I don’t want to leave my fantasy 
She lets me see the world 
Through the lens of her delusion

Loading through the windows 
Into the forest of chairs 
Alone dream (alone dream)
In a fantasy (in a fantasy) 
Lost...and...found 
Lost and found on repeat 

Illusion 
Diffusion inside of me 
Diffusion inside of me 

Daydreams 
Fantasies 
Delusions cloud me 
Reality don’t you dare touch me 
I’m gonna scream 
And I’m gonna cry (cause I’m so fearful, of all the demons I create) 
Cause I’m so fearful
Of all the demons I create (so let me breath)

So let me breath (In a fantasy) 
All in a fantasy 
(May the sun shine down and cure it all)

So let me breath 
In a fantasy  

May the sun shine down 
And cure it all 
Delusion don’t leave me 
I’mma make you my reality 
So I may find me 
All in a daydream 

Alone dream 
In a fantasy 
Loading through the windows
Out into the forest of chairs
Set it all ablaze, I say 
And I will build my throne, upon its ash and bone
All in a fantasy 
All within my reality...

Daydreams

Ci Hai Mentito

So that my beauliful love truly knows what is in my heart, I love you sister❤️

I Love You

I named this song Paranoia as it is something that runs in my family and I struggle with everyday. I never like to talk about this as I find it embarrassing and hard to open up about. But it is something that really affects my relationships with people and my mental health. I made this song to maybe help others understand what kind of headspace I often find myself in and what it can feel like to have paranoid thoughts constantly invading your mind. Well I hope this helps you understand what living with paranoia can feel like, thank you.

Paranoia

Childhood Loneliness

Ghost On The Shore

Lyrics:
So hold me close 
So the the demons in the night 
May fade away with time 
I need you to hold me close 
Closer against my soul
Embrace me in your warmth 
Show me everything, that I never had 
Show me that the cold doesn't last 
So hold me close 
Closer against my soul
Closer to your warmth 
Hold me 
And show me 
That the warmth doesn't have to hurt 
I’m so cold against your love 
If I push to hard, I know I’ll fall 
But the sun burns to hot, in the autumn this year
And my melting heart aches in pains
The closer you come, the more the child cries inside 
If only I had your son 
To keep me warm in the past, winters to come
If only I could be your son 
Hold me 
Hold me close
Don't let the fog take me away 
I need you to hold me close 
Closer against my soul
Embrace me in your warmth 
Show me everything, that I never had
Show me 
Hold me 
Show me 
That the warmth doesn't have to hurt 
That the warmth doesn't have to hurt

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