Girls Rituals "Deproliferation" - Nov 22 2022

I follow the motion line that comes out my chest
It leads me somewhere, I'm still confused
I think my path intersects with you
I don't mean to

I don't know what people want
I just know what I want so I get it for myself
Can't imagine what you'd want from me
Just as a joke I imagined a couple things

I was like the Kreayshawn to your SGP
I could be anywhere if you needed me
I could prove anybody wrong about anything
You've seen the worst in me.

If you find my heart's in tatters
Just remind me stupid things really matter
We could do nothing and put out static forever

If you find out my heart's in tatters
Please remind me that stupid things matter more than anything

I got a red, red ribbon in my hair
You're so cute
Goddamn you're so dumb
I got a red, red ribbon in my hair
I try to signal something but you're so ignorant

I like it.

I was like the Kreayshawn to your Spaceghostpurrp
I could do anything, you know I'll make it hurt
I could do anything wrong
If you needed me
I could do anything wrong

I was like the Kreayshawn to your SGP
I could be anywhere if you needed me
You know I'm lying, there's no guessing
You've seen the worst in me

Worst in me

http://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/self-titled-3

uh ok
hi um
kay

just do what you want
you have no obligation to make anyone happy but yourself
you'll never make complete sense
no one will see the whole picture but you
so you need to support yourself
you matter.

yep... ok
just do what you want
just do what you want
you don't need them
uhhhhhhhhhmmmmm
follow your intuition
how the fuck are you gonna make it through the day without saying what you got on your mind

just do what you want
just do what you want
you gotta do what makes you happy
just do what you want
just do what you want
you gotta hold on to yourself before... ummm...
just do what you want
just do what you want
i obviously don't care
just do what you want
just do what you want
just do what you want
just do what you want
just do what you want
just do what you want

Mom - No Obligation

http://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/self-titled-2

get packed up
make it a list if it helps
or keep a mental index
we'll always figure it out cos

i know
y’ know
i can’t barely lift my self
i know you’ve been twisting turning n all i do is stay
but everything is alright
everything is gonna be ok
i’ll just keep repeating that as i sit on my hands and be afraid

but everything knows
it'll all turn out
i'll sink to the ocean floor
but i'll figure things out

i know you don't want me to go
but you can't help but twist and turn and stuff
but with everything and all you know everything is going to be a little rough
and i know you feel it in your bones
all i know's i feel it in my bloodstone

well i know
there's always better ways to do things
but sometimes
you gotta hold your breath and just plow through things

get packed up
you have a long day ahead
i'm not a child anymore
man it's not the first time i've been humiliated but

i know
i know
i can’t barely lift my self
i know you’ve been twisting turning n all i do is stay
but everything is alright
everything is super duper ok
i’ll just keep repeating that as i sit on my hands and be afraid
but everything knows 
but everything knows

well i know
there's always better ways to do things
but sometimes
you gotta hold your breath and just plow through things
i know
there's always a better way to sort of do things
but sometimes
you just gotta hold your breath and plow right through things

Mom - S.N. Morning

from "dark city dogbreath" split with britney cage

Big dog
I said, are you gonna bite?
They say a wise dog never barks

Oo~oo

I could never really tell if you're...
If you're true or you're false with me
But I'll still take you how you are

Live my life
In 20 minutes
Bodies wear themselves out
I get high and start to panic
Getting lost in the crowd
Back when I was a kid
Didn't even know being scared was even allowed
But I feel it now...
Like I felt it then
Yeah yeah, I can feel it now

If its already bad
Might as well make it worse
Cant feel a thing 'til it hurts
Put that pussy to work
You see me just how I am
You wear me down past the skin
Western blood on my hands
You shine and sparkle with spit

Big dog
I said, are you gonna bite?
They say a wise dog never barks

Oo~oo

I could never really tell if you're...
If you're true or you're false with me
But I'll still take you how you are

I hope you still can talk to me
Even if our garden's wilted
We used to laugh out loud all night
Now we're just strange and prickly

iPod paused in my hands
I feel dead thru my skin
Bloodflow sweetens the deal
Western sugar again
Dancing on a rotting wooden wheel that bleeds as it spins
And I need you again

There is no point in saying sorry
Be polite and just say nothing, oo
There's no point in saying sorry
Please don't be sorry you loved me

Live my life
In 20 minutes
Bodies wear themselves out
I get high
And start to panic
Getting lost in the crowd
Back when I was a kid
Didn't even know being scared was even allowed
But I feel it now...
Like I felt it then
Yeah yeah, I can feel it now

dark city dogbreath

Girls Rituals - Dogbreath

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3

art by eddy atoms

i fuck up everything but just see how long i'll stay mad at everyone
yeah i fuck up everything and i always blame everybody but myself
i do whatever setting myself up for failure is just how i tend to have fun
yeah im slime and sleaze im really not so hard to please i just want to be loved by everyone

my whole body feels like a clenched fist
la la la la la la la la la
my whole body feels like complete shit
la la la la la la la la la

but with my perfect judgement everything i do is right
so pure hearted in this awful world why do i even try
who knows what you think about me, felt so shitty yesterday
why do i even bother when i know i will again today

i fuck everything up
me i me i me me i me me i me i

iim so sick of thinking that things will be ok
that my life will be fine someday
it's been fucking years that ive been stuck in one place
i'll always be here because its me that wrong with me

Mom - I Fuck Everything Up

Conejobeat is a Second Life-native URLfest. Appearing with nezu, waterfairy, tanamala, brand new, curaga, cherry chip, goo girl, cavi, jelly, ezra exorcism, and /f on 2024-02-17
https://conejobeat.com/

00:00 Edie Sedgewick - Michael J. Fox
02:31 Wetcat - Janitor (Suburban Lawns cover)
04:55 Chynna x Hudson Mohawke - MadeInChynna / FEMM - Fxxk Boyz Get Money *original mix*
06:40 Black Dresses - GOOD THINGS HAPPEN
11:39 The Faint - Salt My Doom
13:30 LCD Soundsystem - Daft Punk Is Playing at My House / Ying Yang Twins - Whisper Song *original mix*
14:39 Britney Spears and Madonna - Meh Against The Music SlEezy E and Sexcopter Rul remix
17:30 milk:blood - WOMB RAIDER (ft Bark Bark Bark) / Metro Zu - Cokeworld USA *original mix*
19:55 watchusdiedotcom - Hitman / Sami - Marty & Jack *original mix*
23:12 Girls Rituals - Reciever / Cam'ron - Oh Boy
26:31 Shizuo - New Kick ft Naila Chaudry
28:15 katie dey - never falter hero girl *original mix*

Dj Lettuce Leaf (Devi McCallion) @ Golden Conejobeat

I had fun making this
https://watchusdiedotcom.bandcamp.com/album/watchusdiedotcom
https://worldbuilding.bandcamp.com/album/neighborhood-watch-volume-one

watchusdiedotcom 'Hitman' x Sami 'Marty & Jack'

Chynna & Hudson Mohawk 'MadeInChynna' x FEMM - 'Fxxk Boys Get Money'

milk:blood 'WOMB RAIDER' x Metro Zu 'Cokeworld USA'

Premiered 2024-02-17 @ Golden Conejobeat
Drums ripped from Cam'ron 'Oh Boy' prod. Just Blaze

Receiver leaking brand new colours
Closest ER out of range
We put our hearts into eachother
We lose ourSelves but still don't change
I wanna touch the nothingnesses
I only ever had too much
My body: numb with all its data
Send all my numbers going off 

He's got a head like a- Like a boy- Like a-
He's got a head just like a boy
Look like a boy to me
It'll be ok
It'll be ok
x2

What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

What good is that?
What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

Receiver

Premiered 2024-02-17 at golden conejobeat
My edit of katies song from the album of the same name
https://katiedey.bandcamp.com/album/never-falter-hero-girl

a feather touch
wouldn’t take too much
for you to fuck my life up
and only once
did it feel this much
like my heart was dying

to leave my cavity
and jump back into yours
only an idiot would indulge that again
i wanna live my life
but there’s no time for that
never falter hero girl

you’re late to learn
what’s what aren’t you ?
you’re too sparkly to die
with a death flag cough
in ur guts and stuff
so obvious when you lie

but you’re so damn beautiful
when you don’t wanna talk
i never met someone who lacks like that before
all the mystery is embedded into you
never falter hero girl

i’m used to trying to change myself to please someone
but you make me wanna be the best girl in the world
i just realised it was in me all along

unleash yourself (while there’s still time for that)
you can be anything , anything at all
i care so much more than i ever knew
never falter hero girl

katie dey - never falter hero girl (girls rituals shitty drum edit)

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3

Mom - Warped Tour

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3 
buy my albu m 

Mom - Sugar Pool

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3
thanks for buying my music!!!

Mom - Macaroni & Beer

https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/3
arty by eddy atoms https://www.instagram.com/eddyatoms/
i’m going to fucking jump
i’m going to fill my lungs
i’m going to fucking yell
i’m going to have fun
way out in the sun and
i’m going to love myself
well if you want my blood
i’ll make so much blood
that you’re gonna fucking drown
i’ll always roll along
i’ve always been strong
getting stronger than myself

it feels like i’m under water
not content to do whatever
i hate every little choice I’ve made so
I’ve got no choice but to keep moving forwards
i hope one day life will be better
climb a ladder made of my sweat and
blood but the blood eater hungers
everything just keeps getting harder

Mom - Bloodeater

From Christmasasaurus Unleashed 2. Listen to the whole thing here https://christmasasaurus.bandcamp.com/album/christmasasaurus-unleashed-2

Featuring marie a
https://www.instagram.com/808gum?igsh=M2V6Nno2enBqbW40

Cap & gown in purple & gold
You're 22 years old & a woman now you're told
Aunt Beth & Charlie / write a check out to the graduating niece 
& you mark your independence with a signature on a lease
But home is a photograph you tape to your wall 
It's gonna be a cold white Christmas in St Paul

Beer for breakfast who's gonna scold
You've got your ea-rly hours dulled by the cigarettes you roll
Second shift as a fry cook, that's your holiday in grease`
& you trudge to work through the snow in a coat down to your knees
& you linger at the twinkle lights as you pass by the mall 
& count the days
to a cold white Christmas in St Paul


Feather down. The night gets so cold
& you ignore the smell of mold while you're smoothing out the folds
When you're on your own you've got no one to please
In a Minnesota city just as bare & as mean as the winter trees
But you'll be damned if you're the one making collect calls 
on a Cold white Christmas in St Paul

Cold White Christmas ft. marie a (Casiotone for the Painfully Alone cover)

7" tri-single vinyl out on Heaven's Lathe in May. Mixed and master by Katie Dey. Vinyl art by marie a / @808gum

Lyrics
I want things to be beautiful
I forgot things could be beautiful
I forgot it was a option
I had given up hope

I want things to be beautiful
I forgot that things were beautiful
I forgot it was a option
I had given up hope
I'm giving up hope
 
That maybe it could change 
That maybe there are options
It could take a different shape
It might not survive the change

But it could survive the change
Will we survive to stay the same?
1000th prison in my eyes
I've seen these lonely deaths be died
I'm no stranger to the sight 

It doesn't even move me.
I'm the type to keep it pushing 
I wouldn't be here if I wasn't 
I'll walk to work past wasted bodies
I hardly even mind

Change is in my hand 
Money changes in my hand 
..'s in my hand 
Money, change is in my hand 
I want things to be beautiful

I Want Things to Be Beautiful

reddishness is out now!!  https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

art by tanaka masami

if you really want 
i’ll become the smog around you 
i’ll surround you with my love 
no matter how much 
how could it ever be enough 

i want to take care of all your needs 
i wanna give you 
everything 
i wanna build a nest inside yr lungs 
and curl up and go to sleep as close as i can be to you 

keep me 
keep me safe 
i need you 
more than anything 

treat me like a doll 
ill be super perfect 
see the real me 
buried in the plastic 

every fucking day 
i wake up in a panic 
spinning like a drill 
i can never stop 
tearing up 
inside myself 

i built myself 
from barely fitting parts 
scraped up off the floor 

bubbling 
melting in the heat 
melting u and me together 

whats this stuff 
is it even flesh 
is it even blood 
is it even me 

i built myself 
from barely fitting parts 
i still fall apart

Girls Rituals - Treat Me Like A Doll

get my cool new album!!!!!!
https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

hi hello its nice to see you. oh, you’ve always felt the same? i know. “its on fire”. i really want to get… “enough”. have you even noticed that I’m trying to find you out? theres lots of other stuff that i could do to let you know! 
all i knows your name. it feels like I’m reaching thru a haze. ill put it in yr hands for you to take. i’ll grip you even tighter every day. i’m being… 

i’m being serious 
so please take me seriously 
i’ll be yr sun shine 
i can be whatever you need 
don’t underestimate what i can do 
i want to spend all my time on you 
i can be yr springtime 
yr girlfriend i can be yr peach 

ummm i can barely last any longer yr gravity’s stronger 
when my bones all start snapping i hope that you like me back

Girls Rituals - Shitty Peach

Reddishness out now : https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

i feel its gross hot breath breathing in my face 
after all this time.. no fuck that.. 
i wanna go to disneyland 
i dont wanna do more shit that i hate 
i wanna have some real fun 
i wanna see the fireworks 
i wanna prove what a stupid bitch i am 
i wanna get way too drunk in the california sun 
like i always dreamed of 
i wanna see thru to my true self 
i wanna play puzzle games on a iphone on a air plane. 

its true i know just how you feel 

i feel it too 

i'll be the thing you're thinking of 
up thru the sky and up above 
reach down to me and pull me up 
just one more time i swear ill make it worth your time this time 

so freaked out i wanna fucking scream 
please put on some tlc 
please please 
stay close to me 

i dont wanna be a concept that you put evil thoughts into 
i dont want that 
im a person 
i work real hard everyday

Girls Rituals - I Know

i fucked in heaven
i fucked in hell
i fuck with angels
i fuck myself
i dont do anal
dont touch my mouth
i fucked in heaven
i fuck in hell
i fuck with angels
im one myself
i fuck the air force
they pay my bills
i fuck the devil
i feel the scale
feel the scale
weve got that new tech
but i dont know where we're headed
shes got that snake head
please use that medusa
theyre so outdated
they know it
they read our texts but weve got new ways that they dont know yet

Mom - I Fucked In Heaven

art by me and @ivyatoms

every year that goes by i just seem to get older
and the tide goes up and the water washes over
and i know myself less going in and out my head
going in and out my head hooded death gets a boner

fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
and you got your nails long
whyd u cut off all your hair
fucking sickos. fucking sickos everywhere
are u fucking doing ok?

ill be a black crow in my next life
flying over an office park

i smash and curse this skin
oh i dig and dig and dig
pulling away at the fat and muscle
always searching further in
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the answer to everything
somewhere deep inside my body
has to be the reason for why I’m like this

2017 / 01

Girls Rituals - Black Crow

its ready if you want it
its on fire and its nothing
if you touch it you can have it
but if you touch it youll become it

its like a wound 10 miles wide
how can it heal if we cant see to either side
its carnivale
its 2012
im in a new shit now
keep changing shapes until it helps

lets try a new dance
lets make some new shit up
under the new moon
lets make a new style
lets fuck something up tonite

lets fuck something up tonite
lets make it right tonite
lets fuck something up tonite
you dont have to be alright tonite

im never knowing for a sea of fire
im never hoping for a world of pain

tell me how it feels
tell me if its real or not
is it really real
tell me if its real or not

Girls Rituals - New Moon

slightly lost my voice today but still wanted to make a song

above my head theres angels laughing
its like my soul is stuck in traffic
10 steady years of never passing
i try to fly on lace wings
but i keep on crashing down

on my head theres demons dancing
their charcoal hooves are always tapping
where i go theres strangers laughing
i wanna look like a girl but i always do it wrong

wheres my self / soul / sell

Girls Rituals - World Dissolving Into Slime ASMR

im a million degrees
skin turning green
my stomach is churning

my soul gem went dark
god please forgive me
i keep making it worse
not making it better

fill up my heart
I’m swimming in human blood
holding my breath
i keep swimming deeper

down and down
im falling for infinity
beautiful
I’m shining out so brilliantly 
i start to drown
i breathe her in so vividly
the taste, the sound
the trillium, the trilogy

2017 / 02

Girls Rituals - Prayers 2 Heaven

A really old track that i made from ripping off one of georgies instrumentals

i know you mean well
but i dont know if you meant it when you say that you trust me
im sick and self obsessed
i got my ears all bent up into shapes
i feel so selfpitious when you're surrounded by other creeps
who also need your time and your sympathy
are you warped by a lifetime
of men expecting your touch to hell cos your pretty
it leaves me wondering what it means when you touch me
but i dont want a white mage
i want a friend with which i can hang
just saying
you got a really great public face for the people i cant stand
and im not sure im not one of them

when people treat me like shit
when i think strangers only want my attention
i havent seen you in months
your just as distant as i am to them
and you're still pretty much my best friend

ill kill this friendship by putting my whole weight on it
i cant imagine a world where you dont think that im garbage

i cant get over the thought 
that im a child and youre santa clause
that youre a man and im a dog
i dont want anything between us

im not sure if you lie to me
but for the sake of my own sanity
i need you not to lie to me when ur angry

Rare shit

Bulldog Eyes ft. Vriska Serket - Cartoon Wound

every body breaks down
nothings gonna carry you forever
always wanna carry on
always wanna scream in terror
im just tryna be myself
if it gets me killed no wonder
thinking i should by a gun
probably shouldnt but whatever

ive been getting so much static
ive been getting brainwashed and shit
please dont really drink the water
keep your head down theres tonnes of cops out

if theres nowhere to run
if theres nowhere to hide
can we dig a hole right into the other side
if theres nowhere to run
if they already

2017 / 03

Girls Rituals - Every Body Breaks Down

art by silkpath 
silkpath.tumblr.com

resting on a sunday
hungry for some subway
just another doomsday
alarms are going off
getting on a airplane
surfing on a bloodwave
hiding on the airwaves
nails keep breaking off

i dream a secret dream
i dream something thats just for me

her soul is tangled like some apple earbuds
that girls ugly but its not her fault
please dont worry im cryin over nothing
please dont crush me im just a tiny bug

putting on foundation
cruising for donations
in all of this creation 
i just wanna flirt with u
stuck in transformation
another new mutation
total information
information overload

i dream an evil dream
in my dreams im dancin in hell

Girls Rituals - Cryin Over Nothing

art by beatrix urkowitz
https://visualdisturbances.bandcamp.com/album/emergency-2

we use our smokescreens 
we have our teamspeak headset radios on 
nobodys speaking 
just heavy breathing on the mic 
its already been such a weird and fucked up night 

they say climb out or crawl 
but really do whatever you want 
its ok to do it wrong 
i wanna do it wrong 
i wanna fuck it up 

i dont know what to do but get high every day 
alone in the dark 
hide out and blazed 
im paranoid but the world seems strange 
so i go on the web and i watch dragon maid 

its ok to get thru the day 
but wouldnt it be great 
if everything was different 
and things were ok? 

lets go fuck ourselves 
while we’re in this hell 

I’m sitting down on a rainbow 
sparkle rain thru the headlights 
get it get it in a headlock 
that special feeling 

??? 
dont fucking experiment 
did you fucking hallucinate? 
get that shit out my face 

I’m washed around the whole earth 
by the sexy raw waves of the ocean 
i think theres a conspiracy 
i think theres something strange thats going on 

lets try some new stuff 
cos everything we know is ending 
fuck it 
don’t rebuild it 
now theres room for something different

EMERGENCY!

Girls Rituals - EMERGENCY!

overflowing sludge
weaponized industrial garbage
i could use a hug
pat my head and tell me im wrong about everything
feeling like a wound
that healed around a knife
if the knife was also a dick

i wanna wanna live but i wanna die
as a real girl
a real girl

I could use a hug

Beat and vocals fucked up and mixed with help from rook :) 

is this your first christmas as a woman? than this song is specially dedicated to u 

merry christmas ho ho ho...!!!!
lyrics
I dont want a lot for xmas 
there is just one thing i need 
there is just one thing i need 
i dont care about the presents underneath the xmas tree 
i dont need to hang my stocking there up on the fireplace 
santa claus wont make me happy with a toy on xmas day 

i just want u 
i just want u for my own 
fuck! 

i just want u for my own 
more than u could ever know 
make my wish comes true 
all i want for xmas is u 

i wont ask for much this xmas 
i wont even ask for snow 
im just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe 
i wont make a list and send it to the north pole for saint nick 
i wont even stay awake to hear those magic reindeer click 

cos i just want u here tonite 
holding on to me so tight 
what more can i do 
all i want for xmas is u 

all... 

u

All I Want For Christmas Is You

Back on some faggy 2005 electro punk shit

2018

Kreayshawn x Girls Rituals - Gucci Gucci 2

I love music 
i love music
i love to sing and dance
i love the world
i love the world
even if u cant believe that fact

cos im ugly so i know how to feels to be ugly
im so pretty so i know how it feels to be pretty
im so ugly so i know how to feels to be ugly
im so pretty so i know how it feels to be pretty


tidal wave
wave of blood
wave of blood washing over me

there used to be a reason for me in this world

im a witch
im a bitch
i just wish something would turn out right for once
im a witch
im a bitch
im a weirdo
im a bimbo
i just wish something would turn out right for me just one more time

i figure
i figure one day things will get better
i just hope they dont get 10x fucking worse like they always do but...

tidal wave of blood washing over me

I LOVE MUSIC

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when i go into my head i run away from all the world
when i go into my head i get so twisted i get so turned
i cant tell u anything
gotta keep it all to myself right now
theres a lot of shit i cant talk about

everybody wants to know ur secret
everybody wants to know whats wrong
everybody can tell ur broken
they know u dont belong

if u want to find me u can look inside ur broken heart and
if u want to suck my blood out god will help ur teeth get sharp
theres just something in my world 
thats much too big and much too violent
i cant look or look away
and im so scared i just stay silent

everybody wants to know ur secret
everybody wants to know whats wrong?
everybody can tell ur broken
they know u dont belong

"Whats Wrong?"

can you suck my fucking dick again? 
please just breathe me in like oxygen 
im a princess 
do you want this? 
can you feel it 
yet? 

i wanna make you say it 
but you've always been kinda 
shy... 
thats okay 
we still have time 

feeling's different than believing 
lots of feelings are deceiving 
i don't care if i'm bleeding 
i'd rather be dying than this nightmare that i'm dreaming of 

oh my heart feels heavy 
are you sure that you're ready 
i guess that things could get messy / don't you think that its scary that i feel it in my belly? 

it's never enough 
i'll never give up 
i'm covered in cum 
i'm covered in blood 

i just wanna fuck 
i think i'm in love 
my insides feel wrong 
i just wanna fuck

Girls Rituals

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