Insecurities

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Now & Then

i don't belong on earth.

Existential Crisis

Someday

Invisible Chains

Hard 2 Reach

THE STAGE IS SET

by myself.

mixing up the days

prod by. @kadowav
Instagram: @seon_47
@lilxtraatl

SEON
Depressions hitting 
It’s getting worst and I can’t seem to listen 
To the voice inside my that head tell me I can make a difference 
Cause I’m stuck inside the ones that tell me I should not be living 
Well It’s hard to see the beauty when I’m caught in tunnel vision 

do I like to feel this way 
It’s like I’m searching for the pain 
Cause I know if I wanna change 
Then it would have to start today 

But I’m lazy and I’d rather waste my time inside my bed 
I’m Contemplating over words that I just wish I never said 
And All the texts that I would send her that I wish you never read 
Cause I’d be lying if I told you that I wish I wasn’t dead 

All I gots a little hope 
That ones day I won’t be alone 
And that the pain will fade and go 
But how am I supposed to know 

Because there’s nothing in this life that is a promise 
I really hope if I would grab the rope then somebody would stop it 

Lil Xtra 
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse 

I left a message on your phone I really hope that you reply 
I know for you it’s not important 
But for me it’s do or die
I wonder why I’m in this place
Why you’d tell me to my face 
That I’m the cause of all your problems and I’m taking up your space
Or how you air that you breath 
Was not created for me 
I’ve got some problems now you watching while I ruin everything 
I’ve got a question 
How I never seem to learn my lesson 
How I never  grasp the point 
Only grab the Smith and Wesson
 
I keep a thousand yard stare and it’s 
Apparent that my family named perished i’m a fucking embarrassment
When a single good day is an event it’s like a miracle 
I’m  getting off cymbalta now and starting on the seroquil
But honestly that I need a little space to breath 
A way to clear my mind And learn to live with my deficiencies 
A shame I turn to substances to cope I know it’s rough to see 
A life devoid of purpose filled with pain is not enough for me 
 






SEON
But I’ll be stuck with my mistakes
I wear my heart up on my sleeve  
So everybody could just see 
Where I’ve been cut and left to bleed 

All the scars and open wounds 
That I’ve been trying hard to heal 
Like all the memories of us that I just wish someone would steal

My insecurities are bound to get the best me 
But maybe when I will be dead then I will finnaly rest in peace 
Cause lately i can’t seem to ever find a way fall asleep 
The Nightmares running through my head but I don’t think I even dream 

Afraid of who I was knowing that he never far behind
Creep lll into mind and tell me i will never be alright 
There no way I can find someone to ever fill me up inside 
I’m broken losing hope you don’t see my life a living lie 

The smiles on my face 
And All the words that I will say
To make them finnaly go away 
I even said I’m doing great 

I know you know it isn’t true 
You see what I been going through
It is never shocking news 
When I will play this song to you

Lil Xtra
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse

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It Could Always Be Worse(ft. Lil Xtra)

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