26.02.2023

Lyrics: 
She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down
She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down

This girl, oh, this girl
Oh I’m in trouble
Drunk on her love
Oh, I’m seeing double
Don’t leave me all alone I’m terrified
I’m not myself when you’re not by my side
You got me caught up in the middle of
Your twisted version of love
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah
And I know I shouldn’t stay but
Girl you’re all that I want
 
You took it all
I took the fall
I took the fall
While she took it all

She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down
She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down

This girl with hypnotizing eyes
I took one look I’m drowning in her lies
Ever since the first ‘Nice to meet ya’
I’ve been doing everything I can just to please ya
Oh girl, tell me where’d it all go wrong
Yeah, we were doing fine
So why’d you leave me alone like this
You caught me by surprise
I caught you in your lie
Told me we were just fine
We were doing just fine

You took it all
I took the fall
I took the fall
While she took it all

She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down
She’s an angel
But her looks are so deceiving
Called the devil
Tempted by the desperation
She’s an angel
Oh, I should’ve stopped her leaving
Made a deal with the devil
He can’t turn down

THE FALL - DEMO (prod. by wavytrbl)

08.05.2022

lyrics: 
you know that when i said things were easier 
did you know i was lying through my teeth 
and you know how you said you believed in me 
that i could push through, power through, accomplish everything 

but how am i supposed to do all that when I'm sleeping wide awake 

the moon has failed me once again 
it has me confused with its long lost friend 
conversations about the end 
leave me restless, and its all in my head 

going through the motions as the one you used to know 
eyes glazed over, shapeless, unrecognizable 
life got the best of me, ive never been worse
melatonin day dreams, my entire future feels cursed

so how am i supposed to do anything when i'm sleeping wide awake 

the moon has failed me once again 
it has me confused with its long lost friend
conversations about the end 
leave me restless and its all in my head 

(if i could sleep, i would)

the moon has failed me once again 
it has me confused with its long lost friend 
conversations about the end 
leave me restless and its all in my head

sleeping wide awake - demo (prod. by matthew may)

15.04.2023

lyrics:
i love the look in your eyes
it’s like the burning of desire on fire
i love the look in your eyes
the way you captivate me
to you, i’m drawn to you

with one look, you’re pulling me closer
two more steps, i wanna get to know you
tell me, who are you

mystery, puzzle piece
something in the in-between
your eyes telling me there’s something i’m missing

fixated on finding all the clues
i won’t stop until i’m feeling myself close to you, oh
let me in, tell me all your secrets
do you find honesty to be a weakness
are you keeping quiet ‘cause you’re sared to confess

i love the look in your eyes
locked away, begging to be set free
but there’s no key

mystery, puzzle piece
something in the in-between
your eyes telling me there’s something i’m missing

about you, i’d love to find out

mystery, puzzle piece
something in the in-between
your eyes telling me there’s something i’m missing

with one look, you’re pulling me closer
two more steps, i wanna get to know you

tell me, who you are
oh won’t you tell me
who are you

eyes - demo (prod. by everestdidthis)

19.04.2023

lyrics:
Oh darling, you're far too young
A beautiful song left unsung
Your light, it shines brighter than the stars
Above us all in the absence of the sun
Your pain went unnoticed
But your loss is everywhere
Would it have made a difference
Without that weight to bear

Oh darling, like the spring that's yet to bloom
We loved your light that you assumed
To help us through the night and our own gloom
We are surely missing you

Oh darling, you held on so patiently
I’m sorry, I didn’t see this coming
Burdened by the weight of the moon
Realizing that you’ll never see June
Again, why did it have to be you
Why did it have to be you

Oh darling, like the spring that's yet to bloom
We loved your light that you assumed
To help us through the night and our own gloom
We are surely missing you 

You shined so bright, it’s hard to notice
Dimming light, how could I have missed it
Looking back, you gave the signs
Missed calls in the middle of the night
I tried to fight the fright
Knowing you were not alright

Oh darling, like the spring that's yet to bloom
We loved your light that you assumed
To help us through the night and our own gloom
We are surely missing you 

How many tears do I have left
If I run out, would I be losing you
I don’t care how long they last
As long as I keep holding onto you
How many days til you’re in the past
I’d hate to live if I can’t remember you
I’m missing you

weight on your shoulders (holding the moon) - demo (prod. by bezimenimusic)

16.04.2023

lyrics:
wait, let me catch my breath
finding it hard to fit in
to these standards 
that want me thin
it’s killing me
that it’s something i’ll never be
i know it’s just a number
but i can’t help but let it control
how i’m feeling
standing by myself
i can’t even tell who i am anymore
unrecognized reflection

i wanna feel beautiful, not worry about what i eat
how much is enough, will i ever be where i want to be
i wanna look in the mirror, feel safe in what i see
i'm too insecure, broken, scarred, nothing that i want to be
is it nothing more than a dream

why is it so hard to love myself
when others around me have 
no problem doing it themselves
i’m sick of feeling guilty when i look at myself
does the problem start with me
is that why it’s hard to breathe
when i start to think how i can change
everything that i hate about me

i wanna feel beautiful, not worry about what i eat
how much is enough, will i ever be where i want to be
i wanna look in the mirror, feel safe in what i see
i'm too insecure, broken, scarred, nothing that i want to be
is it nothing more than a dream

want to be - demo (prod. by kingtheta)

10.06.2023

lyrics:
i thought i knew where i would be by now
i was so wrong
i watched my dreams remain as seeds
never growing strong
was it the lack of sunlight, conversations
loneliness
or was it just a combination of it all

i thought i knew what i’d call home
but oh i was so wrong
the walls caved in, the windows broke
foundation never strong
was it the lack of trust, or too much love to fill the
emptiness
or was it none of the above

i know i should let go of my expectations
of what i thought would be a perfect situation
even the stars up above have limitations
oh just how far can they go

homesickness (or lack thereof)
what i’d give to have a home to miss when i’m gone
homesickness (or lack thereof)
i wouldn’t hesitate to give the world to know how it feels just once

i wish i knew how it would feel to leave it all behind
moving on, growing up, my future was defined
but something wasn’t right, was it my life, it all felt like a lie
how can it end when it never even begun
i was waiting for you to set me free
but you were never ready to let me be someone on my own
unable to recognize what i once called home

i know you were acting out of desperation
but all you did was keep me in isolation
leaving me with nothing but my imagination
oh just how far can i run

homesickness (or lack thereof)
what i’d give to have a home to miss when i’m gone
homesickness (or lack thereof)
i wouldn’t hesitate to give the world to know how it feels just once

love me like you thought you did
shelter me, you overdid it

homesickness (or lack thereof)
what i’d give for you to feel like (home)
homesickness (or lack thereof)
i wouldn’t hesitate to give the world to know how it feels just once

homesickness (or lack thereof) - demo (prod. by matthew may)

an unusual upload from me... but here's a verse I added to monsta x's 'the dreaming'. I've been having fun writing original verses to some of my favorite songs. 

my lyrics:
(I was lost chasing my dream)
Show me how to spread my wings and fly
Past galaxies, ’til the end of time
(Looked around to find it’s only me)
Will you smile like it was worth the ride
As if shadows have never blocked your light
Did you ever look back
Did you ever stop trying
Did you ever think to reflect on how fast you’re flying away
Oh tell me, oh tell me

If I had a verse on MONSTA X 'The Dreaming'

here's another original verse in an alternate reality where I've been featured on the track! the full cover + verse is on my YouTube channel

https://youtu.be/JhTgjHJo2Ss

my lyrics:
you got overflowing charisma
look you in the eyes, all i see is an enigma
i can’t even tell what you’re thinking
but the way you’re charming
gave me something to believe in
we could be something
like a scene that’s in the movies
the ones that make the world stop
as if nothing else exists
tell me how you do it
tell me if i’m picking up the vibes that you’re into it
tell me we’re the only ones feeling so magnetic
oh! we could be magic

If I had a verse on TXT x Jonas Brothers 'Do It Like That'

01.25.2025

Lyrics:
I felt myself split in two
Sides of the same coin, away from the moon
In shallow waters, tides are changing
I don’t think I’ll ever be the same
I can’t tell what you are thinking
When you’ve turned away
When I’m slowly sinking
You’re starting to fade
But I always stay

And I am scared of what lies below
Will it pull me under, will I ever know
And I won’t dare to hold you close
Maybe I’ll surrender, maybe you won’t go

Love of mine, don’t let me down
Let me believe you won’t lie to me
Sweet lullaby, into you, I’ll drown

And I am scared of what lies below
Will it pull me under, will I ever know
And I won’t dare to hold you close
Maybe I’ll surrender, maybe you won’t go

ocean breath - demo (prod. by Jacob Vallen)

11.13.2024

lyrics:
Running, running

Slowed down, stalled on a side road
Hit the brakes too hard, I’m not going home
Hazard lights making shadows
Now I’m not so sure that I’m all alone

Glimmer in the mirror
Call my name
Is it my imagination
Breaking me

Thought I saw the devil
Felt it approach
Damned if I do, and damned if I don’t

I’m running, running, running on empty
Cause I never learned how to walk away
I’m going, going, going, don’t tempt me
With more reasons to make me stay
Run in all these circles ’til I’m falling down
One more push and I’ll hit the ground
Heart beat loud, it’s drowning out
All sound

I’m losing all my senses
I’m feeling a new presence

How I’m fighting the voices telling me just to take it
Shake the hand, hand yourself over
Let go

Thought I saw the devil
Felt it approach
Damned if I do, and damned if I don’t

I’m running, running, running on empty
Cause I never learned how to walk away
I’m going, going, going, don’t tempt me
With more reasons to make me stay
Run in all these circles ’til I’m falling down
One more push and I’ll hit the ground
Heart beat loud, it’s drowning out
All sound

Running, running

running - demo (prod. by Matthew May)

08.18.2024

lyrics:
i wish i didn’t care about everything
like all of the things
you probably think
i wish i wasn’t scared of everything
like am i bringing you down with me
i can’t keep it
left unspoken
one more night, i- 

tell me, do you feel it, too?
our love’s more like a fire that once was burning
now it’s fading, going out
maybe it’s all in my head, i’m losing all my senses
trying to keep- keep it all together
but my thoughts are running wild
and now i’m barely breathing

i wish i didn’t care about everything
like all of the things
you probably think
i wish i wasn’t scared of everything
like am i bringing you down with me
i can’t keep it
left unspoken
one more night, i

i’m spiraling, falling, sinking deep until i’m
broken, floating away untethered to this
earth, i’m crying out
but there’s no one to hear me
i’m dying for somebody
to reach out and 
to hold on to me 
i’m drifting
can you hold on to me

i wish i didn’t care about everything
like all of the things
you probably think
i wish i wasn’t scared of everything
like am i bringing you down with me
i wish i was a different version of me
one you’d like to hold for eternity
i can’t keep it
left unspoken

spiraling - demo (prod. by Jacob Vallen)

singer-songwriter in the works

practically everything here is recorded around midnight in my kitchen

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