Holding On

Lyrics: 

[Verse 1]
I kept my kindness blunted, filed down to fit the room,
til the room grew teeth and called itself a womb.
You measured my worth by the quiet of my throat,
then sold me a raft with holes for a boat.
I traced the fault lines running under your grace—
contracts in cursive carved into my face.
A lifeline shouldn’t be a leash on the wrist;
I bit through the braid when the rope turned to fist.

[Pre-Chorus]
I won’t be the soft place your violence lands,
not the velvet beneath your iron plans.
If mercy has bones, let it keep them intact—
I’m done bleeding for your sacred act.

[Chorus]
So I grow claws where you trimmed me thin,
anchors in the cliff when the earth caves in.
I won’t beg the storm to change its laws—
I’ll climb its ribs with open claws.
If love is a shelter, let it hold, not bind;
if trust has a door, let it open from both sides.
I won’t scratch for permission from your cause—
these walls will learn my name by my claws~!!!

[Verse 2]
You called my boundaries “barbed” when they cut your demand,
yet wore a crown of thorns and said it was “the plan.”
You sanctified harm with the right kind of light,
but holiness breaks where it hides what it bites.
I kept receipts inked under the skin—
ledgers of nights I refused to give in.
When “peace” was a muzzle, and “care” was a cage,
I learned to spell “freedom” in bone and in rage.

[Pre-Chorus]
If truth is a field, I’ll harvest it raw—
no more pruning the thorn to flatter the law.
If hope is a ladder, let each rung be real;
no painted ascent, no counterfeit steel.

[Chorus]
So I grow claws where you trimmed me thin,
anchors in the cliff when the earth caves in.
I won’t beg the storm to change its laws—
I’ll climb its ribs with open claws.
If love is a shelter, let it hold, not bind;
if trust has a door, let it open from both sides.
I won’t scratch for permission from your cause—
these walls will learn my name by my claws~!!!!

[Bridge]
If grief is a coastline, then time is the tide—
it takes and it gives, but it will not decide.
I plant my fingers in the granite of dawn,
and pull the whole day up like a song.

Hold—hold—hold the stone.

Home—home—home in bone.

YOUR GENTLENESS WAS A GLOVE FOR THE KNIFE.
I’M DONE HIDING THE BLOOD THAT PROVES I’M ALIVE.

[Final Chorus]
So I grow claws where I once grew doubt,
grip in the gale till the thunder runs out.
If love lights a fire, let it warm these flaws—
not remake me smooth, but honor the claws.
I won’t beg the storm to change its laws—
I’ll climb its ribs with open claws.
When you call it “order” while you tighten your jaws—
I’ll keep my throat,
and keep my claws...

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[Verse 1]
I been runnin’ from myself in a dead-end maze,
Every thought in my head like a hand grenade.
Pressure on my chest like a tidal wave,
Heart beat loud like it’s tryna misbehave.
They want me silent but my blood too loud,
Every scar on my wrist is a ghost I found.
I’m a shadow with a pulse and a mind unbound —
Break me down once, I’ma tear the whole ground.

[Chorus]
rip my skin open — let the monster out!
I’M DONE HIDIN’ ALL THE PAIN THAT I SCREAM ABOUT!
HEARTBEAT BOOMIN’ LIKE IT’S GONNA BLACKOUT!
IF YOU WANT A WAR — THEN I’M GIVIN’ IT NOW!

[Verse 2]
I’m a glitch in the frame tryna break the code,
Memories in my brain gettin’ overload.
Every fear in my chest I won’t let implode —
So I spit it on the mic ’til the fire explodes.
Told me calm down — but I been dead inside,
I don’t feel love, only rage collide.
If I burn too bright, then I’m fine to die —
Rather turn to ash than live a lie.

[Bridge]
I’ve been drowning…
In the silence…
LET ME BREATHE —
LET ME BREAK THE VIOLENCE!
LET ME—
SCREAM—
FREE!!

[Final Chorus]
rip my skin open — let the monster out!
I’M DONE HIDIN’ ALL THE PAIN THAT I SCREAM ABOUT!
HEARTBEAT BOOMIN’ LIKE IT’S GONNA BLACKOUT!
IF YOU WANT A WAR — THEN I’M GIVIN’ IT NOW!

[Outro]
Yeah…
This is the real me…
And I’m not holdin’ back.

Rip My Skin Open

[Intro]
Yeah…
I been hidin’ from myself,
Ain’t nowhere left to run…

[Chorus]
TEAR MY SHADOW OFF ME — I DON’T WANNA FEEL NOW!
BREAKIN’ THROUGH THE WALLS TILL THE WHOLE HOUSE FALLS DOWN!
HEAR MY HEART CRACK — BOOM BOOM — LIKE A WAR SOUND!
I DON’T WANNA LIVE IF I KEEP GETTIN’ TORN DOWN!

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I been slippin’ in the dark,
Cold hands on my throat when I sleep too hard.
I don’t trust no soul, they don’t know my scars,
Said I’m doin’ better — but I’m fallin’ apart.
I’m a glitch in the code, I’m a ghost in the hall,
Punchin' holes in my chest just to feel at all.
Heart iced out, but it still might thaw —
Hit the switch in my brain then it all goes raw.

[Pre-Chorus]
RUN,
RUN,
RUN FROM THE MIRROR —
IT GETS NEARER,
IT GETS CLEARER…

[Chorus]
TEAR MY SHADOW OFF ME — I DON’T WANNA FEEL NOW!
BREAKIN’ THROUGH THE WALLS TILL THE WHOLE HOUSE FALLS DOWN!
HEAR MY HEART CRACK — BOOM BOOM — LIKE A WAR SOUND!
I DON’T WANNA LIVE IF I KEEP GETTIN’ TORN DOWN!

[Verse 2]
I’m a bomb with a fuse that’s too damn short,
Pain on my sleeve like a blood-stained sport.
Shove my fears in a bag, throw ’em off that port —
If I drown with the weight, then it’s no one’s fault.
Shut down, restart, but the code still glitch,
Told me calm down — nah, I’m scratchin’ that itch.
If life’s a game, then I broke that switch,
Now I scream on the beat just to feel that hit.

[Outro]
I'm not okay

I'm not okay…
I'm not okay…
I’M
NOT
OKAY—
HIT THE FLOOR, LET THE WHOLE WORLD BREAK.


Tear My Shadow Off

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Tear My Shadow Off

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