feel like i wanna die

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Written and produced by Derivakat
Art by kimini

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Lyrics:

There's so many voices ringing 'round in my head
Don't wanna lose you, don't wanna fall into this
Melody composed of everything forsaken
Don't wanna lose you, even if you're gonna

Drop me in the desert, drown me in the ocean
Give up all direction just for you
If you're a dream, then I don't wanna wake up
Don't wanna lose you, don't wanna

(Lose you, lose you) I don't wanna
(Lose you, lose you)
You know that I'd go anywhere as long as I'm with you
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Say you love me, say you love me
Say you're with me, say you want me
I would give up everything if we could see this through
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Run to you through burning fire
Reach you in the highest heights
Follow when you're going under
Don't wanna lose you, even if you're gonna

Drop me in the desert, drown me in the ocean
Give up all direction just for you
If you're a dream, then I don't wanna wake up
Don't wanna lose you, don't wanna

(Lose you, lose you) I don't wanna
(Lose you, lose you)
You know that I'd go anywhere as long as I'm with you
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Say you love me, say you love me
Say you're with me, say you want me
I would give up everything if we could see this through
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, you keep me holding on for promises of better days
Carry your burden with you no matter how much it weighs
Even when my heart aches, even when the ground shakes
No matter how long it takes
You know I'd fall down to the bottom of a bottle without you, oh

(Lose you, lose you) I don't wanna
(Lose you, lose you)
You know that I'd go anywhere as long as I'm with you
As long as I'm with you
Say you love me, say you love me
Say you're with me, say you want me
I would give up everything if we could see this through
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Drop me in the desert, drown me in the ocean
There's so many voices ringing round in my head

Don't Wanna Lose You

STREAM & DOWNLOAD: https://fanlink.to/ROYALFLUSH

Electric guitars & drums by PrinceWhateverer: https://www.youtube.com/user/princewhateverer 
Additional vocals by StealingShad3z: https://www.youtube.com/user/BigPonds101
Cover art by SinMaze: https://twitter.com/maxx_tp
Video by Coda: https://www.youtube.com/c/CodaAnim
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LYRICS:
[VERSE 1: MICK]
This ain't a story of the fall from former glory
This is more an allegory for what's wrong with my soul
But hey now
It's nothing tragic, just a little bit of static
That can't be cleared up with magic, yes I've tried it, you know
I'm such a misfit I've got 52 assistants
That distract me from the sweetness that I lost long ago
But hey now
No fucking shanties, grab that drink from out the pantry
Shit goddamn I'm getting antsy y'all so here's how it goes

[CHORUS: JONATHAN] 
I need a drink bad, that royal flush in my hand
My lucky love is in the rum tonight so fuck your demands
And demon rehab, I ain't that much of a fan
Tell me, how can you rehabilitate the husk of a man

[VERSE 2: MICK]
This ain't a story of the fall from former glory
This is more an allegory for what's wrong with my soul
But hey now
I’m just a sinner, got my just desserts for dinner
Every night feels like a winner, every hole is a goal
The only time where I don’t feel so past my prime
Is when the demons in my life refuse to leave me alone
But hey now
No fucking shanties, grab that drink from out the pantry
Shit goddamn I'm getting antsy y'all so here's how it goes

[CHORUS x2: JONATHAN] 
I need a drink bad, that royal flush in my hand
My lucky love is in the rum tonight so fuck your demands
And demon rehab, I ain't that much of a fan
Tell me, how can you rehabilitate the husk of a man
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Stream/DL

Silva Hound ft. Mick Lauer and Jonathan Young - Royal Flush

Take a walk on the sun, live a day on the moon

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Vocals by Derivakat
Production by Netrum
Album Art by Qaramello

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Lyrics:

Take me up to the stars
Take me up to the view
Come and dance in the sky
With no idea where we’re headed to 

Baby come with me
Somewhere we’ll be free
In this infinite blue
We’re a singularity
Snd gravity can’t hold us down
When I’m with you, oh

You lift me up, you take me high
You make me wanna kiss the sky
So take a chance and travel farther than the stratosphere
Just look around at what we’ve found,
You say we’ve only just begun
So close your eyes in 3, 2, 1 (lift off)

‘Cause I don’t care if we never reach a planet
I don’t care if we never touch the ground
It’s not about a final destination
All I want is a life with you around

Oh, oh
Get lost in space
Oh, oh
I wanna get lost in space

Take me up to the stars
Take me up to the view
Come and dance in the sky
With no idea where we’re headed to
Take a walk on the sun
Live a day on the moon
‘Cause I don’t care where we go
Just let me get lost in space with you 

Let’s go somewhere far away
Keep me on your wavelength
On our own continuum
Let our odyssey begin
Take me where the view is clearer
Up where the air is thinner
I’m your astronaut
And you’re my oxygen, oh 

You lift me up, you take me high 
You’re with me every day and night
With you I’m always flying through a new dimension
Just look around at what we’ve found,
You say we’ve only just begun
So close your eyes in 3, 2, 1 (lift off)

‘Cause I don’t care if we never reach a planet
I don’t care if we never touch the ground
It’s not about a final destination
All I want is a life with you around

Oh, oh
Get lost in space
Oh, oh
I wanna get lost in space

Take me up to the stars
Take me up to the view
Come and dance in the sky
With no idea where we’re headed to
Take a walk on the sun
Live a day on the moon
‘Cause I don’t care where we go
Just let me get lost in space with you 

I wanna, yea I wanna 
I wanna see the stars
Take a walk on the sun
Live a day on the moon
‘Cause I don’t care where we go
Just let me get lost in space with you

Lost In Space - Derivakat & Netrum

Red Masterpiece

Woe to the People of Order - Technoblade’s War Ballad (Cami-Cat Full Cover)

Prometheus (Technoblade’s Theme for the Dream SMP) by Knight Of Enable

Silva Hound ft. Edward Bosco and Black Gryph0n - Radio Play

We’re taking aim and open fire

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Song + Vocals by Derivakat
Production + Mix by BlueDrak3
Album Art by beauty_fer https://twitter.com/beauty_fer

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Take Aim (Remix)

Slipknot - Psychosocial

Tell me what’s hidden deep within your mind

Another midtempo EDM track inspired by Valorant’s agent Fade and her Turkish origins :) We wanted to explore writing from the POV of her power called Nightmare, and how it reaches into people’s minds to pull out their deepest fears.

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Written by BlueDrak3 and Derivakat
Additional writing by Yuki @YukiXK and NOT THE MAIN CHARACTERS https://www.instagram.com/notthemaincharacters/
Production & Mix by BlueDrak3
Album Art by Qaramello

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Lyrics:
There’s terror you’ve hidden
Deep within your abyss
Between whispers and shadows
Smothered by your sins

Don’t you find it alluring to seek the unknown
Isn’t it easier to let go
You’ll be chilled to the core and cut to the bone
But never alone, surrounded by

Nightmares, with strings pulled by my hands
Your dreams at my command
Secrets you bury deep within the sand
Like truth trapped in the night
The fears behind your eyes
Tell me what’s hidden deep within your mind

Hunt you down, on the prowl, seek you out
Shivers crawling down your spine
Hunt you down, on the prowl, seek you out
Voices howling in your mind

Empty but your soul is filled with darkness
Tempt me and I’ll close in on my target
You panic, like I planned it
You cant stand it, got you frantic, yea
Sending out the smoke, right as the spark hits

Got every phobia unleashed
You’ll be falling to your hands and knees
I know your weakness, all of your secrets
Do you wanna play hide and seek

Nightmares, with strings pulled by my hands
Your dreams at my command
Secrets you bury deep within the sand
Like truth trapped in the night
The fears behind your eyes
Tell me what’s hidden deep within your mind

Hunt you down, on the prowl, seek you out
Shivers crawling down your spine
Hunt you down, on the prowl, seek you out
Voices howling in your mind

Find the doubt, show the pain, break your will
Shadows haunting in the night
Find the doubt, show the pain, break your will
Refuge fading out of sight

I’m your worst Nightmare be scared
Dynamite, smoke flare
Nightmare, despair
Enemies beware
I’ll be waiting for you in the night air
I’ll be right there
Yea, nobody going nowhere
I’m your worst Nightmare, be scared
Dynamite, smoke flare
Nightmare, despair
Enemies beware
I’ll be waiting for you in the night air
I’ll be right there
Yea, nobody going nowhere
I’m your worst Nightmare

I’m your worst Nightmare
Tell me what’s hidden deep within your mind
I’m your worst Nightmare

Nightmare - VALORANT Original Song

Reality’s cruel, oh I was the fool, used as your tool

ARCHIVE #01: ANGER

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Production & Mix by BlueDrak3 https://twitter.com/BlueDrak3
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Lyrics:
You, you gave all of the signs
Don’t know why I let you in my life
Now you’re bleeding me dry
No regard for my time

So cut me off once and I’ll try, try again
Piss me off twice, I’d still call you my friend
Set me on fire three times and I’m done
‘Cause you lit the fuse and you loaded the gun

So leave me be
It’s hard to imagine that you ever gave a shit
About me
When you only kept me around just to make you look good

Yea, I made you look good
Reality’s cruel
Oh, I was the fool
Used as your tool 

I, I finally realize
Took me too long to figure it out
Now I’ll hang you to dry
You only used me for clout

So I’ll cut you off once, you say try, try again
I’m ghosting you twice you still claim I’m your friend
You set me on fire three times now I’m done
‘Cause you lit the fuse and you loaded the gun

You say it’s not fair
Like I treat you so awful and I should do better
As if I care
When you only kept me around just to make you look good

Yea, I made you look good
Reality’s cruel
Oh, I was the fool
Used as your tool 

I’m done with your lies and I’m done with your games
So cry all about it and I’ll take the blame
You force those around you to live by your rules
You use and abuse us like we’re all your tools

So go away
Just leave me to my own devices and I will be on my way
‘Cause you only kept me around just to make you look good

Yea, I made you look good
Reality’s cruel
Oh, I was the fool
Used as your tool

Tool

keep on chasing stars, wondering where you are...

When you offer a wish to a star, but then all it does is take your hopes and leave you behind. Star Trails is a song that echoes sentiments over and over again. To put your faith and trust in somebody, only for them to leave you behind. And you chase after them, lost and confused, clinging to the remaining memories, hoping for some kind of sign that they will never come back to give you. There’s a desire to hold on, to never admit it’s time to let go.

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Credits:
Writing & Vocals by Derivakat
Production & Mix by Netrum
Mastered by BlueDrak3
Art by Qaramello

Star Trails

BLOODBATH

I Refuse (feat. Maria Brink of In This Moment)

Jekyll And Hyde (2025 VERSION)

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Phantom - NateWantsToBattle

𝔥𝔦 𝔪𝔜 𝔣𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔪𝔜 𝔫𝔞𝔪𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔲𝔷𝔦 ℑ 𝔟𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔡𝔲𝔠𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔞 𝔜𝔢𝔞𝔯 𝔞𝔫𝔡 ℑ 𝔞𝔭𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔦𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔜𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢𝔰 𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔜 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔨𝔰 "𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔞𝔠𝔢 𝔦𝔫 𝔤𝔬𝔩𝔡". ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔰𝔬 𝔥𝔞𝔭𝔭𝔜 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫𝔨 𝔜𝔬𝔲 𝔰𝔬 𝔪𝔲𝔠𝔥! 
𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔞𝔟𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔪𝔢 
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ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔬𝔩𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔶 𝔣𝔞𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔜 
 ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔞 𝔰𝔞𝔤𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔦𝔲𝔰 
ℑ 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢 𝔠𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔜 𝔞 𝔩𝔬𝔱 
ℑ 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔯𝔞𝔚 𝔞 𝔩𝔬𝔱 𝔴𝔥𝔢𝔫 ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔰𝔱𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔰 
ℑ 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔴𝔬 𝔰𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔰 (𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔞𝔯𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔬𝔶𝔦𝔫𝔤) 
ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔢𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔜𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔰 𝔬𝔩𝔡 
𝔞𝔫𝔡 ℑ 𝔞𝔠𝔱 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢 𝔲𝔷𝔦 𝔡𝔬𝔬𝔯𝔪𝔞𝔫 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔪𝔲𝔯𝔡𝔢𝔯 𝔡𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔢𝔰 
𝔪𝔜 𝔟𝔦𝔯𝔱𝔥𝔡𝔞𝔜 𝔦𝔰 𝔦𝔫 𝔫𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔪𝔟𝔢𝔯 𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔜-𝔫𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔥 
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𝔥𝔢𝔜 𝔤𝔲𝔜𝔰 𝔦𝔱 𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔲𝔷𝔦 𝔞𝔤𝔞𝔦𝔫 𝔰𝔬 𝔰𝔬𝔯𝔯𝔜 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱 ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔰𝔬 𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔢 𝔞𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔫𝔢𝔴 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔞𝔰𝔢 𝔠𝔞𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔡 "𝔟𝔞𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔜 𝔡𝔢𝔪𝔬𝔫" 𝔦𝔱 𝔤𝔬𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔬 𝔱𝔞𝔨𝔢 𝔪𝔢 𝔞𝔴𝔥𝔦𝔩𝔢 𝔰𝔬 𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔜 𝔰𝔬𝔯𝔯𝔜 ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔱𝔯𝔶𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔬 𝔪𝔞𝔨𝔢 𝔦𝔱 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔦𝔱 𝔤𝔬𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔬 𝔱𝔞𝔨𝔢 𝔪𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔡𝔞𝔶 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔫𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔤𝔲𝔢𝔰𝔰 𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱 ? ℑ 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔶 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔫𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔬 𝔦𝔱

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Take Aim (Remix)

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