miles

excedi: https://soundcloud.com/excedix

thanku to all u guys <33 ur support means the most :)))) <3

fiveofive (prod. excedi)

lyrics: 

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

here to live then to die when my time is spent
i was never alive let me see the lead
how she love me for life when im still a kid
send her home im alone laying in my bed

hit her up then i turn into a ghost
smoke a blunt pour a deuce she tell me i do the most 
fuck you mean sippin lean ashes fallin on my toes
she said baby can you stop before u fall to comatose
thats the point i dont know
why the fuck you always stoppin me
hitting bowls it say no smoking on the public property
feeling wavy when i pour it up i do it properly
feeling drugs and liquors pumping through my fucking arteries

blood in the sink
i can barely  think
spent a rack last night on my fucking drinks
all i see is money
all i see is red
you can take what you want cause im almost dead

you can tell that im lost i should go to bed
say im fine but im not you should see my head
no i never forgot all the things you said
make it by cause im on all these fucking meds

comatose (prod. kōri)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

lyrics:

ive got too much to die for
3am and my eyes sore
i think i smoked more
then i was good for

she says that she loves me
layed out naked in the pine leaves
she said baby its cold out
but ive got my own heat

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

all u left was ur coat 
i could float on my words if i chose
i could choke on the do and the donts
i fix everything i had wronged
but ud pick it apart and just tell me i should go

tell me i should go
rum is in ur coke
i could see the bag that u were using for the blow
i dont fuck with them
but i guess i fuck with u
so if u want me to go i guess that thats what imma do

u tell me im lost 
but i fell in love with u
im really only lost
cause i know im losing u
great ok thats cool
guess its bye from the door
id say text me when ur home but i never hear from u

please can u hold me
these memories haunt me
so please can just control me
and pretend u love me

i need it so bad
i hope that u know that
these scars dig in so deep
my mind was never one to hold back

luv me (prod. kryptik)

produced by @beatzera

cover art found at https://vskyevaz.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

i been tryna switch up my lyrics
and fixing my mixing sometimes u cant even hear it
im hit with a blessing sometimes i cant even see it
i smoke so much potent i swear i practically breath it
i should take it easy
i choose not to
coat the blunt with keef u see me dip it like some fondue
i could sing a song and tell u everything is possible
but i dont want to
im not even fucking done yet
how im spose to say that when i aint even blow up yet
it didnt fucking happen so u couldnt say it does yet
u say tomorrows sunny but u cant even see the sun yet
fuck im kindov upset
i see how we acting and i think we better off dead
fuck it ill go first just put the bullet up in my head
i could clear my thoughts with just a little bit of meds
or i could clear it all and take a lesson from the lead

everything i make is fucking shit
i mean how cool can multiple voices really get
every single drop is always just what u except
9tails making music just for crying in ur bed

bitch im making fucking music bout the thoughts inside my head
tired of my problems u should drop a track instead
i make all my shit for me im barely getting bread
get the fuck out of my messages with all the disrepect

u know i really dont deserve it
as for all the lyrics bitch i hope u fucking learn this
and i dont need the fame and fuck the tours this aint purpose
this aint  no small loan of one million bitch i earned this

i hope u heard this
i fucking earned this

ill try to explain (prod. beatz era)

produced by why loner at https://twitter.com/why_loner

lyrics:

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

the words we spoke
baby girl it like a knife to my throat
we smoking blunts that look like barrels on a rifle
all the games u play with me i swear u fucking psycho

got the sauce but im looking like a failure
imma boss but my compitition amateurs
ep drop better mark it on ur calender
bitch ill make just what i want and fuck the caliber

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
alone for 5 minutes and i smoke again
got some things i think id rather keep held back
or forget
or erase
fucking get rid of them

it was all
such a waste
of time i cant get back
throw it all
in my face
ur really good at that
even one
change of pace
could cause a heart attack
and if that is the case
well baby dont hold back

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again (prod. why loner)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

ready set go (prod. hateful)

better days (prod. hateful)

no one is home (ryini)

how long? (secret stash)

lyrics:

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

i just gotta let you know
im not here to take u home
woke up two calls on my phone
wish that they would leave me alone
but they never do
they never do that
i wish i
i could do that
i just cant let you go
hop out the sewer and take u home

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

pines break through the memories
late nights were her remedy
cold words thru her sharpened teeth
create deep wounds you imbed in me  
throwing heads in the wishing well
when shes this mad she could boil hell
i thought we would go together
but i guess i could go fuck myself
theres a time and a place
but she has no problem doing it here
he has his hands on top her waist
in the photos she cant share
and its truly a shame
i thought we could make it through the year at least
but this game you been playing is killing me
and im too low on energy

she makes the feeling of alone subside
im faulty product im not worth your time
the last goodbye always hits harder at night
so wont you stay
one more time

one time for old times ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

lyrics:

the same three colours fall off my chest
martyred valour in the face of death
i hope they celebrate my life
cause god knows i tried to retrace my steps
wrap my wounds and take me home
dead on arrival in my flowered tomb
she loves a man in this uniform
so i sit and i rot as it drapes my bones
she said i wish i still believed he was coming home
cause this silence is tearing me apart
times have changed from when we were kids
but no one couldve told me it would turn to this
the sky was grey when the carriage came
bringing awful news from a landing ship
and in her dreams when she lays her head
she sees flashes of coast lines painted red
lukewarm loafs on the lobby steps
oh the thought is nice but they dont understand
hold me as i desperately try to move my arms
console my lover while i stifle coughs as im passing on
the wars you win are forgot in time
but the fights you lose stick with you for life
i promise ill see u again
but i pray you dont visit me tonight

silent night (eric godlow)

lyrics:

shot gun sheela made no new friends
and the new town folk dont take to well
to her late night runs got two gold guns
gonna take my soul throw me down that well
she said i dont care for a no good cheat
so she shot him down in the middle of the street
got a death wish if u coming at me
and she put a full clip in between his teeth

some men speak of a black eyed beast
in the shape of a woman living way out east
where the grass dont grow so the cows dont eat
and birds too big and they dont have beaks
and the men that sleep well they dont have dreams
cause the men that sleep do it six feet deep
in a shade born land even god cant see 
so the folks dont pray and the priest dont preach
he said i know now why they dont get close
we should all be fine if we play our roles
in a 5 man team with a firearm each
wanna see her pay i wanna see her bleed
wait inside till i give my sound
then we light her up and we shoot her down
in a voice too loud under sweat caked brows
if we play our parts itll all work out
so hold my light in the long wheat field
i could smell flesh rot over that hill
shot gun sheela might have got to brave
dragging penny blood trails to her broke down base
i take my foot to her rust brown gate
put my 38 special to her pale white face
any last words fore i see her brain
and she looked my way and began to sing
ohhhhh
ohhhhh

shot gun sheela made no new friends
and the new town folk dont take to well
to her late night runs got two gold guns
gonna take my soul throw me down that well
she said i dont care for a no good cheat
so she shot him down in the middle of the street
got a death wish if u coming at me
and she put a full clip in between his teeth

shotgun sheela (eric godlow)

lyrics:

we drift away we fall apart shes had enough
i meant say im sorry i cant be enough
she talks to me in harsher tone
than anyone else she knows
i suffocate inside the apartment we called home
take my heart and teach it to love
i swear to you im reading up 
i dont wanna be all alone
and the heart warming pleasantries
im glad we can pretend to get along
time goes by and as my life flies by
i cant help but think we did it all wrong
when i die with the things i know
please be assured that i never told a soul
i just wanted u to know i still feel it all
u live inside my bones and i wouldnt have it any other way

any other way (eric godlow)

lyrics

his tongues loose but one day he'll hold his wrongs
options present themselves way less this time around
reasoning is obsolete when deafened by the cause
bullets fly right by his head as he prays to his god
i need forgiveness he yells at the clouds
haunted by the task at hand of making dad proud
birthmarks he never saw till she pointed them out
he said u know me better than like anyone else around
i sleep and i wait for the end of the world
when i wake up to these sirens as hurricanes whirl
around my house i might walk right out
i never liked it here and this death would make me smile
theres a light on on her front porch
she said she was up late maybe its a sign so im going to find out
last we were in a fight but i hope shes calmed down
i just wanna run something by u while im blacked out
lets let bygones become bygones
i aint mean to scare you 
i meant it but im sorry i just had to lash out
i could smell his body on you when we laid down
i guess i just helped find the one that worked out

bygones become bygones  (eric godlow)

lyrics:

and i cant seem to notice when ur not around
the leaves that fall are golden
they melt into the ground

and i wish you never left me with a sour tone
and i wish you wouldve meant it
when you said you loved me
and i wish i could prevent this feeling of alone
and i wish you could just let it go i said im sorry
trees falling breaking i cant escape
theres blood on my face as a warm embrace
the dusk turns to day and she turned to me
and i said dont cry and i twist the knife and
i just wish that she was born again
so this love story could never end
and im just left with the remembrance 
of her face that never left

i cant help think about these times
the dirt road hostel where she saved my life
with a take my hand i obliged ghost white
only she'll understand how i felt inside
with a denim torch i was acid washed
on 44th is where she broke my heart
my eyes meet hers in a time too dark
i hold damage inside these age old scars
sorry if i dont say it right will you help me inside
ive had too much too drink tonight
i cant make it to mine
oh you look perfect here with me
i dont think he could see
come here im holding you close to me
and you fit perfectly

and i cant seem to notice when ur not around
the leaves that fall are golden
they melt into the ground

wallflower ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

lyrics:

she locked herself in the bathroom and shes crying all alone
all this for a half hearted message on her phone
at the end of the night we all need to home
dont waste ur time on a man you barely know
remember where u started look at how far u came
i promise ur surrounded by friends of good faith

no one can take away the blood from out ur veins
i wanted so bad to tell u to ur face
but she sits behind this bathroom door in a strangers basement
you wont be rid of him until u drink enough to say it

ohhhh
ohhhh
the bottles never deep enough to forget about her problems
but its so much easier to suppress em then to solve em
and i know it hurts to face but its better than the damage 
ur causing to urself when u pretend u still want him

no one can take away the blood from out ur veins
i wanted so bad to tell u to ur face
but she sits behind this bathroom door in a strangers basement
you wont be rid of him until u drink enough to say it

miles

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