Lyrics:
Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth, it leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home
I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes
Some say I'm crazy for my love, oh, my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, oh, my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me
I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, any more than I do
People die, but real love is forever



"Even in Death" is the seventh track on Evanescence's demo album, Origin.

Amy Lee wrote the song in 1996 about a hypothetical of loving someone so much that you'd bring them back from the dead. It's 1 of 5 pre-Fallen songs to be played on radio. Additionally, "Even In Death" is the only pre-Fallen song to ever be performed live on radio. Amy re-recorded the song for the compilation album Lost Whispers.

The intro uses a sample from White Zombie's "Ratfinks, Suicide Tanks and Cannibal Girls", which was released four years prior. The same sample was also used later in "Snow White Queen" from 2006's The Open Door. The song also features a clip from the movie "The Crow".

In 2016, speaking about the Origin demo and her re-recording of the song on Lost Whispers, Amy stated that the song was 20 years old, from 1996, and stated: "That song was a little bit of storytelling about not wanting to accept the death of your loved one and just going nuts—to the point that I would go out and dig up the grave. We rerecorded it for the box set because the only recording I had was a rough demo from [when I was] a kid. [The album it’s on,] Origin, is made up of very old embarrassing journal pages from middle school. [The new version of] “Even in Death” is still a cool song; it honors the things I loved about the original, but it’s now in a beautiful light that speaks to who I am today. It feels like redemption."

Evanescence - Even In Death (Origin version)

Lyrics:
How can I pretend that I don't see
What you hide so carelessly?
I saw her bleed, you heard me breathe
And I froze inside myself and turned away
I must be dreaming
We all live [and]
We all die [but]
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems, not what you think
No, I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind, not the real life
No, I must be dreaming
Help, you know I've got to tell someone
Tell them what I know you've done [you've done]
I fear you, but spoken fears can come true
We all live [and]
We all die [but]
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems [not what it seems]
Not what you think [not what you think]
No, I must be dreaming [I must be dreaming
] It's only in my mind [just in my mind]
Not the real life [Not real life]
No, I must be dreaming [I must be dreaming]
We all live [and]
We all die [but]
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems [not what it seems]
Not what you think [not what you think]
No, I must be dreaming [I must be dreaming]
It's only in my mind [just in my mind]
Not the real life [Not real life]
No, I must be dreaming [I must be dreaming]
Not what it seems, not what you think
I must be dreaming
Just in my mind, not real life
I must be dreaming

"Bleed" is an unreleased song by the band Evanescence.


This song is often referred to as "I Must Be Dreaming" and/or "Untitled" (this doesn't mean that the song has no title). According to BMI, however, "Bleed" is the legal title for this song. This song was recorded during the 2001-2002 demo sessions prior to Fallen. It was written by Amy Lee, Ben Moody and David Hodges.

Evanescence - Bleed (Demo)

Lyrics:

You hold the answers deep within your own mind
Consciously, you've forgotten it
That's the way the human mind works
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us to entertain, we reject it
We erase it from our memories
But the imprint is always there

[Can't wash it all away,]
[Can't wish it all away,]
[Can't hope it all away,]
[Can't cry it all away]

The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are

Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts

My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth
My final time

We're supposed to try and be real
And I feel alone, and we're not together, and that is real

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone

You're not alone, honey
Never... Never....

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, no, no

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
Ooh, it all away
Ooh, it all away

Oohhh..

But the imprint is always there
Nothing is ever really forgotten

God, please don't hate me
Because I'll die if you do
Because I'll die if you do
Because I'll die if you do
Because I'll die if you do


"Understanding" is the sixth song, the acoustic version of the song as the fourth outtake on Evanescence EP. It's also the third song in 1999's Sound Asleep.

The song was written by Amy Lee and Ben Moody. The audio clips in the song come from the movies My World Dies Screaming, also known as Terror in the Haunted House (1958), except the line "We're supposed to try... that is real" and "God, just don't hate me.. because I'll die if you do" which are from When a Man Loves a Woman (1994).


Amy Lee on the song:
- “That is a song that we did write together and it's very long; I believe it was eight minutes actually, but, I mean, I don't know how to describe it. It's something we wrote when we were 14 maybe. It's before we knew who we were, It's when we were first trying to experiment."

A remixed version of the song with strings was to be released on a scrapped debut album titled Vanish in late 1998, but the idea was ultimately scrapped and merged into Origin.

It was rumored to be reworked for the band's then-untitled third album in 2010, but this was not confirmed. It's likely to be a rumor created by fans.

Evanescence - Understanding (1999)

LYRICS:
I took their smiles and I made them mine
I sold my soul just to hide the light
And now I see what I really am
A thief, a whore, and a liar

I run to you
[Run away from this hell]
Call out your name
[Giving up, giving in]
I see you there
[Still you are]
Farther away

I’m numb to you
Numb and deaf and blind
You give me all but the reason why
I reach but I feel only air at night
Not you, not love, just nothing

I run to you
[Run away from this hell]
Call out your name
[Giving up, giving in]
I see you there
[Still you are]
Farther away

Tried to forget you but without you
I feel nothing

Don’t leave me here by myself
I can't breathe

I run to you
[Run away from this hell]
Call out your name
[Giving up, giving in]
I see you there
[Still you are]
Farther away

I run to you
[Run away from this hell]
Call out your name
[Giving up, giving in]
I see you there
[Still you are]
Farther away

Farther away
Farther away
Farther away
Farther away
Farther away


"Farther Away" is a B-side from Evanescence's debut album, Fallen. The official studio version first accompanied the single release of "Bring Me to Life" in early pressings, and has had three re-releases since; Its second release was as an exclusive bonus track on the Japanese edition of Fallen, its third release was as a live version on Anywhere But Home in 2004, and the studio version released again on Lost Whispers in 2016 as part of the band's collection of B-sides and outtakes on The Ultimate Collection LP set. Three demo versions of this song during the development of Fallen also exist.

Farther Away - Evanescence (Mystary version)

[Verse 1]
We're still breathing
This can't be love
Baby, we're trying
Shed a few tears more
Oh, we keep on running
Just to get caught
And we know this is
Exactly what we want

[Chorus]
We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

[Verse 2]
Now we feel it coming
Piercing our hearts
Fingers crossed
And we're praying nothing goes wrong
And finally, it's happening
Just a knock on our door
Our hearts are beating
Oh, it's just begun

[Chorus]
We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

[Chorus]
We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

We fear for the best and hope for the worst
(Too happy to be alive)
What love's lies blessed, love's light cursed
(Too happy to be alive)

[Outro]
(Too happy, too happy)
And we're too happy to be alive
(Too happy, too happy)
And we're too happy to be alive
(Too happy, too happy)
'Cause we're too happy to be alive
Oh, my love, so...

HIM - Too Happy To Be Alive (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I love your skin, oh, so white
I love your touch cold as ice
And I love every single tear you cry
I love the way you're losing your life
All the time

[Chorus]
Oh, my baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my darling, completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin, my baby
And beautiful you are
You're gone with the sin, my darling
Completely torn apart

[Verse 2]
I adore the despair in your eyes
I worship your lips once red as wine
I love your scent sending shivers down my spine
I just love the way you're running out of life
You do it all the time

[Chorus]
Oh, my baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my darling, completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin, my baby
And beautiful you are
You're gone with the sin, my darling
Completely torn apart

[Refrain]
Skin so white
And your touch cold as ice
Tears you cry
You're losing your life
Despair in your eyes
Lips once red as wine
Sending shivers
Right down my spine

[Chorus]
Oh, my baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my darling, completely torn apart
Gone with the sin, my baby
And beautiful you are
You're gone with the sin, my darling
Completely torn apart

HIM - Gone With The Sin (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

Let me wake up in your arms, you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone, so far away from life
Close my eyes, hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you my love
You're all I ever wanted
You, my love
Let me never see the sun, never see you smile
Let us be so dead and so gone
So far away from life
Just close my eyes, hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart

HIM - Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I taste death
In every kiss we share
And every sundown
Seems to be the last we have
Your breath on my skin
Has the scent of the end
I'm drunk on your tears, baby
Can't you see I'm bleeding?

[Bridge]
Inside you, I am free
And I'm still waiting
Won't you let me dream
With you, baby?
And I'm afraid to feel
I'm afraid you love me
'Cause you are the one, oh...
You are the one, my love

[Verse 2]
Every time we touch
We get closer to heaven
And at every sunrise
Our sins are forgiven
You on my skin
This must be the end
The only way you can love me
Is to cut me again
And again and again and again and again

[Pre-Chorus]
Inside you, I am free
And I'm still waiting
Won't you let me dream
With you, baby?
And I'm afraid to feel
I'm afraid you love me
'Cause you are the one

[Chorus]
Your love is a razorblade’s kiss
Sweetest is the taste from your lips
Your love is a razorblade’s kiss
Sweetest is the taste from your lips

[Post-Chorus]
Oh, the taste from your lips
Oh, the taste from your lips
Oh, just the taste from those lips
Oh, the taste from your lips

[Pre-Chorus]
Only inside, I am free
I'm tired of waiting
You've got to let me dream
Inside you, baby
I'm not afraid to feel
I want you to love me
'Cause you are the one
'Cause you are the one
'Cause you are the one

HIM - Razorblade Romance (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
We are so young
Our lives have just begun
But already, we're considering
Escape from your world
Waited for so long
For this moment to come
We're so anxious to be together
In death

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause you're all I want
And you're all that I have
So, let this be the end
And soon, we'll turn blue
Won't you take me with you?
For this world is a lonely place
Won't you please take me with you?

[Chorus]
I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl, oh

[Verse 2]
Cut my wrists
I'm open wide for you
Turning paler and I'm dying
To be with you
There is no way
No way we can lose
Before life tears us apart
Let death consume us

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause you're all I want
'Cause you're all I have
Let this be the end
And soon, we'll turn blue
Yes, I want to go with you
For this world is a lonely place
Won't you please take me with you?

[Chorus]
I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl

[Outro]
I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
Yes, I did it all just for her
Love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl, oh

HIM - Poison Girl (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
There was a time
When I could breathe my life into you
One by one
Your pale fingers started to move
And I touched your face
And all death was erased
You smiled like an angel
Fallen from grace

[Chorus]
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection

[Verse 2]
You kissed my lips
With those once-cold fingertips
You brought me back to life
Life
All things come to an end
We don't have to pretend
To fall asleep
Just to wake up again

[Chorus]
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection

[Chorus]
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection
We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
We keep begging for more
Of this resurrection

[Outro]
Of this resurrection
Of this resurrection
Of this resurrection

HIM - Resurrection (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
The sun that she can't stand
Won't ever leave her alone
So now she's smiling
Like heaven's down on earth
And all her wishes
They finally come true
Her heart is weeping
This happiness is killing her
Crushing her

[Chorus]
'Cause she'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go
She'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go

[Verse 2]
The sun is shining
Too bright on her
Again, her heart is weeping
This happiness is killing her
It's crushing her heart
The sun that she's kissing
Won't ever leave her alone
Never let her go

[Chorus]
'Cause she'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go
She'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go

[Refrain]
The sun that she's kissing
Won't ever leave her alone
Never let her go

[Chorus]
'Cause she'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go

She'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go
She'll be right here in these arms
Waiting for love
She'll be waiting in these arms
She can't let go

[Outro]
She'll be right here in these arms

HIM - Right Here In These Arms (Demo 1998)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms

[Chorus]
When love and death embrace

[Verse 2]
I love you
And you're crushing my heart
I need you
Please take me into your arms...

[Chorus]
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace

[Bridge]
Oh, oh, oh
When love and death embrace
Oh, oh, when love and death embrace

Oh, oh
When love and death embrace

[Refrain]
When love and death
When love and death
When love and death embrace

[Outro]
Oh, when love and death embrace
Oh, when love and death embrace
Oh, when love and death embrace
Oh, when love and death embrace

HIM - When Love And Death Embrace (Demo 1999)

LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
We are so young
Our lives have just begun
And already, we are considering
Escape from your world
And we've waited for so long
For this moment to come
We're so anxious to be together
Together in death, whoa-oh

[Chorus]
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death

[Verse 2]
Slowly, I carve my wrists
Open wide for you
Turning paler, oh, I am dying
Just to be with you
And there is no way now
No way we can lose
Before life tears us apart now
Let death consume us

[Chorus]
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you join me in death?

[Bridge]
'Cause you're all I want
And you're all that I have
So let this be the end
The world is a lonely place
Be gone

[Chorus]
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die?
Baby, join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love?
Baby, join me in death
So, won't you join me in death?

Woah...

[Refrain]
Won't you join me in death?
So, won't you join me in death?
Baby, join me in death
So, won't you join me in death?

[Outro]
Join me in death
Join me in death
Join me in death
Join me in death

HIM performed this song for the first time in Ilosaarirock, Finland, on 11 July 1998, which featured an extra verse not included in the studio versions.

The song has been met with controversy regarding its subject matter. "A couple of people blamed me for a suicide someone committed over here saying that 'Join Me' is an invitation to kill yourself," HIM frontman Ville Valo told the European magazine Metal Hammer in 2003. "What I was trying to do was sort of rip-off 'Don't Fear the Reaper' by Blue Öyster Cult, making a rock track of Romeo And Juliet." Lyrics such as "Would you die tonight for love?" have contributed to the misconception that the song is about suicide, which Valo denies, claiming the lyrics refer to giving things up for the sake of love. "It's not about suicide, that song. It's about giving it all away," Valo told the magazine Modern Fix.

Four versions of the song's video exist: three "lazer versions", two of which include different scenes from the movie The Thirteenth Floor, and the fourth being an "ice version", with a vague Romeo and Juliet theme also attributed to the song.

HIM - Join Me In Death (Demo 1998)

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