Dear mom (Silence) lyrics

Chorus:

Do I wanna live my life like this
Darkness is all I see
How did I become this way 
When my mama raised me

What did she do for me to do this
Maybe I should just leave
Maybe that’ll help her have less stress
Maybe I should just drown in silence


After chorus:

All I hear is silence     x4


Verse 1:

Hey mom, how you doing right now
I think this is the first time I’m asking, wow
I hope your doing fine cause the family needs you
Cause you the only person that was here for everyone

Im writing this song cause how sorry I am
I never listened to you thought you were a spam
When you were only saying shit cause you loved me but I never listened, now I regret everything, god damn

You wanted me happy
All i showed was sassy
Then I got you angry
So I just got cranky
Thought you hated me
So I felt crappy
I was very stupid
Now I’m writing this music

I don’t believe I hurt you this much
I don’t even think I can touch you
Cause I hurt you so bad your heart now has a crutch
What the fuck am I how can I do this such

Verse 2:

My mama got cancer few years ago
I always wanted to do something for my parents ever since like making dough
But I never did, and all I’m doing is failing in school trying to do a show

I wanted to cry when I heard she had cancer
Didn’t show emotions, world was against her
I tried to be the best son, looking for answers
Wished that I had it instead of her

I tried and tried but nothing happened
I  opened my eyes everything was blackened 
I had memories come back of us laughing
I know I’m a bad son, suddenly saddened

I guess Im a bad son you know
I can’t even do one shit right you know
She wanted me to do well in school
But I can’t even do that shit you know

4 birthdays without both of my parents
Never understood but I had zero caring
Even if they weren’t here they left me a present
Now I understand that you guys really loved me

Why is it you out of everyone
Why can’t it be me, your like the sun
When I can’t do one shit right
I’m just drowning in silence


Verse 3:

I wanted to cry when I heard she had cancer
Didn’t show emotions, world was against her
I tried to be the best son, looking for answers
Wished that I had it instead of her

I’m sorry for everything ma
I didn’t grow up how you wanted me to ma
I can’t reach your expectations ma
I’m sorry I’m so different ma

Now I’m crying writing this song
When I know I have to be strong
Why couldn’t it be me to have cancer
When I can’t even find the answer

I tried and tried but nothing happened
I  opened my eyes everything was blackened 
I had memories come back of us laughing
Im a bad son, suddenly saddened

Dear Mom (Silence)

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