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This is the first song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

Give me one last kiss, before I close my eyes
Then let me go and don’t say goodbye
I need you here with me
Would you be here with me

In a hospital in Michigan
As the trees all lose their leaves again
I need you here with me
Could you be here with me

And I don’t If I’m ok, I feel so alone
And I don’t know If I’m alright, I feel haunted every night


And I know that it’s bad for me to be with you,
Cause deep down I know that it will end,
But when I’m with you all my troubles go away,
It's like water over rocks 'til we hit the edge

And I don’t like sleeping by myself
Every single night just a pillow and a knife
I stab myself so it won’t hurt when you do it to me
That not what living’s meant to be
So,

Give me one last kiss before I close my eyes
Then let me go and don’t say goodbye
I need you here with me
Would you be here with me
In a hospital in Michigan
As the trees all lose their leaves again
I need you here with me
Could you be here with me

And I don’t If I’m ok, I feel broken and in pain
Far from where I used to be, a shattered resemblance of me


And it’s so hard to collect myself
When I’m in clouds
And the sun beats down on everyone else
I hope these days will pass soon,
But if not, well I’ve got something to do

And this is what I’ll say before I close my eyes
As I look up gently towards the sky
It opens up for me
An angel comforts me
So,

Give me one last kiss before I close my eyes
Then let me go and don’t say goodbye
I need you here with me
Would you be here with me
In a hospital in Michigan
As the trees all lose their leaves again
I need you here with me
Could you be here with me

And now I feel like I am free
The autumn wind embraces me
And clouds will part and I will see
How all the sunbeams follow me

Falling Asleep In Fall

This is the third song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

I don’t know
Who I’m supposed to be anymore
If I lost my life
Would I even be remembered
One more night
I can see it now
Am I better off remembered
For my life

Red hues and dark blues are clouding my mind
You can look at me and see the darkness in my eyes
I can’t explain the emotions I feel
Up late in bed collecting stresses that I steal

Hurt me I dare you just add to the pain
So, I don’t mind, yeah it's alright
I fell so deep just a few years ago
And now I live buried beneath the snow

Better Off Remembered

This is the fourth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

"You're going straight to hell"
"I am in hell"

I can see right through
Everything, everything
So, please relay this truth
Through a split lip and a chipped tooth
Sad kid from a strict youth
A tad thin for an excuse
The razor blade you outgrew
Well a cut wrist is a hint too

A lifetime is a long time to feel like this
Yeah it's a long time to feel like this
I’ve been so gone
You got to let go and just exist
Yeah it's difficult,
But you don’t wanna just be missed

A Soldier In His Mind

This is the ninth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

When every song that I sing is for you
How can I not get lost inside my head
I don’t want you to know what I go through
But days like this I rot in my bed

I told you to leave, but now I need you
Why is it I can’t move on by myself
Surrounded by pain and a fog I can’t see through
Today I admit, I am not doing well

I’m not doing well

How can you stop a cloud from raining
When it can no longer bear the weight
How can I stop my world from changing
When all I want is to stay the same

I’ll push through the pain, but I’m still receding
Why is it I’m always trapped in my head
I keep the door open and contemplate leaving,
But I know in time I’ll be content

Hope

This is the tenth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

Feel me now
I’m holding on
I’m holding on to you,
Before it’s too late

Feel me now
I keep on trying and
Keep on trying to clean
My thoughts away

It’s too late,
I feel myself
Slipping
Back into old ways

A spiral
A spiral into thoughts of
Self doubt and
Lost days

But here I am alone
On a freeway
My hands are cold and I’m driving fast
My exits passed,
But I do not stop tonight
I guess I’ll drive right through Ohio
And into states of unfamiliarity
I’ll head back home eventually,
But here I am and I
Will not stop
Until I reach the water
Until I leave the land

So talk to me
I know you have moved on,
But I’m still
In misery

Now I know just how it is
Emotions get ahead of me
And now I’m left alone
Always on my own

Now I know just how it is
Emotions get ahead of me
And now I’m left alone
Static on the phone

Now I know just how it is
A big congratulations
To the ones who walk alone
The ones that really know

How to feels beneath the snow
A big congratulations
To the ones who walk alone
The only ones that know

Congratulations

This is the eleventh song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

Come down
From that empty stage of
High doubt
The way your mind can trick you

So loud
The way you shout at me
I check out
So I don’t have to face it


I’m stuck here in the pouring rain
There’ll be no tomorrow, my eyes are steady
Until I hold myself again
They’ll be only sorrow, I swear I’m ready

Give me a reason to stay

(Give me a reason)

Give me a reason to stay

(Give me a reason)


Climb out
From the deepest depth
Into the arms
Of the ones who love you

Cause right now
The way I’m handling stress
Is like vows
To a suicide


I’m stuck here in the pouring rain
There’ll be no tomorrow, my eyes are steady
Until I hold myself again
There’ll be only sorrow, I swear I’m ready

Give me a reason to stay

(When all I do is fall and break)
(Give me a reason)

Give me a reason to stay

(And all I feel are cuts and aches)

When all I do is fall and break
And all I feel are cuts and aches

(When all I do is fall and break
And all I feel are cuts and aches)


I'm Ready

This is the twelfth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

I will cut my branches 'til
I’m bare and withering
A leafless rotting carcass of bark
Dead on halloween
She left me aching and
Sore limbs kept breaking off
The rodents screaming kill me as
They tear into it all

I’m being eaten from the inside out
Bugs will carve me hollow and frail until I’m falling down
Now laying putrid in mud leaves and animals
And dying ever slowly I’m cut, broke, and laughable

That’s how you make me feel
That’s how I know it's the real deal

That’s how you make me feel
That’s how I know it's the real deal


But now I'm waking up
And counting my hand
I got a lot to lose here
Do I still wanna play this game
It's hard when I love you
It's hard when I care,
But I am seeing sides of you
That make me so scared


So leave me please leave
Cause I can’t bear to leave you I’m weak and I am through
So leave me please leave me
Cause I can’t bear to leave you, a product of being used


Lay me in a coffin
I know its what you dream about
Why else would you keep calling
Your guns hot, but not out of rounds
I left the door open slightly,
But not all the way
That’s when you slither in
And the fun starts over again


This is the game you play

This is the sickness engaged

And once you begin

It's easiest to just give up and give in

Sickness Engaged

This is the thirteenth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".
Sample - "Conversation With a Half-Empty Bottle" by Rivulets

Lyrics:

(I’ve been sleeping with my eyes closed)

(I’ve been sleeping with my eyes closed)


I’ve been driving with my eyes closed
Now I'm off the road
Baby I don't know if I'm ever gonna
Make it back home

And It's not looking good

So, can I call you on the phone
Can I talk to you for hours
You’re the only one that can calm me down
You got the power

To reset me


What’s a matter Nico
I can barely breathe
When all of these emotions
Come over me


I don't want to go to sleep now
Without you by my side
Laying there with nothing,
But the thoughts in my mind

And I don’t want to be alone with them
I don’t want to be alone

So, I'm reading self help books
And taking lots of notes
The only way to move on
Is to let go


So, what’s a matter Nico
Don’t you know the drill
You pick between suicide,
Kill or be killed

What A Beautiful Life

This is the fifteenth song off of my album "Falling Asleep In Fall".

Lyrics:

And I know that
10 years down the road
I’ll be without you
And that kills me

So I’ve been
Retracing steps and
Cleaning my skin harmfully
To prevent that

I’ll dig my
Sharpened fingernails
Right into my wrist
If it helps you

I know this
Sounds absurd,
But If you were in my head
You would do it too


This is what I say
Bleeding and broken, I drift away
In time
And I can’t stand this place
Often I feel like I can’t escape
My mind


I know you
Worry about me
And if I’m ok
So, thank you

But lately I’ve been
Stuck in bed and
Showering for hours,
Still uncontent

I’m sorry that
It’s so hard for
Me to change my habits
When I try to

But something better
Change or I’ll be
Six feet in the ground
Without you


This is what I say
Bleeding and broken, I drift away
In time
And I can’t stand this place
Often I feel like I can’t escape
My mind


I’m so upset,
Cause when I
think about you,
All I think about is you dead

So, stop breaking my heart
Stop breaking my heart again
Cause I need you right now
I need you right now as a friend

So, stop breaking my heart
Stop breaking my heart then
Cause I need you right here
I need you right here in the end


Converstions With Myself

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When a young Ewonee (pronounced "E-1") decided to borrow his father's copy of "It Was Written", he had no idea how it would transform the rest of his life.  Entranced by what he had heard, he eventually began collecting instruments and flipping vinyl records, developing his own brand of dusty, fashionably off kilter hip-hop in the process.

Born in Mount Vernon, NY, Ewonee is the first signee of East Coast record label & producer collective, Beat Haus Records.  Today, we are proud to release "Radiance."  In addition to the single, which features vocalist ellareese, listeners are treated to three tasteful remixes by producers Noah B., Iman Omari and VESA. Radiance is available on all major retailers now!

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This is just a song I wrote the other day, I hope you enjoy it.  Thank you very much for listening, I really appreciate it.

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