re not going away
i know i said i would stay
i’ll be back later
sold my soul away
i think i’m dying today

Decay:
I felt the silver knife its gliding underneath my skin, they gave something just to write on using blood & pens,it’s something that I want but baby I’m not giving in. I know it’s something that I want

(It’s something that I want)
(something that I want )
(something that I want)

(It’s something that I want)
(something that I want )
(something that I want)


Whyhaze:
i want you did you know that ? 
withdrawals got me feeling so bad
i’d take a bullet for you
you’re all that i have
all that i want 
is you & your blood
I’ll bite through your neck
and then you’ll never wake up

Blood&Pens w/WhyHaze

*Lyrics* 


It all went bad never had reason why to lie like that 
Virus in my system and it makes me sad 
I don’t wanna die, go out like that 
Out like that 

Like that, so bad, I’m trapped , trapped 
No act , act 

Oh don’t go , held on too long, swan song sung wrong , something wrong 

Somethings wrong oh

Yeah it’s feeling kinda wrong and right 
Run away from the light sometimes 
Feeling like I’m gonna die, I feel so out of time 
Virus on my mind 


Do you wonder why? Don’t roll the dice 
Frozen in ice, to no surprise 
How hollow these nights, empty lights so bright 
Virus in my heart till I’m not alive 
I don’t wanna atone 
You don’t know how low I’d go 
Do you wonder why? I’d sacrifice 
so much if I’m in the afterlife 

Heart pumps, I -
I don’t cry
Feel my core 
Break down 

I’m little under pressure and it’s been like just forever 
And I’ve always been the jester 
I’ve never seem to measure 
Emotions on a platter, it doesn’t really matter 
I’m looking at the stars and they always seem to shatter 

And I’m not alright yet I try - I 
Feel the virus on my mind 
Feel it down low on my spine 
Why try 
… at all 

It’s all gone bad, my minds gone mad 
give all I have, for their last laugh 
And they could just walk by, I wouldn’t care this time! 
But you’re not through!

Do you wonder why? Don’t roll the dice 
Frozen in ice, to no surprise 
How hollow these nights, empty lights so bright 
Virus in my heart till I’m not alive 
I don’t wanna atone 
You don’t know how low I’d go 
Do you wonder why? I’d sacrifice 
so much if I’m in the afterlife

Virus

KILL U SOFT

[Lyrics]
Say I’m a monster, treat me like one
Every little moment saying I’m done 
But you got a hold no letting go 
all I that I hope that when I’m done letting go off 
You 
Touching your body and you touching mine 
Saying you want 

Me-

You want-

Me-

Yeah-yeah 

Feeling like it’s suicide I don’t wanna do or die, sharpened teeth like vampire bleeding out it’s no surprise, who’s the monster now who’s the monster in this tale? Cuz I’m the one now who’s bleeding out a trail 

One, two three more times, I break down at night, cuz I’m just your type the, horror kind 

I know I’m a monster somewhat been a bother, party on a Friday no one tell her father 
Saying I’m the best and our love will never falter 
Love my shawty goth white I ain’t talking Walter 
Tell em I’m feeling alive yeah 
Getting much harder to love why 
Killing me not a surprise I 
Empress fucking with my life 
Feeling fucking sick of it yeah i stay for thrill of it 
She yelling baby stay yeah I hear it in the semblance

Touching your body and you touching mine 
Saying you want 

-Me 

-Me 

-You want 

-Me

Yeah yeah  

Feeling like it’s suicide I don’t wanna do or die, sharpened teeth like vampire bleeding out it’s no surprise, who’s the monster now who’s the monster in this tale? Cuz I’m the one now who’s bleeding out a trail

Monster

Hypnotized

Yokai:

i try to keep it all together
i'm folding under the pressure
try to be professional
but i don't think i ever was
didn't get the memo
i guess it's inconsequential
it's a given that i give in
before the chance to mess it up

it's too bright, lock me in my room i
never could regret it
in some ways i'm still indebted but
i'm too high, got some things on my mind
wish i never said it
i never said it
guess i fell back into patterns
i thought i had once abandoned
just a creature of habit
i guess this was inevitable
i'm always static
no qualities of elastic
fear everlasting
guess that i'm not ready to go

these things never work out like they're supposed to
well god damn, rest in peace to the old you
my bad, my bad shoulda told you
i have grown cold too
bleed me dry til i'm starving
find my heart, i've been struggling to mark it
don't you tell me that i'll make it through regardless
live like this and you'll find yourself heartless

Decay:

I been pacing side to side hoping I won’t die 
but I’m stuck in my mind with all these mistakes 
Got no left to blame, I always do the same thing 
I guess it’s fucking wired right into my mainframe 

Cause now I’m breaking down down 
Catch me all around town, party until sundown I’m just having fun now 

What now 

fell in love with habits won’t treat them like it’s tragic, my brain turning to static it’s worse than you would imagine 

I got these bad habits and these, these white rabbits that’ll lead me into a wonderland I’m dying now 

Dead talents 
Drug habits 
Blood jackets 
Brain mallet 
dark palettes 
High status 
No balance 
And more 

Would it stop? 
I know, that it won’t 
“Oh no”
I’ll fall for awhile longer 
“Dying”
I won’t last for much more 
For much more, than I did
Guess it’s like I’m dying now 
That’s just how I’m feeling now 
It’s got me like a cloud
Know it’s never ending now 
Know it’s never ending now

DecayingAnyways

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