@leftquietverified
my vocals were mixed & mastered by: @chain_trash

(casperrr)
fall asleep while i'm crying
dreaming about me dying
blade on my wrist it's slicing
falling baby i'm falling

take what's left from me 
brake what's left from me 
show me your true colors 
and baby make me bleed

(leftquiet)
this so deep where im lyin
fall below the seams
the trees are slowly dyin
my rest to the sleep    
i numb the pain
with novocaine
but all i do is hear you weep
wish you'd go away
to slow the pain
cause i can't have this on repeat

my ashes are driftin
from burns that i have sinned with
my body cant handle
this shit i think im goin down

im floatin asail now
my vessel tippin over
the limits have broken
the stream has taken course

(casperrr & leftquiet)
take what's left from me 
brake what's left from me 
show me your true colors 
and baby make me bleed

Take What's Left From Me (ft. leftquiet) (prod.IOF)

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
if this is real i’ve learned my lesson
i’d bring a chair to watch myself trying to breathe
when every day is just progression
its easy just to stop and stare at what u need
and every time i turn around
my vision’s upside down
and the mirror’s staring back at me
now i’m waiting for a sound
cuz my ears are bleeding out
isnt it nice to be so happy?

all the time spent makes me sick
i’ve been down, wheres a stroke of good fortune
while my life has been at risk
where were you, did you even come searching?
while the nightmares subsided 
my bones and my heart are on terms with the devil
clear i have been misguided
the water just dragged me right back where i came from

paint it on black
put out a message
i dont think that ima regret this
on top of the world for a second
then i slip and im back at the entrance
look at the way that i fuck up
must have been somethin within me
had to be something im hiding
look at the facts we’re presenting
like, he doesnt talk
he doesnt socialize what is his problem
clearly its all in head though
what if its something thats mental
i cant breathe when its all building i need time and cover
out of air i think im drowning, am i going under?

all the time spent makes me sick
i’ve been down, wheres a stroke of good fortune
while my life has been at risk
where were you, did you even come searching?
while the nightmares subsided 
my bones and my heart are on terms with the devil
clear i have been misguided
the water just dragged me right back where i came from

VI. pay your respects [jolst x irby]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

reflection (interlude) [jolst]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
it feels like im drowning
i wake up im bruised and battered
i finally stop spinning
and the ocean goes on forever and ever

what we have isn’t perfect, but fuck it we’re trying
i struggle with certainty, and the truth is im lying
my heart is a mess inside
but i know im fine enough

im seasick
took my heart, i didnt know that i needed it
fall apart, the very second we’re leavin and then
i wasn’t smart, couldn’t even bear to see the ship go
underrrr
the very second we had
sundereddd

and thats the last time i fall apart to save myself 
our story passed time, written like a book up on the shelf
and i swear im always
fucking up
nowhere to run

everything is 
uncomfortable
its never fun

and i wonder why
im staying up
to see the sun

maybe i should just go to bed

[cherry]
i’m stuck underwater 
and i just cannot find the space to breathe 
its hotter and hotter 
i sweat through my collar when ur with me 
took it all in i just sat back 
i don’t wanna fall don’t wanna backtrack u saw my heart and u cracked that
i saw ur heart and its matte black 
i saw ur heart 
u know its not perfect 
but fuck it were trying 
so lets get something working

II. seasick (ft. cherryrizla) [jolst x lavendertxwn]

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/atomiclvl and rxhff

atomiclvl's yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGWAlymVwqmuyxhjkkem31g

rxhff's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/RXHFF

/lyrics/

picture you picture me
try to live out fantasies
in my room here with me
hand in mine feel the heat

green eyes lighting up my darkened heart
what a sight i got to see before i was ripped apart

leaves fall
rain too
stay calm
get through
breaking down the walls that block the light from shining through
oh you left a mark left a scar or two
baby finish me off I'm right here so what's stopping you 
x2

oh what's stopping you i would give it all for you
grip the blade hit me with it til it pushes through
drown me in my blood baby oh just let me die for you

I'm hopeless
fucking useless
i cant hit you up
without feeling like a nuisance

clueless
i dont know shit
help me get on track 
i just need to get in motion

walking round and I'm too lity
i sip on sum got a cup with me
these fireballs to my throat burn me
another one to get me really going

and im numbing all of my agony
by pushing it so far away from me
till its out of mind like it don't exist
but it comes back in the morning

when i wake up and I'm soaring
heads bouta burst need aspirin
this life shit's getting boring
these thoughts start to get violent

blades cutting right through my skin
watch the blooddrops hit the flooring
no half measure I'm all in
till i collapse I'm working

and i dont blame you
feel the words piercing you

green eyes lighting up my darkened heart
what a sight i got to see before i was ripped apart

leaves fall
rain too
stay calm
get through
breaking down the walls that block the light from shining through
oh you left a mark left a scar or two
baby finish me off I'm right here so what's stopping you

picture you picture me
try to live out fantasies
in my room here with me
hand in mine feel the heat

green eyes lighting up my darkened heart
what a sight i got to see before i was ripped apart

leaves fall
rain too
stay calm
get through
breaking down the walls that block the light from shining through
oh you left a mark left a scar or two
baby finish me off I'm right here so what's stopping you

fantasy (atomiclvl x rxhff)

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

if u remember

i thought life could never change
but it did and now I've changed too
are you still the same as i remember?
you were the last thing i remembered
its so cold
its not fair
you left home
and i stared
dwelling in the doubt that i made
living in a body full of sulfate
spirit trash 
walking gut rot
no one understands how somebody's soul could rot
in less than a day
it only takes pain
it only takes some time to realize you're insane

sulfate

follow neverforever

sulfate (neverforever)

beat produced by lil nightshift 
- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb4KSyiaqbe_4UTYHZZEXOg

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

knife to the back how you feelin bout that
that's how you treat everyone all the time
life goes fast as it flashes through your eyes
i'll stand and watch and complain about mine
you're so sad i can't stand you
everyone around has abandoned you too
that's cause no one can handle
all the misery you put them through

so goodbye now
guess your time ran out
keep it quiet now
for you there's no way out

she told me i'm crazy, like yeah i know
i'm helping you out cause you gotta go
you're insane, told you long ago
time to leave this place you dumb girl

she tries to attack but it sets her right back
tears are flooding out of her eyes
this shouldn't even be too much to unpack
i smile and laugh over her cries
she's so scared, and no ones here for her
all the noise just turns into a whisper
she's so unprepared, won't know what hits her
and hopefully things can just go back to how they once were

she cried "it's not fair"
wait, why are you not self aware
you've done so much shit that you cannot repair
ruined lives and you don't even care

"help me", i said "what for"
she crawls away on the wet floor
i said "it's over" and "i'm not sure if i'll forgive you at all"

blood covers the pavement 
now i hear sirens wailing 
stained clothes got no time to change them
so i'll stay here and wait then
bite marks on both of my knees
covered in marks and bruises
in my head i'm replaying your screams
never met someone so useless

sirens (lil nightshift)

copy0415

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

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