Suicidium (Demo)

Save Me

Lyrics

Take a step into madness(x2)

Under shrouded sky’s
Beneath every lie
Isolated within frustration
Gated damnation
Welcome to Suicidium
A place where hope goes to die
A flowing well of self-criticism
A place where the despondent can lie

This is where hope 
Goes to die

Welcome Darkness
Welcome Despair
One inmate so heartless
The other doesn’t care
Welcome Pain
Welcome Misery
One Inmate insane
The other steals your liberty

Under shrouded sky’s
Beneath every lie
Isolated within frustration
Gated damnation
Left all alone
A Mind made prison just for your soul
Welcome to Suicidium
A place where hope goes to die
A flowing well of self-criticism
A place where the despondent can lie

Your mind is against you
Your mind is trying to Kill you

You will never break free
Life will never give you what you need
Once your thoughts sick the dogs
You find yourself stuck in a fog
Here come the blinding lights
Too bad the will is gone to fight
Just as the glimpse of hope
Hangs itself from the rope
Here comes the dark again
Back to Suicidium, where hope is in vein

Here is your safe zone
Here you are all alone
Your memories fade
Happiness seems to stray
So far away

Welcome to a hell designed just for you
Please stay awhile
Don’t go so soon

Designed by its prisoner
A warden
So insecure

Suicidium will eat you alive
Until it is time for you
To die

Suicidium

Lyrics

It’s the…
Sip of the Bottle
The Smoke of the Stoge
The prick of the needle
The snort of the coke

These drugs keep me from pulling the trigger
But my soul grows oh so bitter

Depression Sets and Depression kills
So I ingest more pills
I am a substance abuser
I am such a fucking loser

So I grab the bottle
And I begin to wobble
Light up the cigarette
To forget my painful regret
I inject the Heroin needle
To hide my inner evil
I take the line of coke
Because I have lost all hope

It’s the…
Sip of the Bottle
The Smoke of the Stoge
The prick of the needle
The snort of the coke

I am living a pathetic lie
And soon I will die

Depression sets and depression kills
And here comes another dose of pills
I sit here with all my pain
As I slowly widdle away
These drugs keep me afloat
Until I finally croke
I’ve lost my way
Without much to say

I here you cry
 as I die
Know this…
That’s it’s not over
Until I’m sober
Which is never
I’ve lost my endeavor

I will kill my sorrow
Like there’s no tomorrow
I’ve lost the fight
I can’t see the light
I don’t know how long I will be around
Because
I’m coming down!!!

It’s the…
Sip of the Bottle
The Smoke of the Stoge
The prick of the needle
The snort of the coke

These drugs keep me from pulling the trigger
But my soul grows oh so bitter
I am living a pathetic lie
And soon I will die
Depression sets and Depression kills
I think I am getting the chills
And here comes another dose of pills
Depressions sets and depression kills….
Me

Is there anyone out there?
Oh please God tell me there’s someone who can save me around
Because I’m coming down!!!

It’s the…
Sip of the Bottle
The Smoke of the Stoge
The prick of the needle
The snort of the coke

I just can’t get my fill
Because
Depression Sets
And Depression kills
Me

Depression

Suicidium(Orchestra)

Forlorn (Orchestra)

Order (Orchestra)

Inside the Suicidal Mind

The Knot Tightens

Some horrors are right in your own neighborhood. The Orchestra version for the song "East Sacramento Blood" off of my second demo "The Vampire of Sacramento" a concept album based on the true story of a man thought of as a Vampire who haunted Sacramento in the late 70's.

East Sacramento Blood (Orchestra)

The first track off my third project "7 Hang from the Hillside". Still needed vocals this is the instrumental version of a concept album about 7 lost souls that in different time periods were all connected with their hanging on the same lone tree overlooking a small town. Ranging from the 1800's to the 2000's. This strays away from my usual guitar and orchestra element and is more experimental than my previous work. Vocals coming soon.

Suicide Of The Mind

Hate Me Just as I Hate Myself

Den Siste (The Last) is a solo Black Metal project located in Sacramento, CA.

Just released my first demo (Suicidium). The first three songs to my upcoming album. More on the way.