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Samples and audio from "9-5ers Anthem - Aesop Rock (Labor Days)"

9-5ers Anthem (BeardFight VS Aesop Rock)

always stay on your path and trust your instincts.

visionary

feeling like a dick, shit i feel like you can't stand me
but i'm looking back on months ago, my spirit wont accept me
maybe it's your soul and your spirit tryna help me
inside my head you're better off if you went to forget me
think i need an emmy cause this acting job gets scary
tryna keep my posture down, my confidence feels far beneath me
summer night a year ago, with secrets you entrusted me 
i gave that shit to peers because i thought that they were trustworthy
worst thing that i did since i debated scrapping open me 
or when i ran away from all my problems just for bits of peace
getting told i gatekeep cause i have a sense of safety 
felt like a wall, cause nothing they could say could phase me
but after some time, the voices in my ear get louder
choose between a friend or give away my only power
choose between a bungalow or stand tall like a tower
gotta wash away the stress with scolding heat inside the shower
shit it's just another

just another thing i regret
just another fucking thing i regret 
and i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
i gave everything, failed tests
i guess, i guess
i wish i paid off my debt
given back like a god gone sad
i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
keep denying my guilt, come back
i'm such a mess

grab my hand, walk a mile at my pace
pry my shame at the lines on your face
grab my tongue, yeah I won't have a say
throw me out I'm a mess any, ways,

hold my head til the dread isn't draining
I picked out the palette, am i proud of the painting
hold my hand, I know you won't go away til the months pass by

months pass by, motherfuckers still bug me bout some demos
tryna play it off, take it on the chin, jay leno
but through the shades of honesty come feelings of an ego
after months of tryna keep the peace, I couldn't even let go
told them 'fuck it, do what you want, but i'm tired of hearing it
they took it different, and started scheming for the hell of it
and if it's relevant, i felt a way since i was 17 
and y'all were pushing 25 and still were jobless, and untalented
2 am wake up to calls from wes about some DM shit
someone from the group found them on IG, started asking shit
put every single thing i shared with them up on the internet 
and now I've gotta answer for some shit i wish i could forget
we put the shit behind us but i felt like i was still in it
the guilt weighed on my back causes a rash i feel irrational
i'm tryna change my path, but i look back, that girl still feels too close
but yet, you still forgive, it gives me hope that i can heal my soul

just another thing i regret
just another fucking thing i regret 
and i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
i gave everything, failed tests
i guess, i guess
i wish i paid off my debt
given back like a god gone sad
i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
keep denying my guilt, come back
i'm such a mess

just another thing i regret
just another fucking thing i regret 
and i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
i gave everything, failed tests
i guess, i guess
i wish i paid off my debt
given back like a god gone sad
i just regress
worse and worse with every regret
keep denying my guilt, come back
i'm such a mess

why try to fight it
why try to hide it 
ran the road of repentance a thousand times
tell a soul, pose a threat, now you crossed my line

why try to fight it
ill fly misguided
wept away at my woes and i wiped your wounds
now i feel more alive at the thought of
you, you
you, you

In The Mud

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